this will be my last reply, and i'll let this post die...
rnch: well put brotha.
helensl: i am trying to break it off right now, i realize i made a grave error in committing this long into a strong relationship. i just have to let her down very slowly as i fear she will harm herself if not.
to everyone who hates me and others like me:
there is a country song that says "it was all with the best of intentions"---that is how it was in the beginning, but i have changed...my goals,aspirations ,confidence, and dedication to my work. i lost sight of the "cleaver family lifestyle" and i need out.
i am through leading her on anymore, i am moving on the 1st, and i will go alone.--- the hardest thing for me to live with is the thought that i let someone down; that is why i let it go on this long. it is time to swallow my pride and face reality.
all comments (thhough some harsh) were welcome, taken into consideration, and appreciated.
thank you and good night all,
tc