this is the AAS forum bro so you aren't gonna get much info on that mental issue you have.. try some forums that deal with that specifically.
i know a good friend of mine at the gym is bi-polar and he doesn't take shit for it. he just deals with it... i mean he is a little crazy and says stuff that makes you scratch your head but he is a good guy and takes out his issues in the gym.. we have become a society too dependent on drugs. i fail to understand how someone at your age can be considered crazy, all teens are crazy!! but once they have you hooked i guess its over.