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[Never Enough]

No need to apologize bro! You did what you could and did it as fast as you could. The mother should be thankful you were there! Good job man!!

 

[acneman]

thanks never enough she may be thankful i dont know but i know guilt and i feel it. i think it is connected to past events where people died in front of me despite my efforts to save them. for a short time i was in a profession which involved first response to emergencies and i saw people die and held a boys hand while he died. and there was nothing i could do. so my wife thinks i kick myself in the ass all the time for what i should have done and couldnt or didnt and i think of these things even though its been over five years.

i guess im still upset about the little girl or mabey just remembering.

i remember throwing a 21 year old man to the ground because he was dead and in the way of me getting to his mother. he was hanging out of the window dead while his mother was on the floorboard under the dash. couldnt open the door i used a tire tool to smash the winshield and tore it off with my hands im looking at the scars now. i bled so much i had to wear latex gloves to do my paperwork and the blood seeped out at the wrist. the mother lived 6 hours at the hospital. a whole family destroyed in a split second father driving--dead son sitting shotgun--dead mother never regains consciousness --dead.

i guess its my time for retrospection.

 

[Bigsatan13]

Good job! It never ceases to amaze me that only a few people have what it takes to take action in the time of crisis. I've seen this happen loads of times and most people just sit there with their mouths open.....even when it's their own kid who needs help. You know what you gotta do to conquer your own problems and just do it. Good luck.

 

[acneman]

thanks Bigsatan13 im gonna try to stop feeling sorry for myself now. i dont need to dwell on these things. concentrate on what would have happened if i hadnt been there. if nobody has died it can always get worse.

 

[Chuck T]

I know that was a terrible accident but you did all you could. You actually did SOMETHING, how many people just sat there and watched while you were trying to help her? Try and look at the good that came from your actions. She could have been burned much worse over more of her body if you hadnt been there. I am sure that her and her family greatly appreciate what you did. You should be proud that you had the courage to go help her and at the same time pray that she will be alright. I hope everything gets better for you and her bro.

 

[acneman]

thanks Chuck T

and to everyone

if i lose my links that sux but when i really feel bad you guys come thru thanx

 

[Never Enough]

Anytime Bro! Sometimes it helps to just talk about these things. I think I know how you feel. I've had my share of experiences with death and yes you always find yourself thinking well what if I had done this or that, but we didn't and this is the way it turned out. I find thinking about the people you helped where everything turned out good really helps. You gotta take the good with the bad. If it does not kill you it makes you stronger!! Any you ever need to talk you can email me if you want.

 

[acneman]

thanks Never Enough

 

[Never Enough]

No prob Bro!

 

[acneman]

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