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I have just broken up with my partner over the weekend, after a year and a half, I must say I loved him more than life it-self and there was nothing I would not do for him.
You see I am bisexual and this is my first man to man relationship, I think after this break up, I will stick to women.
Anyway the reason for the break was a number of things, he has a temper like no other and I had to put up with it because I loved him, and am sure guys when u love some-one who will put up with almost anything,
But is just got to bad and everytime he would loose his temper, he would use his fist and I would not fight back, several times this happened and I put up with it, all my friends both straight and gay and family begged me to live but I just could not walk away.
HE HATED ME CHATTING ON THIS FITNESSBOARDS AND WE HAD ROWS OVER IT, AND BECAUSE OF HIM, I DECIDED TO STOP USING THE FITNESSBOARD AND STOP REPLYING TO POST OR ASK QUESTIONS, JUST TO KEEP HIM HAPPY,
We could not train together in the gym because I could lift more weights than him, u see his 6ft3 and 28yrs of age, while I am 22 and 5ft10.
Anyway there were times when I just broke down and cried asking myself, why why, everything is always my fault, he has a way of turning things round and make it look as if it is my fault,
He hated the fact that I had a better physic than him and when we would go out and girls are coming up to me or guys, he hated it, I told him he has my heart.
this past week has been really hard for me, I have cried and lost soo much weight, when I am depressed I don't eat, my current weight is 174 from 182 in just a over a week.
I know I have to build my life again and move on, but it is always hard, when u see them with somebody else, doing the things u once did.
All my friends say I am better off without him and that he needs to some sort of help to control his temper, the funny thing about the whole experience is when I start building life again and I am dating, that is when he wants to try again and can't stand to see me happy someone else either a guy or a girl.
I am not a fighter and violence is never an option but it was to him, I have always gone out with girls and was brought never to heat a girl or anyone, my parents did not accept violence in our family , so when he would heat me sooo hard or punch me u name it, I would take it because I loved him and thought maybe I deserved it,
I feel soo alone right now, thank god for my friends, my straight mates are very pissed off and want to bash his head in, but it is not worth it, I am going to start another cycle next week and concentrate on my diet and lifting weights to get my mind off the break-up and gain back the weight I have lost.
KEN343
You see I am bisexual and this is my first man to man relationship, I think after this break up, I will stick to women.
Anyway the reason for the break was a number of things, he has a temper like no other and I had to put up with it because I loved him, and am sure guys when u love some-one who will put up with almost anything,
But is just got to bad and everytime he would loose his temper, he would use his fist and I would not fight back, several times this happened and I put up with it, all my friends both straight and gay and family begged me to live but I just could not walk away.
HE HATED ME CHATTING ON THIS FITNESSBOARDS AND WE HAD ROWS OVER IT, AND BECAUSE OF HIM, I DECIDED TO STOP USING THE FITNESSBOARD AND STOP REPLYING TO POST OR ASK QUESTIONS, JUST TO KEEP HIM HAPPY,
We could not train together in the gym because I could lift more weights than him, u see his 6ft3 and 28yrs of age, while I am 22 and 5ft10.
Anyway there were times when I just broke down and cried asking myself, why why, everything is always my fault, he has a way of turning things round and make it look as if it is my fault,
He hated the fact that I had a better physic than him and when we would go out and girls are coming up to me or guys, he hated it, I told him he has my heart.
this past week has been really hard for me, I have cried and lost soo much weight, when I am depressed I don't eat, my current weight is 174 from 182 in just a over a week.
I know I have to build my life again and move on, but it is always hard, when u see them with somebody else, doing the things u once did.
All my friends say I am better off without him and that he needs to some sort of help to control his temper, the funny thing about the whole experience is when I start building life again and I am dating, that is when he wants to try again and can't stand to see me happy someone else either a guy or a girl.
I am not a fighter and violence is never an option but it was to him, I have always gone out with girls and was brought never to heat a girl or anyone, my parents did not accept violence in our family , so when he would heat me sooo hard or punch me u name it, I would take it because I loved him and thought maybe I deserved it,
I feel soo alone right now, thank god for my friends, my straight mates are very pissed off and want to bash his head in, but it is not worth it, I am going to start another cycle next week and concentrate on my diet and lifting weights to get my mind off the break-up and gain back the weight I have lost.
KEN343
