Thank you very much every one for your time and effort to encourage me.
It is a slippery slope of deluding yourself that you have gained 'control' over it.
Once again I learned that the best way is never to step on the path.
And keep on telling myself that 'I don't need it'.
Once again, I really appreciate every one for your help and encouragement. It is a great morale booster to know that there are people who care enough to spend their time and effort to help you.
To answer one question, I told myself that my health was worth more than the bottle of Cognac. If I had not done that during a moment of strength, it would have ended up in my body.
Once again, thank you very much.