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calveless wonder
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bear with me on this guys...
I came to a very disturbing reality today.
As i stepped out of my shower after going to the gym, i took a close look in the mirror. I dont know what came over me but all of a sudden things started to become really clear. I took a look at the acne on my back and the few pimples on my face..i pulled back my hair to see the damage i've done to my hairline....i took a close look at my nips to see what gear has done to my preexisting gyno.I pictured myself pre gear and then compared it to the image i was staring at. After all of this..i thought to myself... Is it really worth it? Even though this was moderate AAS use, is it really worth what i've done to myself?
You know...its really easy to get caught up in the moment. The quick gains, the extradonairy strength, the euphoria of it all.You tend to overlook things like what AAS use has done to relationships or potential relationships. You overlook the side effects and sometimes just "deal with them". But i cant just deal with them anymore. I dont want to be bald by the time i'm 26 or have scars all over my back from acne. I dont want to be one of those guys that has to get 2-3 gyno surgeries in his lifetime.
As a result of this epiphany i've decided to go natural for awhile.. at least a year or two, try to fix the things that AAS has done to me, then from that point on i may go back on gear but only things like anavar and EQ.
My whole point is this... sometimes we dont stop and think about the impact our use has had on lives and ourselves. I urge any of you guys to evaluate what exactly you are sacrificing for your use. Family? hair? anxiety? whatever it may be...just take a look and see if its worth it. This obviously isnt gonna apply to everyone....but just take a look at yourself in the mirror and think about it. i realize i am addicted and not afraid to admit it. I didnt even use high doses or stay on for long periods of time...but I sacrified other things for gear and i need to stop with it for awhile and the heavy shit altogether.
This is especially for you younger guys around my age (early 20's)...just take a look at yourself and ask yourself if its worth it. It may be, it may not be but dont avoid the question or you'll end up like me....full of regret, wishing you could turn back time. If you have even the slightest inkling that you're out of control, stop yourself before its too late.
sorry for the long post guys but i had to get that off my chest and hopefully prevent others from being in my situation.
I came to a very disturbing reality today.
As i stepped out of my shower after going to the gym, i took a close look in the mirror. I dont know what came over me but all of a sudden things started to become really clear. I took a look at the acne on my back and the few pimples on my face..i pulled back my hair to see the damage i've done to my hairline....i took a close look at my nips to see what gear has done to my preexisting gyno.I pictured myself pre gear and then compared it to the image i was staring at. After all of this..i thought to myself... Is it really worth it? Even though this was moderate AAS use, is it really worth what i've done to myself?
You know...its really easy to get caught up in the moment. The quick gains, the extradonairy strength, the euphoria of it all.You tend to overlook things like what AAS use has done to relationships or potential relationships. You overlook the side effects and sometimes just "deal with them". But i cant just deal with them anymore. I dont want to be bald by the time i'm 26 or have scars all over my back from acne. I dont want to be one of those guys that has to get 2-3 gyno surgeries in his lifetime.
As a result of this epiphany i've decided to go natural for awhile.. at least a year or two, try to fix the things that AAS has done to me, then from that point on i may go back on gear but only things like anavar and EQ.
My whole point is this... sometimes we dont stop and think about the impact our use has had on lives and ourselves. I urge any of you guys to evaluate what exactly you are sacrificing for your use. Family? hair? anxiety? whatever it may be...just take a look and see if its worth it. This obviously isnt gonna apply to everyone....but just take a look at yourself in the mirror and think about it. i realize i am addicted and not afraid to admit it. I didnt even use high doses or stay on for long periods of time...but I sacrified other things for gear and i need to stop with it for awhile and the heavy shit altogether.
This is especially for you younger guys around my age (early 20's)...just take a look at yourself and ask yourself if its worth it. It may be, it may not be but dont avoid the question or you'll end up like me....full of regret, wishing you could turn back time. If you have even the slightest inkling that you're out of control, stop yourself before its too late.
sorry for the long post guys but i had to get that off my chest and hopefully prevent others from being in my situation.
