The best I can do is speak from my heart and what it has felt over the years. Ill type as fast as I can and try not to think to much about it. I find that I over think things and my mind will get in the way of my heart. The more I learn, the better I think I have gotten, the more popular I get, the more money I make, the bigger my head gets. At the worst times of my life it has been when I stop letting my heart/soul lead my life, and stop listening to my god/higher power and what he would have me do. It is when I try to take credit/control for things and loss my humility in life that I fall.
If I had my way and I listen to my self/my mind and not my heart/higher power you people would all be screwed lmao. In my mind I am awesome, I'm great, I'm the boss, I am untouchable, I rule my life and everyone in it and you are all hear for my self gain and amusement. That is who I am without submitting to a will and plan that is not my own. As much as I hate admitting this I must and its true.
When I follow Gods plan for my life I see things differently and I see the true worth of another person regardless of any factors. I love people and love helping people in anyway I can. My mind is clear and I can see/learn anything. Am I weak because I haven't the will or strength to Take control of my life? Am I weak because I am at my best when I am submitting my self to another who I deem higher than I?
I look back and I see all the good things that have come from following my higher power and I think " how can anyone tell me there is something wrong with this?" . Any argument they would make would mean I would have to take credit for it all and I cant. So when you thank me for the help you can thank my god!!