Ok !!! It's been a while! I went on vacation... from what? I dunno.... I went alone, but hooked up with some shady characters and was lucky to have not gotten into trouble seeing as I've been a little self-destructive..

Anyhow, Thanks Nelms for putting me on your "list"

I need all the support i can get. I'm still feeling pain, I just started working out again, and prob. a little too soon, but I can't take it anymore! It hurts a little but just taking it slow! Scorpio... I've been trying to eat clean. It's hard, haven't cheated TOO bad, but I have purged a good bit, especially on vacation, b/c I've been feeling REALLY out of control!!!

Of my life, my, well... EVERYTHING!! But thats a wholenother post!!! WW, I know what it's like to be a mental mess

If anyone does, it's me! HA! Hang in there! I called my head doc for an emergency late night session last night b/c it was that or something crazy

In fact, the night before I left FOR the beach, I had to decide to check myself into a "hospital" or just go to the beach.... NO LIE!!!! But even though I did some crazy, less than desirable things AT the beach, I still think it was, in the long run, better than putting my family through MORE pain and really knowing how bad off I've been emotionally. I think? Anyhow... That's it for now. Just trying to pick back up where I fell off =(
On a side note: I have a question guys.....???? Does anyone have a SERIOUS over-eating trigger food? And if so, do you just totally NOT put it in your diet, and BAN it? Because when it comes to nuts or nut butters i CANNOT stop, and it triggers me to KEEP eating!!! =( I figure if i can just NOT eat them, i can eat sensibly?! ANy thoughts? Thanks a million
