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OK... I am REAL LIT after calming down from a HYUGE fight w/the someday-2-B ex... I think I will be trapped in marital hell for THE REST OF MY FUCKING LIFE....
Anyways,
I knew after I dated my ex after two weeks that I loved him and wanted to marry him... I loved him with every fiber of my being until the night my head hit the ground in early 2001... that was four children, a LOT OF TOUGH TIMES and 12 years later.
I was barely 21.
I have only loved one other since (I knew him for MANY months PURELY as friends until we crossed the line so perhaps it was just a bit different) and that wounded me even worse than my marriage as I feel that over the course of my marriage all was fair as we did it to each other... My last lover knew full well what he was doing and DID IT ANYWAY...
C'est la vie! eh?
Now I don't even want to be kissed and I have A FEW grown men "loving" me and wanting "to have a life with me"...
I give up.....
I agree that I would also be uncomfortable about the guy not wanting to date other girls.. I have told ALL of these guys that I am not looking for Mr Right or even Mr Right Now. And these guys are spending waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay more money. I don't feel not one bit guilty.
Anyways,
I knew after I dated my ex after two weeks that I loved him and wanted to marry him... I loved him with every fiber of my being until the night my head hit the ground in early 2001... that was four children, a LOT OF TOUGH TIMES and 12 years later.
I was barely 21.
I have only loved one other since (I knew him for MANY months PURELY as friends until we crossed the line so perhaps it was just a bit different) and that wounded me even worse than my marriage as I feel that over the course of my marriage all was fair as we did it to each other... My last lover knew full well what he was doing and DID IT ANYWAY...
C'est la vie! eh?
Now I don't even want to be kissed and I have A FEW grown men "loving" me and wanting "to have a life with me"...

I agree that I would also be uncomfortable about the guy not wanting to date other girls.. I have told ALL of these guys that I am not looking for Mr Right or even Mr Right Now. And these guys are spending waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay more money. I don't feel not one bit guilty.