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OK LADIES!!! I've been around for far far far too long not to have started a journal before now. I've enjoyed watching you all, day in and day out fight to eat right and stay strong and motivated, and pick yourselves up when you do fall. The encouragement you generously give to each other is so sweet and you've become a family and a suport sysem; friends! So, with all that said... Here go I!!! My current stats are: 5'4" about 120 pounds. (body weight= ?) very active, cardio atleaset 5 days a week. atleast 30 minutes running on treadmill at intervals or HIIT, etc. And i work every muscle group once a week. EXCEPT my lower body. I know everyone has told me many conflicting advice on building tone without "size" on my glutes, thighs, hips, BUT for me, it's just not the case, so I use sprints and stretching as lower body worouts. Diet is horrible in that i hardly eat anything all day then eat constantly at night. I've been a vegetarian for 22 years, no fish either. No fried foods or refined carbs or sugars, lots of water, supplements; whole food vitamins, digestive enzymes, sesapure(love that stuff!) and EFA's. I need to get back to eating smaler portions throughout the day! I know this has gotten long! I am planning on starting to log my food tomorrow as it is late tonight!! But as I go, please feel freee to give any input or comment along my journey!!! I admire you all and look forward to being apart of your lives :qt:
 
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Good Morning AMy and welcome to the wonderful world of logging!!!!! Good luck and we are here for ya anytime!
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Hey girl...well we already 'discussed' certain VERY important things! Im so glad you're doing this but now...take some time, sit down, and figure out an eating schedule! Try to eat 5-6 meals/day ...eating every 2-3 hours(4max). You mentioned you wanted to do a 40/30/30 breakdown so play around with fitday and see what would work for an average day for you.

In reference with the legs and now working out your legs. Same concept as for everything else....Building muscle= increases overall LEAN body mass....and therefore increases your basal metabolic rate(how many calories you burn on a daily basis by just functioning as a human....you know, breathing, digesting, walking...etc). If you are HAPPY with the way your legs work, then dont change anything .... but if I were you I would DEFINITELY to my legs with some squats,legg presses, lunges, leg extensions, AND leg Curls. The sprints that you do for your lower body workout I would just look at as a cardio session :)

You've alreaady gone through the hard part .... actually starting a log....now you just got to stick to eat, READ A LOT on EF, not worry too much about that so called carb fear....think about *complex* carbohydrates as the FUEL your body needs to live. The best form of energy there is....not to mention lots of fiber which moves thing along very nicely :p .... Throw AT LEAST one serving of oatmeal(so many EASY great recipes with this), brown rice, and a sweet/baked potato in your day....red kidney beans are a GREAT source of carbohydrate, protein, and fiber ....so eat them too if you can

Protein is an issue(since you are a vegetarian....and Im curious what your reason is?). THe vegetarian diet(when done properly) is the healthiest way to live!!!!!

I am looking forward to reading your log.... I gotta run right now but I'll check in pretty soon later today !
 
Thank you SO very much for the warm welcome ladies!! =))) It's been a long long day and very sporadic. I will HAVE to call this my farewell to "old ways" day... cause it was comprised of a coffee for breakfast, a glass of wine for lunch, depression and a few out of NO WHERE smokes for mid evening and a big yummy salad with avocado, olives, egg whites, and veggie patty for dinner. and now a protein shake. ?!?!? No excuses for myself, only a promise to myself to start this whole heartedly tomorrow...GOTTA LOVE MONDAYS AND FRESH STARTS...(the weekends are always a tricky time to start "new" ventures!!!) I also know it takes 21 days to "create/break" a habit, so I want to challenge myself to not drink alcohol for that long, like Rooney did =))) I won't swear it off.... cause that spellls disaster immediatly, but I will try!! :verygood: Anyhow.....Here's to tomorrow!!! See you guyys then! Night all!
 
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uhhh, by the way... does anyone know why i have two seperate names? and one of me is platinum? LOL!? =)
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I was just about to ask the same thing...hmm ???

Well .... hows the new start??? Eat something GOOD this morning? Some oatmeal and egg whites???? :p
 
Good luck, Amy!! I'm glad I could inspire you to try an alcohol-free challenge. I'm starting a mini 12 day alcohol-free and cheat meal-free streak again today(I have a big b'day celebration on Apr 1st to celebrate 4 really good friends' big day, so that will be my break). I actually felt a sense of accomplishment after the last one and I think it's more realistic to do a pre-defined set period rather than make an empty promise to swear off alcohol or cheat meals forever that you can't keep.

I look forward to reading your log :heart:
 
Aries13 said:
I was just about to ask the same thing...hmm ???

Well .... hows the new start??? Eat something GOOD this morning? Some oatmeal and egg whites???? :p
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Dang!!! I just wrote a novel and my computer decided, hmm... i don't like it, re-start!! :rolleyes: Anyhow, in a nut shell, I've had insomnia for 4 nights because my psychiatrist and I are trying to find the right medicine for me and this one is keeping me up at night and tired all day! Not to mention taking my appetite away. I just made some green tea with splenda and poured it over ice, then I'm going to do some empty tummy cardio before I have meal number one. :chomp: Oh yea... U had asked me earlier to why I was a veggie... Honestly it was so long ago...i was 4 years old when i became oe. Basically my mother raised me that way. It's not for "animal rights" or anything intense like that. Not even close. I actually TRIED to make myself eat it two years ago for my fitness goals, but the texture of it in my mouth made me :sick: I can elaborate if you want LOL =) but only if you want ;)
 
Roonytunes said:
Good luck, Amy!! I'm glad I could inspire you to try an alcohol-free challenge. I'm starting a mini 12 day alcohol-free and cheat meal-free streak again today(I have a big b'day celebration on Apr 1st to celebrate 4 really good friends' big day, so that will be my break). I actually felt a sense of accomplishment after the last one and I think it's more realistic to do a pre-defined set period rather than make an empty promise to swear off alcohol or cheat meals forever that you can't keep.

I look forward to reading your log :heart:
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Your totally right Roone's myabe even I shoul lower the INITAL number of days at first :qt: It's definitly chalenging for me! I'm the kind of drinker that wil ONLY drink wine ( i really reallydon't like liquor and beer) and I will never OVER- drink, i drink "just-enough" but I will get i a habit of doing it every night!! (damn OCD!!) :rolleyes: Anyhow... I' going to give it my best shot. Like I just told Aries as well... In al honesty, once I get my medication at a stable level, I won't feel such a compulsion to be destructive, which is one of my "personal" reasons i do those sort of things :worried: SO, what can ya do!? =) HAve a good one... till later Y'all =)))
 
Well.... I ate at a level that would horrify all body builder's alike today!! LOL! green tea for breakfast. Americano for lunch. Intense shoulder, triceps, abs workout, then 3 very small sugar free pieces of chocolate, tanning bed and now a salad comprised of a veggie patty, baco's, light done right italian, and 2+1/2 ounces of mixed nuts!! =( WTF?! No time and poor planning... i know. Honestly, when i finally get a J-O-B, it will get easier to plan, and scedule!
 
gemini269 said:
Well.... I ate at a level that would horrify all body builder's alike today!! LOL! green tea for breakfast. Americano for lunch. Intense shoulder, triceps, abs workout, then 3 very small sugar free pieces of chocolate, tanning bed and now a salad comprised of a veggie patty, baco's, light done right italian, and 2+1/2 ounces of mixed nuts!! =( WTF?! No time and poor planning... i know. Honestly, when i finally get a J-O-B, it will get easier to plan, and scedule!
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**You did not eat enough....some nuts but really nothing at all and you had an intense workout..!!..you're starving your body! It needs foor to live...

Well how bad do you want it??? There is a lot of women on this board who are VERY extremely busy.....and yet maintain their diet and look drop dead gorgeous...and HEALTHY .... Sorry that I am just so 'blunt' but im only trying to help!

---Keep trying... you can do this :)
 
Aries13 said:
**You did not eat enough....some nuts but really nothing at all and you had an intense workout..!!..you're starving your body! It needs foor to live...

Well how bad do you want it??? There is a lot of women on this board who are VERY extremely busy.....and yet maintain their diet and look drop dead gorgeous...and HEALTHY .... Sorry that I am just so 'blunt' but im only trying to help!

---Keep trying... you can do this :)
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I second that.

You need to make a menu and pre prepare your foods as much as possible. THat way you can grap and go. Think of your body as a car you can fill it up and run it but if you don't refill your gonna be walking. See what I mean. WHen your working out especially lifting your body NEEDS food not just any food good nutritious food that serves the needs of your body and the new demand you are putting on it. You don't wan to mess your system up really bad and confuse your body into starvation mode then your motabolism is gonna go into slow mode and your gonna get stuck. So sit down and plan your meals and times to eat and MAKE YOURSELF DO IT!!! Your body will thank you and you will see results much quicker eating the right foods and not starving yourself. ;)
 
believeNme said:
. In al honesty, once I get my medication at a stable level, I won't feel such a compulsion to be destructive, which is one of my "personal" reasons i do those sort of things
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Now, I am not saying to ditch any meds ... I'm just going to say, for ME, training has done more for me physically & mentally ... more than any anti anxiety / anti depressants have EVER done or will ever do...

Good Luck girl. Think of all you CAN do & not what you can't ... start out the day with positive reinforcement. :rose:
 
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Now, I am not saying to ditch any meds ... I'm just going to say, for ME, training has more for me physically & mentally ... more than any anti anxiety / anti depressants have EVER done or will ever do...

Good Luck girl. Think of all you CAN do & not what you can't ... start out the day with positive reinforcement. :rose:
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Ditto Bunny - water, enough clean calories, weight and cardio - feel better than I have in YEARS!
 
Thanks guys... :) I know, I know :;) Like I said, not having a job has really screwed me up! It's like LOOKING for a job has become a full time job! I know thats an excuse, but it is true. As far as my medication. I'll tell ya. Tha bipolar diagnosis is for real. I've done alot of research, and not only is it biological (in the family-- pased down; luckyme :rolleyes: ) but it's progressive with age, and that's why it's usually not diagnosed until early adult-hood. I spent a good time in the hospital last summer because of it. And tried to go off the med's for three months recently trying to prove to myself I could "do it MYSELF!" :) Well, I found a drawer full of knives one night in one of my episodes, and it wasn't pretty. So, needless to say, I'm much better off, stable, and happier ON them. The side effects are worth the sanity! HA! But, I really do need to sit down and figure out my diet exactly. I've been procrastinating! I admit! :rolleyes: Thanks for all the encouragement U's GUy's =) Your great!
 
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Thanks guys... :) I know, I know :;) Like I said, not having a job has really screwed me up! It's like LOOKING for a job has become a full time job! I know thats an excuse, but it is true. As far as my medication. I'll tell ya. Tha bipolar diagnosis is for real. I've done alot of research, and not only is it biological (in the family-- pased down; luckyme :rolleyes: ) but it's progressive with age, and that's why it's usually not diagnosed until early adult-hood. I spent a good time in the hospital last summer because of it. And tried to go off the med's for three months recently trying to prove to myself I could "do it MYSELF!" :) Well, I found a drawer full of knives one night in one of my episodes, and it wasn't pretty. So, needless to say, I'm much better off, stable, and happier ON them. The side effects are worth the sanity! HA! But, I really do need to sit down and figure out my diet exactly. I've been procrastinating! I admit! :rolleyes: Thanks for all the encouragement U's GUy's =) Your great!
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You're obviously on meds for a reason, bipolar disorder is much different to depression and like you've said, trying to "do it yourself" is life threatening. However, clean diet/exercise as well as the meds can control the mood swings you experience. *deep breath* Having suffered from major depressive disorder for as long as I can remember and taking SSRIs on and off all my life, I can attest to the clean living treatment as improving my overall well being and I am now working hard to eliminate drugs from my life altogether. There are similarities between MDD and Bipolar (especially if you are predominantly depressed, not manic) and I would suggest trying some of these things (if you haven't already):

Don't try to fix your diet and training all at once by writing a full blown plan and trying to stick to it - take baby steps, set small attainable goals because failure only makes you feel worse. This is new to you, be kind to yourself

QUIT DRINKING NOW!! You KNOW it's bad for you and only exacerbates mood swings

EAT!! And:

Increase Omega 3 intake right now - Salmon, other fatty fish, flax, walnuts etc - it is proven to limit bipolar symptoms

Increase B Complex - wholegrains, brown rice, legumes - a low carb/Atkins is the worst possible diet for any depressive disorder - Get a good multivitamin and zinc supplement also

Whatever you do, avoid thermogenics - you don't need them to lose weight and they just send you crazy

And this sounds silly but make sure you get some fresh air everyday

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PM me at any time - I've been using a lot of other tricks to help myself so if you need some advice or just a shoulder to lean on....
 
Thank You very much for the well wishes and even more important the prayers gettin fit ;) they are much needed AND appreciated!

Mermaid: You almost made me cry!!! LOL =) I know that may sound silly but having a mental disorder can be a lonely thing b/c even though people are sweet loving and compassionate, it's still so comforting when someone actually has BEEN where you are. Your advice is spot on!Alot i knew about, alot i didn't!! I'm vegetarian and don't eat fish but I'm very good about getting all my good essential fatty acid's in, get lots of exercise, and fresh air in ;) I must admit i NEVER eat starchy carbs, I've fought an on going battle with bulimia/anorexia for atleast ten years (it's almost comical at this point--- i just deal with it) so im afriad of food. I have the all or nothing mentality. When i eat i slice of bread i'll end up finishing the loaf! I did quit taking thermogenics all together! Do still drink caffeine, but early in the day. Thank you so much for taking the time to reply and give me some tips! Know you can drop me a line any time as well!! =)
 
scale weight: 119.2

My food continued through the night last night to include two small detour bars at 160 calories a piece
Two scoops EAS protein
and an apple with 1 large T peanut butter ;)

Today was not so good either. :verygood: I've been arguing with my father alot over not having a job, bills, feeling really down, like a failure, and instead of turning to food, i decided (reaaallly smart) to have a glass of wine and four smokes) Atleast earlier in the day I did 40 minutes on the treadmill ( empty tummy, 20 minutes run/20 minutes walk incline) and chest 1st meal, salad with a veggie patty, a little over 1/4 cup peanuts, baco's, light done right italian dressing, diet mountain dew. Had two liters of water. Way too much sf gum :qt: and an americano with soy milk BEFORE the self destruction mode turned on. Now im having another salad like the first one. ANd will prob have 2 scoops of whey protein before bed. WOW. I hate t log this CRAPOLA I"m eating. But actually SEEING it on "paper" puts it in to perspective!!! This is pathetic!! :worried:
 
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Hey Lovely's! Good evening :) It's been a few days... I've been really embarassed about my "behavior in my dieting" so I haven'r posted. I guess now is a good time to fess up to some things. :rolleyes: I don't know what I expect you to say? Or how I can magically make myself think differently after ten years of over/under eating, but at my current time, I am deathly afraid of food by day and a machine at night. Almost like at night, no one can "see"? I still don't eat un healthy foods at night, but probably more than i need. Luckily I'm still pretty darn lean with a pretty good bit of muscle despite my bad habits :rolleyes: Like today... I did 45 minutes cardio.. 20min. run/ 25 min. walk incline ( treadmill) on an empty stomach, ate 1/4 of an apple, green tea, Americano with soy milk. Later had 1 glass wine (riesling), then had dinner at a Hibachi grill with the fam. Had a very small salad, just ate the lettuce, and some ginger dressing. later, 3 sugar free caramels. Now my salad with bacos veg. patty, light done right italian + 1/4 cup peanuts. I'll continue tonight... with what? who knowws? I can't seem to break the cycle?! I'm ALWAYS constipated :toilet: (gross... I know!) But it constantly makes me feel like im "bigger" than I am, which only makes behave WORSE! When it comes to my bad dieting! Like i said, i don't know what i think it is your supposed to say? I already see a therapist at the atlanta center for eating disorders and a psychiatrist.... WOW! I sound like a mess! eh? :verygood: But any help? Thoughts would be appreciative! Thanks guys.... :heart:
 
You should go see a dietian or a nutritional specialist. They will list foods you should eat, how much and when. Thats how I started, before I wouldn't eat anything until supper and then eat all night. After seeing both a dietian and nutritional specialist I have a list of foods to choose from and times to eat them. Journal, journal journal, if you don't, you find your self not accountable. Writing things down makes things more concrete and less likely to diviate from the plan you have created for yourself and it becomes a habit! Also preplan the day before so you don't find your self stressing the next day and eating whatever because you didn't plan
Hope that helps a little
 
As far as the constipation, I don't usually have problems like that but...it seems like after i eat my morning oats... i go perty darn quickly afterwards. SO i think they may get things mooooving..if u catch my drift :lmao:!!
Are you going to start logging every meal each day? Also are you using fitday? It will really help to show you how you're doing REALLY and what you may be lacking or getting too much of. I think it's pretty helpful. :)
It looks like you are on your way ;) Just come visit us everyday and we will help you as much as possible. I've learned a lot from the really focused and determine ladies (and gents) on this board!
Oh, back to the pottying subject...maybe get some pysillium and try drinking that.
 
I find flaxseed or bran flakes (not the cereal) really works well I sprinkle that on my oatmeal or cereal
 
Thanx for such Quick replies chica's! =) ck2006... Yeah, I used to be in a good habit of eating breakfast pretty quickly after a.m. cardio, but ever since we moved 30 minutes from my gym,,, by the time i get home, and get cleaned up, it's already like 1 p.m. 'cause I'm still trying to get used to this new medication that leaves me so groggy in the a.m.'s I'm pretty frusterated with it! I can't wait to find a BALANCE again and a schedule!! I used to make my protein shake and add flax seeds, and your right, I do remeber it halping.. but I also remeber them being slightly expensive? I'm so poor right now I put a detour bar and water on a credit card at the grocery store tonight!!! =(

Getnfit.... This will sound ultimatly sad but true, fitday makes me feel like a 2nd grader being taught philosophy!!! LOL! I dunno why?! I'm still working on that :rolleyes: ut your right....it will help! For a whole year I logged every thing I ate and it did help tremendously! Also, when I got into the habit of eating the same things every day at the same times it got so easy! The weight was easily maintained, I ooked great , felt great, and even lost any desire at all for a cheat meal, because it wasn't worth my hard work. Plus, once you take something out of your diet for so long, your body detox's from it, and you don't crave it as much. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is good for SOME tihngs i guess?! ;) Thanks again guys! Im off to drink me some prune juice ! LOL!!!
 
I used to have really bad problems with food...in high school I had an eating disorder and nearly killed my self b.c of it. I dont really know how all that crap happened....I had a serious relationship with food(could be b.c I was very overweight since a young age). I didnt seek professional help but instead I wanted to battle these deamons MY SELF. People can take all the pills in the world but the mind is stronger than anything. At least I think so. Now, I want to say that people can only help so much....in the end it all comes down to the individual and if they want to see a change in their life. It depends on what you want your life to be, if you want to be happy, if you will work HARD to get what you want in life. I dont think ANY PILL in this world will do that. In the end, its all just shortcuts that in the end arent really shortcuts but rather deceiving ones. Am I making sense??? I guess all Im trying to say is that you as an individual have the power to be the change you want to see in your world....no therapy or pill will give you that.

Again, this is my opinion. I've shut out the hell I once put my self through.....I think you can do the same if you really want to :)
 
FYI I just got a box of Hodgson Mill's milled Flax Seed at the grocery store the other day for less than $2. It's a 12 oz box. It says it has 2600 mg of omega 3 oils per serving. ;)
 
Aries13 said:
Again, this is my opinion. I've shut out the hell I once put my self through.....I think you can do the same if you really want to :)
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K to you, Aries :rose:

This is a great post and relates very well to someone like myself who has to practise the power of mind on a daily basis.

But remember that Amy is bipolar - it is a very different condition - she needs to remain under the care of her psychiatrist. Ignoring traditional medical treatments and therapy with bipolar disorder can end in tragedy.
 
:qt: GOOD EVENING ALL!!! Today was hectic as, well, i dunno? Just was!
Aries, I hear ya! I've been there.Still am! I've done things the right way, the wrong way, gone back and forth, and up-side down!!! :rolleyes: Honestly though, and I hate to say it, but Mermie is right. Alot of what I struggle with is really complicated because this eating disorder is deeply intertwined with the bipolar CRAP! :worried: Thats what I call it. I saw my psychiatrist this a.m. in fact. Since I've been back on med's my mood's have been more stable. What I've realized is NOW, when I hurt myself with, alcohol, food, an overwhelming urge to get a new piercing or tattoo, (lol!) or anything else.... it's not a REAL feeling but just a "habit". Something I've "always done". I don't have those desire's now, but without that desire for destruction, im void or theres an emptiness. So now, I have to filll it with GOOD and Positive things. And its a really strange thing to say.... BUT IT'S F'ING HARD!!! But I want to!!! :) Which is still more than I could say 1 month ago! Thank you for your story and openness with me, and making me feel comfortable. It means alot!
GetnFit... I will definetly look into that!!! ;)
HI ICE PRINCESS!!! :coffee: I've been following your log for a while! I think you and your hubby rock! I admire your discipline, and your abs are Hawt ;)
And Mermie.... :heart: Once again, You steal my heart, because U know like no other! I don't know if "thank you" is the right thing to say, because having a mental disorder is far from a blessing... but it's SO NICE to have someone to truely understand ;)

OH!!! BY THA WAY ! How DID I 4-GET?! AMY GOT A JOB-E-JOB!!!! I'M GOING TO BE A RECEPTIONIST AT THIS POSH SKIN SPA!!! WOOOOO HOOO!!! :twirl:
THANK YOU ALL FOR THE PRAYERS AND WISHES :))!!
 
Congrats on the job :garza: I'm thinking free or discounted beauty treatments! Sounds like possibility of some good fringe benefits :p
Happy 4 U :rose:
 
AWESOME!!! Im so happy for you :)

You are already making good progress and you should be VERY pleased with your self. Take care~~~~ :friends:
 
scale weight: 117.6 ( finally was visited by the crapola fairy =) hehe)
Thanx Everyone!!! :heart: :heart: I'm really excited too! Does anyone esle ever feel though, like we spend so much time here putting emotion and thought into our friends at EF that when you go to spend time with, "tangible" friends on weekends, you realize you've almost abandoned them? :verygood: I dunno... yesterday...I was so excited about FINALLY getting this job, and the only friend that was able to come celebrate with me was my EX!...ad then, even he last minute ended up getting his kids :worried: Ifelt like such a loser lol! So, i took MYSELF, to dinner. Of course it was my fav. spot and i knew all the bartenders, and some older gentlemen at the end of the bar bought me my wine...oh.... yeah for me! :rolleyes: But over-all, I'm still trying to be happy... maybe I'll make some new friends at this place? According to my friend that just quit there (went to school) she says alot of pro athletes come in there, and they're super hotties! :qt: Who knows? Maybe I'll finally meet a GOOD ONE??! ;) Anyhow... It's gorgeous here today in the ATL! I'm going to the gym... what a novel idea! Beautiful outside... go be INSIDE!! :) But I hope U enjoy your days where ever your at ;) Bye 4 now!!
 
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Thanks guys... :) I know, I know :;) Like I said, not having a job has really screwed me up! It's like LOOKING for a job has become a full time job! I know thats an excuse, but it is true. As far as my medication. I'll tell ya. Tha bipolar diagnosis is for real. I've done alot of research, and not only is it biological (in the family-- pased down; luckyme :rolleyes: ) but it's progressive with age, and that's why it's usually not diagnosed until early adult-hood. I spent a good time in the hospital last summer because of it. And tried to go off the med's for three months recently trying to prove to myself I could "do it MYSELF!" :) Well, I found a drawer full of knives one night in one of my episodes, and it wasn't pretty. So, needless to say, I'm much better off, stable, and happier ON them. The side effects are worth the sanity! HA! But, I really do need to sit down and figure out my diet exactly. I've been procrastinating! I admit! :rolleyes: Thanks for all the encouragement U's GUy's =) Your great!
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Oh, Girl!!!! TEEELLLLLL me about it. I just left my fiance of 7 years due to his need for meds and inability to control his ups and downs (among other things). I can't help him, he's got to do it - but he won't listen - so I left.

STAY ON THEM!!!! I'm sure you're MUCH happier now too!

Oh, about your two names - keep the PLAT one! You have more access on the site with it :)
 
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Oh, Girl!!!! TEEELLLLLL me about it. I just left my fiance of 7 years due to his need for meds and inability to control his ups and downs (among other things). I can't help him, he's got to do it - but he won't listen - so I left.

STAY ON THEM!!!! I'm sure you're MUCH happier now too!

Oh, about your two names - keep the PLAT one! You have more access on the site with it :)
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I am SORRY I must have skimmed over this, but here, we're talking about meds... then I see two different names posting as if it's the same log ... I'm like OMG what is going on here :worried: I'm thinkin' ok, poor girl is bipolar & multiple personality disorder? .. I am NOT meaning to be funny, I was just really worried for a second ...

NOW I get it


:rolleyes: Stoopid bunny ;)
 
ROFLM(F'ING)AO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bunny!! :FRlol: That was my really good laugh for the day! Yes... agbsolutely a nut to the core :) But definetly not a border-line personality case ;) That would be my ex's ex-wife!!! (what a twisted web!!) Anyhow....
Scorpio... I hate that about your fiance!! :worried: Your right, only HE can decide he wants to STAY on his med's and "well". I don't know his diagnosis,and am notasking, and some are more severe than others. I'm thankful that mine is not as severe as some I've read about!! Apparently some people with my disorder have gone on lavish trips, spent their life savings, slept with 10 strangers, gotten home, and a week later only vaguely remembering their behavior!!!!!! I have a uh, lets just say, MUCH lesser version! ;) There's a high %-age of people with mood disorder's that once feeling "better" go off their med's because they feel they can handle it then, but then they get "sick" again. Since I was only diagnosed this summer, I just wanted to "initially" test it to see if i could realy do this on my own. Unfortunatelly, I guess I'm a "lifer" :worried: . But, anyhow, I really do hate it about your fiance.... However it makes you feel any better, I've seen your pics And girl.... YOU ARE F-I-N-E!!! You should have NOOO problems meeting an amazing super hottie... preferably a self-willling-to-be sane one ;)
 
oh.... just a quick note... since i write so fast i forget to read it backand sometimes miss the complete meaning of what it is im trying to say in the 1st place!..... Bunny.... what i MEANT to clarify ;)...... I have no idea how i ended up with two I.D' s other than sometimes i logged on to two different computer's and out of laziness one day couldn't remeber my screen name so made up a new one and email address , everything!! LOL! ULTIMATE laziness i know! I would love to stay plat. but honestly since i JUST ot a new job, i have NO MONEY =( Ihope the mod's discontinued my "plat stat"? I sent them an email and asked them to take me off..... i'll re-up when the dough starts to flow again ;)
 
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ROFLM(F'ING)AO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bunny!! :FRlol: That was my really good laugh for the day! Yes... agbsolutely a nut to the core :) But definetly not a border-line personality case ;) That would be my ex's ex-wife!!! (what a twisted web!!) Anyhow....
Scorpio... I hate that about your fiance!! :worried: Your right, only HE can decide he wants to STAY on his med's and "well". I don't know his diagnosis,and am notasking, and some are more severe than others. I'm thankful that mine is not as severe as some I've read about!! Apparently some people with my disorder have gone on lavish trips, spent their life savings, slept with 10 strangers, gotten home, and a week later only vaguely remembering their behavior!!!!!! I have a uh, lets just say, MUCH lesser version! ;) There's a high %-age of people with mood disorder's that once feeling "better" go off their med's because they feel they can handle it then, but then they get "sick" again. Since I was only diagnosed this summer, I just wanted to "initially" test it to see if i could realy do this on my own. Unfortunatelly, I guess I'm a "lifer" :worried: . But, anyhow, I really do hate it about your fiance.... However it makes you feel any better, I've seen your pics And girl.... YOU ARE F-I-N-E!!! You should have NOOO problems meeting an amazing super hottie... preferably a self-willling-to-be sane one ;)
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1) He's never been diagnosed - but it's a no-brainer
2) He thinks talking to someone and getting diagnosed is a sign of weakness
3) I point out his behaviors EVERY day and he ignores it
4) Just ain't worth my sanity!!!!!

Thanks for the compliment! :BIGSMILE:
 
ScorpioGuuuurl... Absolutely! Not worth your time.There are way too many people out there to put up with someone not willing to take care of themselves, much less you! :rolleyes:

I have a question for you guys.... Is it better to eat too many carbs or good fats in one sitting (i.e. "cheat meals"). I take to sesapures before hand but just curious? Also tomorrow I start my new job. I'm nervous to see how my training schedule will change with having new work hours... I'm trying to work it out. I don't like to miss empty stomach cardio ever :worried: But I don't work out on SUndays' *rest day* and tomorrow, I'm working out after work, because my 1st day I want to make sure I'm there on time fresh and ready to go!! Any tips on how many days i need to be doing empty tummy cardio, trying to lose some more bf%, eating 1500-1700k/ day. Or any tips in general? Thanks ;)
 
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I have a question for you guys.... Is it better to eat too many carbs or good fats in one sitting (i.e. "cheat meals"). I take to sesapures before hand but just curious? Also tomorrow I start my new job. I'm nervous to see how my training schedule will change with having new work hours... I'm trying to work it out. I don't like to miss empty stomach cardio ever :worried: But I don't work out on SUndays' *rest day* and tomorrow, I'm working out after work, because my 1st day I want to make sure I'm there on time fresh and ready to go!! Any tips on how many days i need to be doing empty tummy cardio, trying to lose some more bf%, eating 1500-1700k/ day. Or any tips in general? Thanks ;)
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Cheat day is CHEAT DAY!!!! Don't worry about it! Take your SesaPure or Glucorell (or both) and forget about it! :twirl:

I can't seem to get my ass out of bed in the AM to do cardio, so I go right after work too. I usually time it so I haven't eaten for 2 or 3 hours when I get there so that my stomach is pretty much empty. Try starting at 3x a week on the cardio. If you think you need more, up it a day and see how that works. Are you doing steady pace or HIIT?
 
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Cheat day is CHEAT DAY!!!! Don't worry about it! Take your SesaPure or Glucorell (or both) and forget about it! :twirl:

I can't seem to get my ass out of bed in the AM to do cardio, so I go right after work too. I usually time it so I haven't eaten for 2 or 3 hours when I get there so that my stomach is pretty much empty. Try starting at 3x a week on the cardio. If you think you need more, up it a day and see how that works. Are you doing steady pace or HIIT?
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Good info. I try for three days/week for AM cardio, but it's only 30-45 minutes of it. Do you have any positive or negative feedback on Cardio Breeze? I bought Trex previously (before I lived two minutes from the gym and started the AM cardio) but couldn't take it on an empty stomach.

Re- Types of cardio, I do alternate steady pace and HIIT. Gemini- I sound a lot like you, eating 1700-2000 calories a day usually and trying to lose some body fat, esp. in the trouble areas. God knows I want to keep the boobs but they are sadly - still shrinking :( Anyway - which types of cardio seem to work for you ladies?

thanks ... welcome to monday! :)
 
Hey Scorpiooo :) The cardio I would normally do "in a perfect world" :verygood: would be empty stomach cardio monday - friday usually walk at incline 5 min. then running sprint intervals 1:1 RATIO for 20 minutes , the 5 minutes at an incline . sometimes i'll keep walking to total it to 45 minutes. My problem with "cheats" is that lately, I've been really dapressed and frustrated. Lots of changes in my life...broke up with ex, new amazing man in my life (man i met 10 years ago.... awesome story for another time :heart: ) New job, never sleep, gym time is messed up, pms, water weight, and cravings!! Soooooo, I"M FREAKING OUT! I over eat on nuts everyday! AND I"ve had atleast one glass of white wine 7 out of the last 9 days!!! :worried: WHats rrrreeally bad is that today, i had that glass at 3 p.m. and ALONE!? Uh, sound bad to anyone else?!! :rolleyes:

Wonderwoman =) Hi! it's funny you mention wanting to keep the boobs...I know I sound VERY odd!!! But I may be the only soon to be 26 year old in America that does not want them, and the smaller thay get the more comfortable I am in my own skin!?! I think they look so sexy on other women and my best friend had her's done 4 times!!! She looks great, but I can't even imagine feeling comfortable that way? =) ANyhow...lol (weirdo i know!)
I have not tried t-rex or cardio breeze. I have a condition that doesn't allow e to take "uppers" I MISSSS THOSE DAYS BECAUSE GOD DO I NEED THEM LATELY!!!! :worried: But the other girls here seem to swear by them!
As far as cardio goes, I find the best exercises for "thinning out" the lower parts is definetly running. I know most women will disagree, but me being naturally more muscular in my lower half, when i break down the muscle, even if it looks a little saggy, as long as i can get in my skinny jeans im happy LOL! =) HOpe any of this helped?
 
Gemini - I hear you w/the running! Running consistently 3x a week is the ONLY way my legs thin out. I too feel naturally more muscular 'below the belt' but am totally happy with how sleek and toned my arms and shoulders have become... Only because I've spent more time with them. I'm currently working legs 2x a week. One heavy day, one light weights/lots of reps. What does your leg work-out consist of?
 
WONDERWOMAN... lol ! Once again, If they only heard, they would break out the whip on me! I DON'T work them out. Because they BLOW up on me!! I've tried to do them heavy, light, one light day one heavy day, work them every day and rep them out , etc etc etc... and i get the same results BIG and i think my main conclusion, is that the added muscle makes them "feel" heavier and that freaks me out too! So i just stick with being jigglier for now, being 26 and when i get a little olfer and can't avoid it any longer, start it up :rolleyes: , but for now, i just run sprints! I know it's bad, but i fit into my sexy jeans better not working them!
 
Cardio Breeze upset my stomach if it was empty, so I don't know what to say about that. Most people can take it on empty - I can't - and I DON'T have a sensitive stomach. Can't figure that one out. Thermorexin - def eat with a banana or something. It WILL get your stomach for sure.

Cardio - 30-45 min at a time is too much for ME personally. I'll do 20 Min. HIIT 3x a week if I'm INTO doing cardio at the moment. Right now, I'm trying to get back into it.....but it's not working! lol

Girls - and I'm shaking my head here - you NEED some kind of resistance training to keep those muscles lean (and actually there!). Even if it's extrememly light. Believe me, you won't think jiggles are cute in 10 years!!!! lol Keep it tight NOW and you won't need to worry about it later.

As far as the wine goes.....I'm probably not the one to talk to about that because I LOVE my wine (almost as much as my EC Stack). When I have a glass of wine, I PREFER to relax in front of the fire watching my favorite TV show - ALONE!!!! Yes - all by myself! :)
 
Oh yeah ;) Me too S.G.!!! Riesling for me! I feel guilty when it's too often and like it's a "crutch". And I've never felt like I "had" to do it till recently, so I didn't on purpose tonight...( even though I was stuck in an un expected close down the high way for two F'ING hours traffic jam!! :evil: ) Anyhow :qt: I was a good girl! As far as training with weights goes, I DEFINETLY work hard on my upper body... one day when I figure out how to take pics and post them i will! (computer challenged!!! :rolleyes: ) but I still have a decent amount of tone to my legs...(so far), without doing anything :verygood: . I'm just scared! :worried: I don't like how heavy they feel! Even when I lift light!? What do you think of this though?... A friend of mine, personal trainer, said maybe I should try, doing ONE REP of a bunch of different exercises in one leg day where i just hold the contraction as long as i could and then release instead of repeating the movement over and over..."repS". think that would do anything?
 
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As far as training with weights goes, I DEFINETLY work hard on my upper body... one day when I figure out how to take pics and post them i will! (computer challenged!!! :rolleyes: ) but I still have a decent amount of tone to my legs...(so far), without doing anything :verygood: . I'm just scared! :worried: I don't like how heavy they feel! Even when I lift light!? What do you think of this though?... A friend of mine, personal trainer, said maybe I should try, doing ONE REP of a bunch of different exercises in one leg day where i just hold the contraction as long as i could and then release instead of repeating the movement over and over..."repS". think that would do anything?
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I would say that doesn't make much sense to me!!! lol

If you're going to do that, why not just do something easy like 3 set of 10 sissy squats. You don't use any weights at all, just your body weight. It's keeping the muscle working, but not ADDING to it. OR you could do 3 sets of 10 lunges (with no weight if you want). Just something to keep those muscles fired.

I personally LIKE it when my legs feel "heavy" as you put it....
 
Ok scorpio :) Well, I did what was to me, a leg day today! Don't lau :FRlol: gh! I actually made up my own little circuit. Triceps, jump-up/jump-off squats onto a step bench, running sprints, and abs. I repeated it 5 times. I was sweating! It was so funny. My ex showed up and saw me "attemting" to work my legs AT ALL, and was laughing...i laughed too! My legs were shaking and i had hardly done ANYTHING!!! ;) Anyhow... guess it's a start? DO u think it would be ok to do NON-weighted things like that every day? Or should i keep it to twice a week? I want to tighten up my back side again, but don't want any size.... =) hehe... thanks tootsie roll ;)
 
:worried: Ladies!!! What to do??!?! I'm so upsett... gots-ta-go to the doctor on monday... Ever since i had bronchitis for two weeks, bout (two weeks ago) my rib on the right side has been hurting SOOOOOOOOOOO bad, to the touch, along with any movement. At first it was just a little, but has gotten progressively worse. I know working out has made it worse, but I'm too stubborn to stop! :worried: I had a chest x-ray done when i went to the doctor for the bronchitis intitially and they found some small scaring on the left side of my heart... nothing related to the bronchitis, but, I'm sure if this pain was that serious it would have shown up. But I don't know EXACTLY what it is or WHAT to do? I'm just afraid they'll tell me i can't work out!!! What do i do if i cant? I'll go nuts-o!! :bawling: I don't want to lose muscle and gain fat :worried: If I can't work out, will U guy's please help me come up with a plan with what/ how to eat, so that i can preserve muscle, and prevent fat gain till i heal? Thanks guys... I really need your support if this is a bad report.... BUT, im hoping for the best :) Lots a love! :heart:
 
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:worried: Ladies!!! What to do??!?! I'm so upsett... gots-ta-go to the doctor on monday... Ever since i had bronchitis for two weeks, bout (two weeks ago) my rib on the right side has been hurting SOOOOOOOOOOO bad, to the touch, along with any movement. At first it was just a little, but has gotten progressively worse. I know working out has made it worse, but I'm too stubborn to stop! :worried: I had a chest x-ray done when i went to the doctor for the bronchitis intitially and they found some small scaring on the left side of my heart... nothing related to the bronchitis, but, I'm sure if this pain was that serious it would have shown up. But I don't know EXACTLY what it is or WHAT to do? I'm just afraid they'll tell me i can't work out!!! What do i do if i cant? I'll go nuts-o!! :bawling: I don't want to lose muscle and gain fat :worried: If I can't work out, will U guy's please help me come up with a plan with what/ how to eat, so that i can preserve muscle, and prevent fat gain till i heal? Thanks guys... I really need your support if this is a bad report.... BUT, im hoping for the best :) Lots a love! :heart:
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Good luck with the doctor, I hope everything goes well.
 
Thaks CK :) I really wish I could go ahead and see the doc today, but being saturday, it would have to be a "doc in the box" and they alwalys cost a fortune!!! Plus, they'll prob just give me drugs n tell me to take it easy.... (like i don't take enough pills already for my other probs....HA!) I want to go to the gym soo bad right now but im hurting ALOT right now, so... oh well. Not to mention im riding the female tidal wave :rolleyes: :rolleyes: Mother nature HAtES me, ha! But on the bright side, all that should be over with before i go to the beach on thursday? Ok, well, gonna chill now... Thanks for bein a sweetie... Hope you have a WONDERFUL weekend...... :heart: :heart: :heart:
 
Ha! Buns... I dunno.. who am i? i mean.. of course im gem.... (shut up believe!!) oh yeah!!.... believe in this! u freak!... what ever gem... !!! =) J/K!!! LOL!
On a serious not guys... im really freaking!!! This pain keeps hurting so bad, my will to attempt ANY workout is dwindling, and im feeling really depressed!!! Any suggestions for motivation or low impact ideas?
 
Sorry if I missed this, but do you know exactly WHAT is going on? If you hurt to the touch, do NOT do anything ... just my opinion :rose:

I think yoga or meditation would be good, but if you're like me, sitting still or trying to relax like that, just doesn't happenall to easily
 
Im sorry if this question is too personal but it woul help to know. I recently did a GIANT study for one of my classes . The subject was Bulimia and what you are describing is HIGHLY related to this disorder. I was wondering if maybe you have it? JUst a question but it would eliminate some of the questions you have and the problem you are having is a serious one so Im worried about you.

In the meantime, I hope all is well :heart:
 
Yes Bunny It is desperatly hard to sit still! :worried: I feel like every second i sit on my ass, and eat im getting fatter and fatter. Yeasterday thte scale read 118, but ifeel like i weigh 140, cause im on my period and it's a HEAVY one, you know, the kind where even your "baggy" jeans feel "just right" :rolleyes:

Aries, I'm really really interested in the study you did! But a little lost on maybe the question your asking. If your asking me if im "bulimic" in and of itself, then the answer is yes. But since I've been back on bi polar med's i only do it every once in a while, and only at night. I did it two nights in a row last week. And three nights in a row 4 weeks ago. But for me, thats a HUGE improve ment! :rolleyes: PLease feel free to elaborate on the study!! I need to know! I'm going to the doc tomorrow...So tonight if your on, or tomorrow iwould be great!!! THAnks lovelies!!!! :heart:
 
So, I went to the doc, and the doc, as suspected wasn't able to do much more than agree with me :rolleyes: " why, YES! your right! There is definent swelling on your right side!" but they had already done the chest x-ray a few weeks ago, and so we know there's no fracture. I'm sure my persistence in working out has continued to aggitate it. So, she told me i needed to NOT lift weights, "upper body" and no arm movement cardio. :worried: I'm so bummed!! :bawling: She said IF i didn't work out I could heal in 2-3 weeks. But I went right to the gym after the doc appt. :rolleyes: I just tried to use alot lighter weight. And no running! THis SUck! Just when i get RE_ MOTIVATED in my training!!! :rolleyes:
 
I will go over the main points .... Im sorry if I cannot get it to you right away...got tons of studying to do right now. In the meantime, you should realize that your health and your well being is at stake here. Even if you do it a "few" times a week....it will still cause major major damage to your body internally. The swelling by your heart is one of the many things that happen. Also, keep in mind that the longer bulimia is untreated, the harder it is to stop it later on in life. Something to think about....I gotta get to my homework but I will respond pretty soon... hang in there :heart:
 
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WONDERWOMAN... lol ! Once again, If they only heard, they would break out the whip on me! I DON'T work them out. Because they BLOW up on me!! I've tried to do them heavy, light, one light day one heavy day, work them every day and rep them out , etc etc etc... and i get the same results BIG and i think my main conclusion, is that the added muscle makes them "feel" heavier and that freaks me out too! So i just stick with being jigglier for now, being 26 and when i get a little olfer and can't avoid it any longer, start it up :rolleyes: , but for now, i just run sprints! I know it's bad, but i fit into my sexy jeans better not working them!
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I have the HARDEST time finding jeans that fit, but I'm learning to love my legs just the way the are - 'heavy' but strong!!

I saw your posts and the doctor's advice to stay away from upper body. This is the perfect opportunity to start (slow! light!) with your lower body. Those sexy jeans always look better with a sexy booty in them ...
 
Sorry it took me a while to get back to you. I did a research paper on Bulimia a few weeks ago. Here are just some of the facts concerning this disorder.

Bulimia is a psychological eating disorder. It is when a person has episodes of binge-eating followed by unhealthy methods of weight control.These methods of weight control include vomiting, fasting, enemas, excessive use of laxatives and diuretics, or compulsive exercising. Excessive shape and weight concerns are also characteristics of bulimia.It is usually a response to depression, stress, or self esteem issues. During the binge episode, the individual experiences a loss of control.

Some of the bad things that happen to a person's body who does this are: erosion of tooth enamel (because of repeated exposure to acidic gastric juices),Dental cavities, sensitivity to hot or cold food,Swelling and soreness in the salivary glands (from tons of vomiting),Stomach Ulcers,Ruptures of the stomach and esophagus,abnormal buildup of fluid in the intestines (bloating/constipation also),electrolyte imbalance,dehydration,Irregular heartbeat and in severe cases heart attack(first signs of this are swelling near/on the heart),a greater risk for suicidal behavior,and loss of sex drive......

Some factors that influence the development of Bulimia are:
-Genetics.... There are studies being done to look at many genes, hormones, and chemicals in the brain that may have an effect on the development of, and recovery from, bulimia.
-Culture...... Some cultures in the U.S. have an ideal of extreme thinness. Women may define themselves on how beautiful they are.
-Personal feelings...... Someone with bulimia may feel badly about themselves, feel helpless, and hate the way they look.
-Stressful events or life changes...... Things like starting a new school or job, being teased, or traumatic events like rape can lead to the onset of bulimia.
-Families..... The attitude of parents about appearance and diet affects their kids. Also, a person is more likely to develop bulimia if a mother or sister has it.


These are some of the horrible things associated with this disorder. I just want you to know that you are not alone and if you ever want to talk about this Im here for you.:heart:

You can find out more about bulimia by contacting the National Women's Health Information Center (NWHIC) at 800-994-WOMAN or the following organizations.
National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH), NIH, HHS
Phone: (866) 615-6464
Internet Address: http://www.nimh.nih.gov

National Mental Health Information Center, SAMHSA, HHS
Phone: (800) 789-2647
Internet Address: http://www.mentalhealth.org

Academy for Eating Disorders (AED)
Phone: (703) 556-9222
Internet Address: http://www.aedweb.org

Eating Disorder Referral and Information Center
Phone: (858) 792-7463
Internet Address: http://www.edreferral.com

Harvard Eating Disorders Center (HEDC)
Phone: (617) 236-7766
Internet Address: http://www.hedc.org

National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA)
Phone: (800) 931-2237
Internet Address: http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org

This FAQ was reviewed by Barbara E. Wolfe, PhD, RN, CS, FAAN, Assistant Professor of Psychiatry, Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center and Harvard Medical School.
 
Aries: Thamk you sweets for writing such an extensive post on the exacts of what the disorder is. Unfortunatley....I do know all those things :worried: I have been seeing a psychologist at the Atlanta Center for Eating Disorders for a year now, and a Psychiatrist there who I see for my bi polar disoder, who prescribes medication. I truely believe the eating disorder and the bipolar are intermitently(sp) intertwined, because like you said, there is a lot of brain chemicals involoved. It's like they feed off of each other. Since i have been back on my bi polar med's I have been purging alot less!! Which is great! I even feel less of a compulsion to work out. (i used to work out twice a day 7 days a week 2 hours at a time!! ) and if i didn"t i thought i would be fat. Today, i didn't work out. I've just been too tired, sore, and i had an early interview for a job an hour away, (and it was GORGEOUS outside ;) Anyhow, thank you for your thoughtfullness and your offer of friendship and a listening ear :heart: It means ALOT!!

Superwoman! Yes.... I have beeen given genetics of booty and legs if i work them out...but i fear them...lol! I dunno...i'll have to think about them ;) It may take a while, but I know one day, eventually i will learn to accept myself the way i am. My mother is bulimic as well (she "purges" in other ways) but i remeber telling her she wasn't fat as a little kid in dressing rooms while she cried in the floor! So, i inherited her low self-esteem, and she still apologizes to me about that to this day, but now, i have to un-do that negative thinking. It's just really hard ya know? Anyhow... =) THamks y'all! Gotta run...were going to a hockey game tonight!
 
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Superwoman! Yes.... I have beeen given genetics of booty and legs if i work them out...but i fear them...lol! I dunno...i'll have to think about them ;) It may take a while, but I know one day, eventually i will learn to accept myself the way i am. My mother is bulimic as well (she "purges" in other ways) but i remeber telling her she wasn't fat as a little kid in dressing rooms while she cried in the floor! So, i inherited her low self-esteem, and she still apologizes to me about that to this day, but now, i have to un-do that negative thinking. It's just really hard ya know? Anyhow... =) THamks y'all! Gotta run...were going to a hockey game tonight!
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I've had major body image issues in the past, esp. during my earlier twenties. Those overweight teenage years really did a number on me! I have accepted that I'll never be skinny... It just took me forever to realize that I DON'T WANT TO BE!

Hang around here, it'll help with the un-doing of the negative thinking. I do a lot of reading in the women's forum and everyone is fantastic!
 
Thanks wonderwoman :heart: I just want to find where it is my body WANTS to be naturally and maintain that... but that seems to be the tricky part since i;ve been constantly trying to manipulate it for so many years!!! Right now i'd just be happy to go for a nice run! My body is so out of whack with my rib the way it is, i can barely breathe =((( Anyhow =))) Thanks for taking time ti write back.... I do LOVE the women's forum!!! It's rocks;)
 
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Thanks wonderwoman :heart: I just want to find where it is my body WANTS to be naturally and maintain that... but that seems to be the tricky part since i;ve been constantly trying to manipulate it for so many years!!! Right now i'd just be happy to go for a nice run! My body is so out of whack with my rib the way it is, i can barely breathe =((( Anyhow =))) Thanks for taking time ti write back.... I do LOVE the women's forum!!! It's rocks;)
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Sounds like your body naturally wants some rest right now girl!! I know it's hard, and I hope you feel better soon!
 
hi WW =) just got back from the beach. It was ok. I haven't worked out in 2 weeks!!! =( My pain is starting to go away but i'm feeling really "dumpy"... ya know? I cannot WAIT to workout!!!! =) Hope your doing well!??
 
Geez, I should have looked at your log WAY before now!!!! A lot going on here!

1st - your question about training legs.....2x a week should be plenty. No need to every day. (wait until your healed, of course)

2nd.....I'm wondering how a doctor could tell you you will be healed in 2-3 weeks if he has no clue what the problem even IS - other than "swelling"! Did he have any input AT ALL as to what it could be?

Hope you're feeling better. If you're not working out right now, keep your diet CLEAN.....and NO purging!!!!! :kiss:
 
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hi WW =) just got back from the beach. It was ok. I haven't worked out in 2 weeks!!! =( My pain is starting to go away but i'm feeling really "dumpy"... ya know? I cannot WAIT to workout!!!! =) Hope your doing well!??
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I am physically well, mentally a bit of a mess today........ The beach sounds great! I am so jealous.

Let me know how the workout/gym does....
 
Hi everyone!!!! I'm just stoping in for a second..... goin to my head doc! LOL! But i'll come back later, to respond! LOve ya! Amy
 
Ok !!! It's been a while! I went on vacation... from what? I dunno.... I went alone, but hooked up with some shady characters and was lucky to have not gotten into trouble seeing as I've been a little self-destructive.. :worried: Anyhow, Thanks Nelms for putting me on your "list" ;) I need all the support i can get. I'm still feeling pain, I just started working out again, and prob. a little too soon, but I can't take it anymore! It hurts a little but just taking it slow! Scorpio... I've been trying to eat clean. It's hard, haven't cheated TOO bad, but I have purged a good bit, especially on vacation, b/c I've been feeling REALLY out of control!!! :bawling: Of my life, my, well... EVERYTHING!! But thats a wholenother post!!! WW, I know what it's like to be a mental mess ;) If anyone does, it's me! HA! Hang in there! I called my head doc for an emergency late night session last night b/c it was that or something crazy :worried: In fact, the night before I left FOR the beach, I had to decide to check myself into a "hospital" or just go to the beach.... NO LIE!!!! But even though I did some crazy, less than desirable things AT the beach, I still think it was, in the long run, better than putting my family through MORE pain and really knowing how bad off I've been emotionally. I think? Anyhow... That's it for now. Just trying to pick back up where I fell off =(
On a side note: I have a question guys.....???? Does anyone have a SERIOUS over-eating trigger food? And if so, do you just totally NOT put it in your diet, and BAN it? Because when it comes to nuts or nut butters i CANNOT stop, and it triggers me to KEEP eating!!! =( I figure if i can just NOT eat them, i can eat sensibly?! ANy thoughts? Thanks a million ;)
 
I can really get crazy with CAKE.....MMMMMMMM CAKE!!!!! :chomp: :p

I don't touch it or have it in the house unless it's a CHEAT DAY. Lately, I haven't even done that.....hmmmmm note to self.....buy CAKE!

You know, you ARE in control, Amy. Write everything that goes into your mouth (and everything that comes back out, for that matter). SEE IT ON PAPER THAT YOU DO HAVE CONTROL!!!!

Do you say any daily afformations? That may help you also. I don't know the depth of your illness, but it sounds pretty deep. These are just a couple of things that could REALLY help you.

Write down the GOOD things about YOU. Say them OUT LOUD to yourself and look at yourself in the mirror when you say them. ....and BELIEVE them!!!!!! :heart:
 
SG: DAMN!!!! I just wrote this reallllly long reply and it got erased =( so long story short, your right, i do need to start daily affirmations! I did keep a food diary for over a year and it helped, but after a year it became monotonous, and routine, and stoped being effective =( I'm so tired of everytime i turn around being injured in some way shape or form preventing me from going full force into my goals!!! :worried: I'm so ready to just GO FOR IT!!! I feel like by the time my body physically catches up with my mind and my will it will be ON!!! But it seeems to never be on at the same time! ya know? :evil: Oh well =( Hope your doing well girly =) YOur a peaches n cream croissant =) WHAT IS WRONG WITH me! lol... i must be a bout to start or something b/c i keepp dreaming about sugar ;) Night chica!
 
Hi Gemini....I was bulimic and anorexic for a few years....It is a lot of work ...BUT you can get better! Keep going to couseling and working on the inside...it all stems from there...I always described it as....fucked up on the inside looks great on the outside...that way no one knew what I was really like becasue the could not judge me if I looked great to them.......oh it is a horrible problem but it can be overcome..I have three wonderful daughters that I thought I would never want in fear of gaining weight...well I have had them all and lost 40 pounds and then 60 to get back to normal with all of them and it was really never an issue....SO we are hear for you if you need anything!!

GG
 
Hey gym gurl :heart: Thankx for the kind words. I've been really struggling with it lately. In fact thats why I've been M.I.A. lately........ MORE SO, my Bi-Polar episodes have been outta control, and I got to where I was drinking every night. I've had bronchitis, or a chest cold, and now, "pink-eye" for close to a month now and just wanna cry because i CANNOT work out, and I keep trying even though my body is weak and it just makes it worse but I'm so afraid I'm going to keep getting bigger and bigger, and I know i should just "eat clean" to counter act no gym time, but when I'm down, it's hard not to want to eat bad at night. I tend to not eat all day, drink wine at night, then chow down on apples n PB and protein bars all night! :worried: I really need help, i feel like im losing it! My shrink helps, but I'm so sad.....
 
gemini269 said:
Hey gym gurl :heart: Thankx for the kind words. I've been really struggling with it lately. In fact thats why I've been M.I.A. lately........ MORE SO, my Bi-Polar episodes have been outta control, and I got to where I was drinking every night. I've had bronchitis, or a chest cold, and now, "pink-eye" for close to a month now and just wanna cry because i CANNOT work out, and I keep trying even though my body is weak and it just makes it worse but I'm so afraid I'm going to keep getting bigger and bigger, and I know i should just "eat clean" to counter act no gym time, but when I'm down, it's hard not to want to eat bad at night. I tend to not eat all day, drink wine at night, then chow down on apples n PB and protein bars all night! :worried: I really need help, i feel like im losing it! My shrink helps, but I'm so sad.....
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:worried: AMY, AMY, AMY ...... you GOTTA' pull out of this crap! (no, I don't think it's crap....just a figure of speech) You are SELF DESTRUCTING, Girl! DON'T DO IT! I know, easier said than done.

....I'm worried about you..............:heart:
 
scorpiogirl said:
:worried: AMY, AMY, AMY ...... you GOTTA' pull out of this crap! (no, I don't think it's crap....just a figure of speech) You are SELF DESTRUCTING, Girl! DON'T DO IT! I know, easier said than done.

....I'm worried about you..............:heart:
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AMY honey, do you have ANY friends like us here to help you out?! In person? That can help you, be by your side... seriously HOLD your hand... anyone wiling to help out that much?
 
gemini269 said:
Hey gym gurl :heart: Thankx for the kind words. I've been really struggling with it lately. In fact thats why I've been M.I.A. lately........ MORE SO, my Bi-Polar episodes have been outta control, and I got to where I was drinking every night. I've had bronchitis, or a chest cold, and now, "pink-eye" for close to a month now and just wanna cry because i CANNOT work out, and I keep trying even though my body is weak and it just makes it worse but I'm so afraid I'm going to keep getting bigger and bigger, and I know i should just "eat clean" to counter act no gym time, but when I'm down, it's hard not to want to eat bad at night. I tend to not eat all day, drink wine at night, then chow down on apples n PB and protein bars all night! :worried: I really need help, i feel like im losing it! My shrink helps, but I'm so sad.....
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Hey girl....can you up your sessions with your therapist until they can get you a little more stable with the meds and with the depression? Yes you need support! Do you have anyone close to you that will listen....I know how you feel..you can always PM me any time and I am on here everyday...I really just want to hug you right now!!! HUGSS
 
You are a beautiful creation.

You are worth the effort.

You are worthy of being loved.

You are NOT alone. :rose:
 
OMG!!! :bawling: on't EVEN think you guys understand how amazing God works through you all! SG; GG; BunZ; Que.... I'm so heart broken right now because of the VERY thing you asked me. I feel likke I give and give , because I LOOOOONG for close friendships. I have so many aquaintances, I know 8 people everywhere I go, always bubbly and "fun-amy" but I'm DYING inside. ALways with a "new-guy" for validation, and always with a guy thats more needy emotionally than me, and I end up catering to him, and still feeling empty. I was making my long drive home from my new guy's place tonight (he's going through a rough time with his ex) and I was thinking to myself.... I am completly alone? And the only friend I really have...."down n out" is the one I PAY!!! :worried: It makes no sense, b/c the people who really know me if they knew that they would think I was lying, but it's true! I feel alone and scared.More support would be great, but that means more money, which means more of "hearing about it from dad" (cause holding a job for me is near impoosible?!!?! :worried: ) So im broke too! SOrry to rant...Just strange that these posts were the one's i came home to, when i was pondering them for the last 30 minutes in my car!!! =( I love you's guy's too! :heart: Thanks for caring! :heart:
 
que_66 said:
You are a beautiful creation.

You are worth the effort.

You are worthy of being loved.

You are NOT alone. :rose:
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^^^ really sweetie .... she is dead on ... hang in there...

There is all some reason we came here & stayed... you are NOT alone Amy :rose:
 
gemini269 said:
OMG!!! :bawling: on't EVEN think you guys understand how amazing God works through you all! SG; GG; BunZ; Que.... I'm so heart broken right now because of the VERY thing you asked me. I feel likke I give and give , because I LOOOOONG for close friendships. I have so many aquaintances, I know 8 people everywhere I go, always bubbly and "fun-amy" but I'm DYING inside. ALways with a "new-guy" for validation, and always with a guy thats more needy emotionally than me, and I end up catering to him, and still feeling empty. I was making my long drive home from my new guy's place tonight (he's going through a rough time with his ex) and I was thinking to myself.... I am completly alone? And the only friend I really have...."down n out" is the one I PAY!!! :worried: It makes no sense, b/c the people who really know me if they knew that they would think I was lying, but it's true! I feel alone and scared.More support would be great, but that means more money, which means more of "hearing about it from dad" (cause holding a job for me is near impoosible?!!?! :worried: ) So im broke too! SOrry to rant...Just strange that these posts were the one's i came home to, when i was pondering them for the last 30 minutes in my car!!! =( I love you's guy's too! :heart: Thanks for caring! :heart:
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You are a beautiful creation.

You are worth the effort.

You are worthy of being loved.

You are NOT alone. :rose:

You're not a parking pass that needs a validation punch by the guy at the parking garage.

Validation doesn't come from others.

God made you for a reason. :heart:

God doesn't make junk. :heart:

It's like Bunny said, there's a reason we came to EF and stayed. :rose:

Hang in there Amy, there has to be a little rain before the flowers can bloom and be beautiful. :rose:
 
THanks Bunz and Que =) I really do need to hear those wonwerful things. SOmetimes it's easy to start to wonder WHAT exactly our purpose IS when our "little world" around us wants to fall apart but I know your right. YOur beautiful wonerful women and I pray God blesses you tonight and this week!!!! Lots of love!!! AMY
 
"Maximum Achievement" by Brian Tracy...probably saved my life by teaching me how to get rid of all the negative, destructive thoughts. I've probably recommended it to over 100 people. Everyone that has purchased it and read it has thanked me...
 
Yeah! Thanx nelms! I was just talking to my "shrink" ha! today about that fact. She asks me how my "med's" are doing and I say great. SHe gets excited... and I began to cry. SHe looks confused and I tell her.... thats the problem.!!! I've felt bad for so long, self-destructive, and self punishing and NEGATIVE, that I find myself "making up for" all the good the medicine is doing by, alcohol, etc. beating myself down, because being down and hurting is more COMFORTABLE!? strange but true.... so i will check out that book too!!! :heart:
 
Amy, I know exactly what you mean, and I have talked to others about it, too. It's "scary" to think of being positive and confident, because all you know is your misery. Negativity is what is comfortable for you (exactly what you said). People that have never been there will literally never understand. As a matter of fact, that is literally how your brain is functionally wired right now...to be negative.

So was mine. Believe me.

The good news is that you can rewire your brain. I'm dead serious, and I'm very much living proof. You will learn to rewire it to be positive. You will learn that there is far more comfort in joy and love and confidence. You will learn that you are extremely valuable, which is absolutely foreign to you right now (and me, at one time).

The book I mentioned teaches you HOW, which is what I was missing. My counselor and I worked out all of the "why" I felt like I did. But when we got to the "how to fix it", progress stalled...until I read the book. Understand, though, that I was searching and pulling with everything in me to get better. I had had enough. So, when I found that book, I DID EVERYTHING IN IT.

And that is the key. You must DO what is in the book...not just read it. Every day. I did the things that were in the book EVERY DAY for months on end...and before I knew it, I was a 100% completely different person that people didn't even recognize.

It has now been 12 years, and I've never looked back. :) You can do it. :D

And, because it would be simply wrong for me not to mention it: ask for God's help. :heart:
 
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