I'm just really pissed at myself for letting some girl make me feel like this.
I always told myself dont get upset over a girl. Its not worth it. and yes, I have plenty of girls to choose from (not a bragging statement), but this one is the one I care about really.
Just hurts. I never told anybody on here before but my last serious girlfriend about two years ago hurt me bad. True story:
We were together for an entire year 24-7 (she went to my college) and we had a perfect relationship. She was from Chicago, I was from Ohio..so at the end of the year, we were gonna make it work long distance (i mean its only the summer right?) anyways, a month after we left school she CALLS ME (yes on the phone!) and dumps me for no reason. Of course I was crushed. She wouldnt even give me a reason. So for the next few months of that summer I was devestated. So in late August, the school year started again and me and my housemates threw a party the first weekend of school before class started. We had literally 800 people and 25 kegs and a funk band playing in our driveway. It was the shit. Guess who decides to show up? My ex girlfriend who i hadnt spoke to or seen since she called me and dumped me. So she says, I guess I should tell you why I broke up with you. I was like "ok" but really thinking "hell yeah ya fuckin bitch I've been down on myself for 3 fuckin months"..so i said "go on"
Then she tells me, "well, its cuz you arent white enough"
See why I really fuckin hate girls and relationships? That fucked with me for a while cuz I really loved her and thought she loved me.
SO bearded clam, be careful who you fuck with about racial issues I've heard them all and I got a chip on my shoulder player..it doesnt take me long to want to fuck somebody up if they bring up racial shit around me.