Been there. Not as much was involved (i.e. apt,etc.)but I hurt the same. I feel for you, but there's nothing anyone here can say or do to improve how you feel. You need to experience all the emotions that come with breakups: anger, guilt, depression, desparation. I'm sure there's more. Do your best to keep your head up. Turn to a support system if you have one. Talk, talk,talk. Don't bottle it up. Just hurts more. Each day it gets better. Don't smother this girl otherwise you'll never get her back. If you act like a co-dependent it'll only reinforce the reason she left you. Be strong. If you have the chance, show her how strong you are. Don't break down and start sobbing your eyes out every time you see/talk to her. You'll get through this. I wish you the best.