Stero... Just a thought, but if this group of "AAS friendly" people is worried about you, maybe it makes sense to take a hard look at why....
I don't think (most of) these guys are busting your balls. I know some of them care a lot and no one wants to see you have a bad outcome.
If you make yourself a statistic all you do is contribute to the stigma. You're not dumb. Don't be remembered that way.
I know everyone is just looking out for me, I have plenty of time to decide what I want to do with my life yet. No point in anyone getting worked up or worried yet. I'm just going to be continuing a hrt dosing until I'm able to get an endocrinologist, and gather up a pct