Seriously, shes not a whore. She just made a bad choice of profession cuz she felt she needed to do it for the money b/c I was always kinda strict about spending it cuz well we didn't have any. I knew I had done alot of things wrong and we were about to go on a cruise together and start going out alot more right before all this happened...I knew alot of things I did didn't make her happy and I was trying to restore the love that we had just a month or 2 earlier.
I drove her to her parent's house today where she is going to get her car and drive to see the guy she cheated on me with in SC again. She is probably sleeping with him again, so I'm feeling quite wonderful right now obviously. She is coming back Sunday night and I might see her again then or Monday.
We seriously have just been through so much together, we know eachother inside out. I honestly feel that she is my soulmate, THAT is why I may sound like such a pussy or whatever about this. I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I love her unconditionally, I always will. I hope she sleeps with this guy and spends some time alone and just remembers all the things I did for her. Realizes that I would jump in front of a train to spare her life. Would do anything and everything in my power to keep her from ever being unhappy again if she would just give our love one last chance.
I don't think it makes me weak, or makes me incapable of moving on. I just don't want a piece of me, my soul, to just wither away and die. I want my baby back.