ironmaster said:
40butpumpin raises a real good issue.........do we have the right to put the family at risk? What do you think, 40?
bro, i can't take credit for that great post, our good bro sk* gave us that.
but i came close to making a post, however, i felt like i'd be a hypocrit to do that. you see i have 4 little ones ranging in age from 6 through 11; one is a boy. i do have legit script, however, my aas use extends way beyond that and i hide it all behind that script. i'm also exploiting my wife's lack of understanding of things as she's from Peru and maybe (no definitely) not as savy as an American woman would be about these types of things. i've struggled with this very thing many times: what if i went to prison due to some aspect of this or got very sick as a direct result of using, do i have the right to take my kid's "daddy" away from them or my wife's husband? the answer is easy and the answer is an emphatical "no!"
but does that stop me? no, it does not. why it doesn't stop me is because i have the feeling that that can't happen to me; that i'm somewhat indestructable; that the odds are much too small or that i'd figure a way out of it before it would/could really destroy me. no, i'm not proud of that, i'm simply giving you all what i see and feel objectively and honestly.
so when i read spidey's post i thought about what i would do if i were faced with the possibility of divorce and i'm not proud of what i came up with. perhaps i have somewhat of an addiction to this whole thing. is it wanting to look and feel the best that i can? is it something that i can call all mine? or is it something else? whatever my reasons, however, all i could do was justify why i should be able to continue. but deep in my heart, i do feel/know i'm being selfish.
i think spidey is doing the right thing and shouldn't compromise one bit on his decision. i give him all the credit in the world for taking a stand for what's right and doing something about it.
spidey more power to you brother!
