but for real, if it really was you who fucked up, she wasnt worth your time at that moment, and if you regret it its never too late to try again, lay it out there let her know how u feel.
if you dont want her back then stick by your decision cut off all contact dont listen to music for a long time and GET THE FUCK OFF THE COMPUTER. all the fags like jh1 and shit u see here who sit by the computer and listen to music and probably think about it nonstop probably have ulcers by now.
just get out and have some fun, fucking build a treehouse if u have to