you are correct sir. i see my dad now sometimes when i think of how i act and it scares the shit out of me, cause he was such an asshole. she knows this too, and is a helluva woman to stay and help me work thru it, she actually helps me. she said she fell in love with me before i "had muscles" and she would love to have me skinny again.. it's probably worth it, i mean i'll never be as small as when i met her, so maybe it's time to hang up the pins.... i was just considering posibilities..
oh and jgk, dont sugar coat it, tell me how you really feel... thx man.