Having to Live with Yourself.....

[Sub-Zero]

She is my oldest child. My heart bleeds daily as I can do NOTHING but stand by and watch her flush her beautiful young life down the drain. I even went to the police to ask for help and they said there is nothing they can do because of the confidentiality laws! The shrink fucking confirmed her use!!! Her father doesnt have a fucking clue nor does he give a shit.

My younger three are trapped in hell because of this and there is NOTHING I CAN DO UNTIL THEY ARE 14!!!

So I sit and I wait and I pray.

All of my children are amazing gifts. And I can do nothing more than move on and secure a life for us so that when they can finally be with me - I will give them THE WORLD.

her use?

 

[Sub-Zero]

we are all pieces of shit when it comes down to it. anyone who thinks they are completely innocent are the biggest, smelliest pieces

 

[Gymgurl]

Then flush me please

 

[Sub-Zero]

Then flush me please

your not worthy

 

[Gymgurl]

Yes I am....for I am not perfect...

 

[hanselthecaretaker]

a lot of you know i work with mentally ill people. i have a resource/support center i run. i had a staff member from one of the group homes introduce a new patient from their home, and when i look up, i see this kid that i used to bully from high school. bully is being used lightly. i pretty much abused this guy, took his lunches, embarrassed him at every turn, hit, trip, call names, etc. i remember challenging him to do 20 push ups at a party and he struggled the whole way and on his 20 rep, on the way up, i stepped on his back and spilled a beer on him.
so yeah, i was a bastard....and now seeing him made me feel like shit. knowing that he lost it and that i was part of it. you can say whatever you want, about how kids forget things, well, bullshit. if i can remember doing this stuff to him... kids that were bullied have memories of being bullied.
it was hard to approach him, i was fucking nervous. but he came into my office and introduced himself and then apologized for not doing it sooner. i told him that i knew who he was and that we went to HS together. he said he couldn't remember, then i started asking him about certain people and events and parties and stuff. he started to remember a lot of stuff. but then he looks at me and says: "I'm sorry i don't remember you HT." i felt like throwing up. still do. he tells me "I can't remember things because of (insert large #) ECT's." karma is a bitch.

Was he at all mentally ill back when you were a big meanie to him? If he was, then you're obviously not the reason why he's here. If he wasn't, well perhaps he's just a weak individual. Maybe he didn't have access to drugs when it could've prevented his present status. Who knows....blaming yourself is pointless, since you've obviously been given the chance by God/karma/etc to right your wrongs to him. Consider yourself whatever you want.

 

[bloodinbloodout]

I kind of teased a guy on the wrestling team. He was a big goofy kid that sometimes complained and didn't put out. I used to get on him in class, at practice, wherever. I remember he got real upset one time and set up a meeting.

Well, a few years later I found out the kid hung himself at college. I doubt it was because of me, because we actually became kind of cool with each other as I grew more mature, but I can't help but think sometimes that maybe something I did had something to do with it. There is nothing you can do to change the past but you have to just make better for the future.

 

[Spartacus]

one of my main tormenters in high school(he put a cigarette out in my face in a busload of kids)
got run over and killed by an ice cream truck before his 18th birthday

 

[hanselthecaretaker]

This piece of shit who posted this thread mocked me and said that he is now going to put up a piece of artwork that one of his clients made for him while I can neither see nor touch my own children.

Yea... he is REAL SORRY for being a bully when he was a kid.

Motherfucker is STILL a bully.

puh-lease spare me.

How is "still a bully" derived from helping/serving the mentally ill?

 

[hanselthecaretaker]

one of my main tormenters in high school(he put a cigarette out in my face in a busload of kids)
got run over and killed by an ice cream truck before his 18th birthday

That would've actually been kinda funny to see.