Having to Live with Yourself.....

[Bikini Mod]

I have NEVER bullied anyone... ever, nor has the thought crossed my mind.

I was beat up, picked on and teased relentlessly throughout most of my childhood then onto adolescence. First it was by all the black/hispanic kids coming up because I was one of the only white kids in school, then it was by all the rich white kids in high school because i was poor, protestant and didnt look white enough even though I was pure European.

I have been fucked over the hardest in this life by those that were most "like me" and helped out when I was homeless (because I trusted those "most like me") by those who were NOTHING like me and could have snapped me like a twig.

What did I learn from these experiences? Hatred and violence only begets more hatred and violence. That and not to judge a person by their exterior, but by the content of their character alone. And finally, that family is not determined by blood alone.

What I believe about you is wholely irrelevant to your existance, is it not? So I will just keep my opinion to myself.

Karma is a bitch though... ain't it.

 

[H_T_]

Apologize. It will make you feel like a very huge weight was just taken off your shoulders. You are a pretty good guy with a big heart hiding behind a tough guy mask that is my take on you so far.

hey thanks. i did, although it came out half assed.

 

[Gymgurl]

But ya did it....and you ment it...that is all you can do

 

[Sub-Zero]

a lot of you know i work with mentally ill people. i have a resource/support center i run. i had a staff member from one of the group homes introduce a new patient from their home, and when i look up, i see this kid that i used to bully from high school. bully is being used lightly. i pretty much abused this guy, took his lunches, embarrassed him at every turn, hit, trip, call names, etc. i remember challenging him to do 20 push ups at a party and he struggled the whole way and on his 20 rep, on the way up, i stepped on his back and spilled a beer on him.
so yeah, i was a bastard....and now seeing him made me feel like shit. knowing that he lost it and that i was part of it. you can say whatever you want, about how kids forget things, well, bullshit. if i can remember doing this stuff to him... kids that were bullied have memories of being bullied.
it was hard to approach him, i was fucking nervous. but he came into my office and introduced himself and then apologized for not doing it sooner. i told him that i knew who he was and that we went to HS together. he said he couldn't remember, then i started asking him about certain people and events and parties and stuff. he started to remember a lot of stuff. but then he looks at me and says: "I'm sorry i don't remember you HT." i felt like throwing up. still do. he tells me "I can't remember things because of (insert large #) ECT's." karma is a bitch.

no offense but if u want sympathy for how bad u feel after helping fuck up a dudes life, ur not gunna get it, in fact ur a jackass.


but so mentally ill like loony bin? like just generally crazed, or like mental retardation type stuff

 

[jackangel]

you're not even close to being even.


...
The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

-RF

 

[H_T_]

no offense but if u want sympathy for how bad u feel after helping fuck up a dudes life, ur not gunna get it, in fact ur a jackass.


but so mentally ill like loony bin? like just generally crazed, or like mental retardation type stuff

man i missed you, even though you're a complete dumbass not knowing the difference between a loon and a retard.

 

[Bikini Mod]

you're not even close to being even.


...
The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

-RF

Even?

How can ANYONE even begin to "make up" to another human being for crushing that person's humanity?!

I have to go out now... this thread is turning my stomach.

 

[Gymgurl]

Must have been bullied I guess

 

[Bikini Mod]

Must have been bullied I guess

If this was directed at me - you have no idea and is precisely why I am kind and gentle and one of the most docile human beings on the planet.

 

[H_T_]

Even?

How can ANYONE even begin to "make up" to another human being for crushing that person's humanity?!

I have to go out now... this thread is turning my stomach.

never doubt that i would fucking snatch whatever dignity and or self respect you have remaining, right out of your chest, dip it in my coffee and make yummy sounds as i devoured it.