Let the flogging commence! (seriously need some advice)

[Burpees]

what's up guys, im going through some shit and it's got me pretty down and out. i'm seeing a therapist and im dealing with full blown depression.. i'm better this week but the previous month went from bad to worse. anyway, done and over with and moving forward.

ive been on since June 2008, i have been consistent with my shots until like 6 weeks ago. i notice an immediate change in my mood when my levels are down.. i mean like im an emotional wreck and my thoughts don't stop haunting me, i lack some self control, i say stupid shit and feel im fighting myself to not do stupider shit.. ive never suffered from any of this. my therapist wants me to see a doc about anti depressants but i know what my problem is.. i've been on 1000mg of test plus 400-700mg of tren a week for damn near 4 months (currently just 250mg of Enan and 50mg of Prop on Mon/Thur) and i'm divorcing my wife whom i've been 'with' since I was fucking 14 (im 26).

I need to get off, run pct, and get my levels checked...I want to be normal and On again by like Feb or March.

What do you guys think, I know PCT will be hell especially with my depressive mood.. Should I just stay on till the storm blows over? I have Nolva, Adex, Dost, HCG, I can get whatever else I need.

I was thinking of tapering down with Prop to 100mg a week, keep the Adex and HCG running..should buy me a few weeks and not be such a harsh drop in blood levels. Then go on Prov/Nolva/and use the stuff from PP and Nelson..

 

[OneBreath]

Holy shit, i would get blood levels and BP checked immediately. With the added emotional stress you are under you could be in some serious trouble. Lipids are no doubt destroyed after 4 months of test/tren at those doses. Don't wait bro, your health could be in jeopardy!

 

[LiquidPhire]

Bro, I don't know the proper response for you but I just wanna say keep your head up and things will get better. If you wanna talk PM me man.

 

[HAYEZ]

i would not come off...its going to send you into a worse state then you are.......up the test to 500 and cruise on that for a while...let the tren get out of your system and you normalise...once you feel better lower the test maybe every 2 weeks by 100 then cruise at 250 until you deal with your issues...dont do pct during this especially after tren...out of all my pct the only once that had me feel really miserable depressed hateful was tren...buit dont stop just cruise on test for 500 for a littel bit

 

[REFORMATA]

Daang bro...I am very sorry to hear about that...I hope all works out well...girls can wreck your mind if you let them..I know from personal experience. If you wanna talk bruh I'm here...

 

[Burpees]

Damn bros, I appreciate the out reach of support. I'm getting by now, trying to get my life back on schedule. Without a steady place or the comfort of life being normal it's hard to stay on top of my hobby. I'm still lifting, and eating is getting better so its not all bad. Thanks again homies!

This whole situation has been a crazy mindfuck.

i would not come off...its going to send you into a worse state then you are.......up the test to 500 and cruise on that for a while...let the tren get out of your system and you normalise...once you feel better lower the test maybe every 2 weeks by 100 then cruise at 250 until you deal with your issues...dont do pct during this especially after tren...out of all my pct the only once that had me feel really miserable depressed hateful was tren...buit dont stop just cruise on test for 500 for a littel bit

Yea, you know my history. I don't have a problem not coming off but I did want to. That's what i'm doing now. It's been 3-4 weeks with no Tren and at 600mg of Test (500 from E and 100 from P). I'll just go with the E for now.

I'm going to schedule some blood work with my primary just to see where I stand..

 

[bluejay]

Shit man. Sorry to hear you are dealing with this.

I wish you all the best getting through this tough time...

Make sure you're getting high doses of all the B complex Vitamins.. They won't be a miracle cure for depression or anything, but they CAN make enough of a difference to help stabilize you when your nerves are shot.

Good luck and hang in there....

 

[702daswoll1]

I did a long ass cycle last year and then had to come off abruptly and I had no access to any kind of PCT at all. Needless to say it was rough but not as bad as you think it will be. For me the 2 main issues were very low energy and NO SEX DRIVE at all and mind you my wife is smoking hot so it wasnt her. Im torn between telling you to stay on or just come off I think you could argue both ways but whatever you choose to do when you go to the doctor tell him to prescribe Wellbutrin. For me that shit is a literal life save. It is called an SDRI (selective dopamine reuptake inhibitor) as opposed to SSRI's (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor) like prozac, zoloft, meridia... Serotonin drugs are innefective for me but when I swithed to the Dopamine drug it was like a night and day difference. Hope this helps..

 

[Burpees]

I did a long ass cycle last year and then had to come off abruptly and I had no access to any kind of PCT at all. Needless to say it was rough but not as bad as you think it will be. For me the 2 main issues were very low energy and NO SEX DRIVE at all and mind you my wife is smoking hot so it wasnt her. Im torn between telling you to stay on or just come off I think you could argue both ways but whatever you choose to do when you go to the doctor tell him to prescribe Wellbutrin. For me that shit is a literal life save. It is called an SDRI (selective dopamine reuptake inhibitor) as opposed to SSRI's (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor) like prozac, zoloft, meridia... Serotonin drugs are innefective for me but when I swithed to the Dopamine drug it was like a night and day difference. Hope this helps..

Damn I take Dostinex, I know it has an effect on dopamine receptors.. Now that I think of it I feel really good the day I take it.. Hrmm.. Ill look into Wellbutrin.. thanks

 

[HAYEZ]

Damn bros, I appreciate the out reach of support. I'm getting by now, trying to get my life back on schedule. Without a steady place or the comfort of life being normal it's hard to stay on top of my hobby. I'm still lifting, and eating is getting better so its not all bad. Thanks again homies!

This whole situation has been a crazy mindfuck.



Yea, you know my history. I don't have a problem not coming off but I did want to. That's what i'm doing now. It's been 3-4 weeks with no Tren and at 600mg of Test (500 from E and 100 from P). I'll just go with the E for now.

I'm going to schedule some blood work with my primary just to see where I stand..

ya best thing is just cruise for a bit let your body even out...once everything is together then do pct..im in middle of divorce myself so i feel ya on the drama... all kinds of mixed emotions.. def not the time to add more mental stress that you have no control over...good luck!

 

[sensational]

Hayez gave good advice. Get off the tren, and just run test for a bit. Then do PCT when things feel pretty normal.

I feel for ya bro, and have been wondering where you have been. Hope all is well and hit me up if you need to talk, either on here or on meso.

 

[Burpees]

Hayez gave good advice. Get off the tren, and just run test for a bit. Then do PCT when things feel pretty normal.

I feel for ya bro, and have been wondering where you have been. Hope all is well and hit me up if you need to talk, either on here or on meso.

thanks bro, you know where to find me.

 

[Nelson Montana]

Geez, too much for too long. What can anyone say?

You're probably going to need a HRT dose PLUS the supps, PLUS some meds.

Good luck and get well soon.