I have no idea what you guys are talking about!!
When I'm on the test, a slight gust of wind will get me at attention! And when I'm with my girl (beautiful, but not a stripper type) A cat could not scratch it! She loves the shit! When I'm off cycle, she even tries to stick me with an amp of sus while I'm asleep! She is pro-test!!!!
I hope things get better and listen to that smart guy, stop thinking about it. The thoughts alone may be enought to keep you "down."
Were you drunk?? The old Whiskey dick has taken me out a few times! It may have been the booze, not the gear.
Good luck!