Stay away from those drugs, when they are not truly needed, i.e. clinical depression, they can be very bad, and even make you go crazy. It is ok to feel and hurt, time will solve this. Follow the advice here, Get back to training, buy yourself something you want, find little joys, eliminate the bad shit. It is such a clishay [i can't spell it] but there are so many more women. You are speciall, don't settle for less than what you want, but look back and learn about yourself from this. We all hurt sometimes. Even when things are good, it will rain again. Time will solve this.