I have no reason to live....I am contemplating my departure...

[Nobledude]

She is not a great mom.

She is a selfish piece of shit to put you and your daughter in this situation.

Trust me...she is a great mom..

I pushed her on his arms ...during our 3 years of living together , I wasnt very nice towards her...when she was pregnant, I told her to go to her mom, and she left me when she was 2 month pregnant..

I was in tears...she came back eventually...

When I tore my achilles tendon, I was in crutches for more than 3 months and seh took care of me and my baby..she did it all...laundry, cooking, babysitting, nobledudesitting...

I couldnt work and fell into a huge depression after 6months since my injury...I was grumpy and started playing on line poker..she would go to work and when she woudl come back I would yell at her out of frustration due to losing at poker...

Meanwhile, she started emailing her previous lover whom she wanted to marry....but he got married while she was in US!

Trust me, I am at fault big time...I can forget her act of kindness towards me and our baby...

If she was a ho, I would have left her long time!!

 

[silverstar1025]

Trust me...she is a great mom..

I pushed her on his arms ...during our 3 years of living together , I wasnt very nice towards her...when she was pregnant, I told her to go to her mom, and she left me when she was 2 month pregnant..

I was in tears...she came back eventually...

When I tore my achilles tendon, I was in crutches for more than 3 months and seh took care of me and my baby..she did it all...laundry, cooking, babysitting, nobledudesitting...

I couldnt work and fell into a huge depression after 6months since my injury...I was grumpy and started playing on line poker..she would go to work and when she woudl come back I would yell at her out of frustration due to losing at poker...

Meanwhile, she started emailing her previous lover whom she wanted to marry....but he got married while she was in US!

Trust me, I am at fault big time...I can forget her act of kindness towards me and our baby...

If she was a ho, I would have left her long time!!

Cheating is wrong no matter what!! There is no excuse and you can't say you pushed her. She did it on her own free will. The best thing she could have done was told you that you were an asshole and left your ass, but she didn't do that instead she cheated. You think that is right?

 

[Nobledude]

I agree!

CAll the Suicide hotline first.

Then, call EF Frank.

I may call that line...dont know how can they really help me though..

As far as calling EF Frank....would he hook me up with a platinum for life?


Or maybe a plat for death?

 

[stilleto]

noble. call.

it's nothing to be ashamed off or feel bad about. EVERYONE goes through a really bad time in their life at some point- you WILL get through it, and it's OKAY to need help.

call them now. if you want me to lock this so you don't have to feel obligated to post about it again, just say the word.

please call them.

 

[bw1]

I may call that line...dont know how can they really help me though..

As far as calling EF Frank....would he hook me up with a platinum for life?


Or maybe a plat for death?

Enough of this bullshit. WTF? Time for some tough love. You selfish mother fucker. You want to rob your daughter of having a father? You think your going to "punish" your fiance by taking your life? Bullshit! Quit talking stupid shit and go spend time with your daughter, be a father, be a fucking man for christs sake. Fuck your fiance, she's a big girl and has to make her own decisions. Move on, enjoy your daughter, enjoy life!

 

[Bikini Mod]

Call the fukkin number before I reach through the computer screen and bitchslap your ass.

I haven't seen my children FOR TWO YEARS and my oldest, she is being sexed by HER FATHER... THE MAN THAT I CHOSE TO FATHER MY ONLY CHILDREN... The other three suffer daily being called "stupid pieces of shit like your mother" "whores like your mother", etc, etc, etc... and yet I live. Why?

BECAUSE IF I DIE THEN THEY HAVE NO CHANCE IN LIFE.

You may have screwed up being a good husband to your fiancee (not that you deserved to get cheated on - because NO ONE deserves that) however, why would you screw up the chance to be FATHER TO YOUR CHILD?!?!?

Stop this talk and get on the fukkin fone. Pull yourself together. Your daughter NEEDS YOU...

 

[OMEGA]

If you ever want to talk on the PHONE I am happy to call

train wreck issues always have a way out, ESPECIALLY if you are a just person

 

[Nobledude]

noble. call.

it's nothing to be ashamed off or feel bad about. EVERYONE goes through a really bad time in their life at some point- you WILL get through it, and it's OKAY to need help.

call them now. if you want me to lock this so you don't have to feel obligated to post about it again, just say the word.

please call them.

no need to lock it yet....it is a let out for me...

I am trying to find help everywhere ..

 

[Bikini Mod]

Enough of this bullshit. WTF? Time for some tough love. You selfish mother fucker. You want to rob your daughter of having a father? You think your going to "punish" your fiance by taking your life? Bullshit! Quit talking stupid shit and go spend time with your daughter, be a father, be a fucking man for christs sake. Fuck your fiance, she's a big girl and has to make her own decisions. Move on, enjoy your daughter, enjoy life!

Times ONE FUKKIN THOUSAND!!

If anyone can speak it is me...

MY GIRLS WERE STOLEN FROM ME - MY LIFE WAS TAKEN - THE ENTIRE INTERNET CALLED ME DIRTY WHORE - PEOPLE STEPPED AWAY FROM ME when they heard I didn't have my girls...

I am sorry you lost your job - you will get another one.

I am truly sorry your father is ill, but that is the natural order of things - for children to outlive their parents.

BUT TO TAKE YOUR LIFE FROM YOUR CHILD?!

TOTALLY INEXCUSABLE.

 

[blueta2]

Noble, I feel your pain. I've been in the same depth of despair.
Almost 8 yrs ago, I went through a terrible break up. My ex took our biz and I had no money, no job.
I started a new job 3 days after he moved out, then within days our 24 yr cat was dying. My whole world was crumbling.
The night before I was to start this new job (same job I have now), I called my sis because I was going to end my life. Here I was alone for the first time in my life and starting a new job the next day.
I barely ate or slept for the 3 months prior.

My sister came over and talked me out of it. I sat up all night and smoked about a pack of cigs, Got ready for my new job and looked into the mirror as I was getting ready for work and said "I'm going to make it".

And I did. Since this time, my other ex of 2 1/2 yrs cheated on me over and over. Found out some stuff about him that would make AAP look like a saint. And again I was back in the depth of despair. Again, I made it. That time I went to therapy also.

I'm actually going through a painful break up now.....and you know what, I'll make it again. Why cause NO ONE ON THIS EARTH is worth taking my life for.

I'm also suffering from Lupus and Lyme disease. I've been struggling very bad and have days where I want to end it, but I learned to value myself with therapy, books and wonderful friends and family.

Use your energy and value yourself. Fake it til you make it. It's not about you, it about that little girl. She needs you. My Mom and Dad suffered pretty bad in their lives, but I needed her and I would be LOST and no one with my Mom and Dad.

Take your pain and learn from it. Pain is really one of the best gifts we can receive.
It brings you to a good place.............stick around and you'll see

PM me if you need to talk.
I hope my story helps