musclemom

Well, vis a vis the kyanite ... it opens the chakras and aligns them, sometimes having that stuff done too quickly can be overwhelming. Forcing the process is one thing, but to the way of my traditions thinking, if it happens that you encounter a situation where you run into something like that, it happened for a reason so don't be too hard on yourself. Another thing is that Reiki might approach chakras a little differently than someone who is looking at them from a magickal perspective. Here's an interesting article if you'd like to see what I'm talking about:

Signs of Chakra Imbalance

Bast is a wonderful, loving and very ladylike goddess. She takes good care of those who care for her and her subjects cats I recently attended the dedication of a friend of mine to Bast, essentially she was becoming a priestess of Bast. What was REALLY funny was I was sort of on the fence about attending and was really thinking of backing out and I had not one but two absolutely pure black cats cross my path when I went for a walk that day. Black cats are particularly sacred to Bast so I told Her I can take a hint.

I'm going to have to check out that tarot deck, sounds extremely interesting!

yeah, I think I still have it - have to check, but I'm pretty sure its there...when I told my Reiki teacher about the kyanite grid and getting dizzy, she was in disbelief - because that stone shouldnt have had that effect on me, unless I have blocks...and oh, boy, do I

The pic is Bast, from the Universal Goddess Tarot. I love that deck, even though I cant really read it - it takes some good knowledge of the pantheons + the knowledge of how Tarot story goes. The deck is gorgeous though!

There was something about Bast the first time I walked in the store, I was very drawn to her statue and I have honestly never been too fond of the egyptian pantheon....but I had to get it. She helped me in my first steps but I dont know if she is still with me

teee heeeeee....you created only a half monster....lol

OMG, how much money you spent on books and ceystals? LOL....control, girl, control...lol....its hard, I know :-( At the last holistic festival I went to, I had to buy the crystals that I couldnt find in the local metaphysical stores, but I gave myself a 60$ spending limit - if I didnt....*grin*

How far did you get with the Tree of Life by now? You guys go one sefirot at a time, right?

I still have to work on getting my chakras balanced and clear....I managed to cut an unhealthy cord, but I have a hard time cleaning up my 1st and mostly 2nd chakra....but, I have also stopped meditating for almost a year now :-( Yeah, its bad....as soon as I got a hold of pathworking, financial crisis hit us and I lost interest in everything - I just had to concentrate on my mundane life a bit.....until I realized that as long as I am stressing over, it aint gonna ever go good So, I let the Universe take over and its been OK

Girl, I have been thinking of what you have been doing this whole time Talking about spending money on books and gems...lol....I went on a rampage of spending last summer, but I simmered down. I still have loads of books that are waiting for me read. I got attuned to Reiki II and am very happy with the experiences - they were mystical and amazing! Since that time I have been more and more sensitive to energies and to the vibrations of crystals and gems. A huge grid of kyanite actually made me dizzy and I had to walk out of the store and ground....right next to a busy street - I can just guess what the people thought when they saw me kneeling down with my hands on the grass
I told my Jehova Witness mother-in-law that I am a pagan...lol...can you imagine the reaction, girl? I have tried so much to be accepting and not say anything about her beliefs, but when she told me that Pagans are from the Devil (oh, yoga too lmao!) I had to tell her and ask her if I am an evil and mean person....lol

Bloke in my AV:

Akinwale Arobieke - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

This is the thing... I kinda felt this truth. I told Thandie that she would be way, way, way more receptive to the stones, that me... for example, my stones would be, yeah this guy has to much ego, and needs more compassion... maybe in a few years I'll kick in. I think the want to... all comes back to not in the idea that the stone is separate from you, but rather is a reflection of "YOU"...
She is an Angel... I"m working on my shit, however some obsidian would be good for me too. In our current understanding of knowledge... we use it as a tool to connect a solution with a problem, a stone that is being used for 'selfish reasons' such as wealth, and such, would reflects this flawed understanding of knowledge, my point is, the stone will not work, unless the intent is balanced and not polluted with ego. It Would Work With Her... as Her.
Me not so much. I have not built the foundation for this. My connection to the Universal Intent, is not quite Broadband... Hers Is.
So that said... Lay it on Me when You have time Sagacious One.

I want 3 stones for...
PSYCHIC Protection- Intuitive Discernment- Tranquility....
Again I don't think, the Source Rule, as in U recommending a Valid Site for me to Shop, applies...LOL.

Hey... Could U recommend a solid store to get the proper stone of say obsidian for Thandie?
Also what other stones do you recommend?

bwahahahahaha @ your k message. you know, i was thinkin the same exact thing as i was typing it. but did so anyways

Childlike... where I can be childish...
This is one difference between me and Thandie...
Hey... check out what are U listening too...

I'm not big in Fashion...Hint, Hint...
LOL
The dichotomy though has to be exposed for what it is.. APPEARANCE...
My pattern has always to find wisdom in the most unlikely forms, not in JFK class rooms, not in so called Published Pseudo Avatars, but On Navy Ships, and yes even through the most anti spiritual APPEARANCE Settings...
We will check that out... Seriously, She exhibits shit that blows my mind. Read about this, but never encountered type stuff.
Even 'they' agree...

when I go to New york... we are have to go to something like that, can U imagine, fashion, nutrition, and metaphysical trips...
LOL... I can't wait. Thing is and this is no shit.. She's the REAL thing. I kid you not. By Real, I mean like U.... and to lesser degree, me.

Hey... Just wanted to say Hi.
Thandie is reading book of secrets.
She loves it.

just stoppin by to say hi Hope everything has been good with you

Hello!

Daughter is with me now. Her Mom evicted her at 18.
Lots of adjustment, but she is mine now and turning
away from the negatives. Even seeing the boyfriend for the bum he is.

MM, would like to here you ideas about karma
thanks

Musclemom, hello. Just looking at my friends list and saying hi to everyone. I've been soooooooo busy that I just don't even know what is who and who is doing what or where I even am sometimes. I have been so busy I sleep standing. I mean that in a literal sense too. The other day I did that. It is good for me right now.... For some odd reason I am having strange time but it all works out (hopefully).

Take care
Walli

MM, I'm looking for purely spiritual writings. I'll look into the ones you recommended. Thanks so much! God speed!

MM, You talked about the book of secret, which in turn was referred to me by Ariel. I just started reading it and find fascinating so far. Any other highly spiritual books you can think of? So you know where I am; I've been studying A Course in Miracles for the past 16 years and read many other teachings such as The artist way and others. And yes, I do think you're very wise! Thank you-

Not spoken in ages! Hows the trainin going?

well my dad killed a cat once. didn't mean to kill it though. he walked in his buddies house and the cat gave him an evil look. he looked at it and kept talking. it hissed at him and jumped up on his neck and bit him. he was bleeding all over and grabbed it by the tail and threw it against the wall.

if an animal were to attack me for no reason i would try to get it off me to. but to purposely hurt an animal. that would be wrong.

Going Shopping this week.
Thank You So much MM.

I know, I know. How exoteric of me right. The egyptian royalty weren't stupid I know.
Because its you, I shall retract my disdain and overexposured state to cats.

Last Night I got bored and picked up a copy of Many Lives Many Masters, mom's book I ganked while in Vegas.
I'll send my thoughts to you pm wise, though.

Thanx for the tip MM
Enjoy your weekend!

I luv ya musclemom, I wish I could talk about some of the things I have encountered, which pale to what U have. However, the more I talk about it, the less 'real' it becomes...
also I would feel like a traitor. Yeah lemme know what U find out. I'm very intersted, I have a question to ask U later when I'm ready. I'm just not there yet. Thank you again for everything.

Okay I wannna interview over the phone next week.
but before that.. Manly P hall. Was he real?
Alan Watts, the famed zen author, proclaimed the recently passed ADI Da as the next avatar. He had extreme psychic powers.
However intermediate zone fool. Bought Island in fiji, was on today show for ritual abuse, and he has recently passed.
Third I need to review the basics of Kaballah while I have time before March. I'lll do the basics of Hermetic Kaballah, any suggestions on
books? I will PM u something I dare not talk about, but only the hints... U won't figure it out, as I have not either.
I guess I need to tell somebody.

Yeah, I get what you mean totally. The emotional roller coasters we put each other through isn't fair to either of us. We both do it but not intentionally. It is by far the most difficult situation I have ever been involved in. I try and lose myself in my other doings just to take my mind away from the situation. But it never works, because I am right back over at the apartment.

Okay 2 things... what is the purpose of ritual banishment?
Second was Manly P the real thing?
Adi Da, just died reciently, he made it to the intermediate zone, had psychic powes to the max, however did unspeakable things? What dimension does he go to?

I just ordered a book by George Feurstein, called Holy Madness: The Shock Tactics and Radical Teachings of Crazy-Wise Adepts, Holy Fools, and Rascal Gurus. Bout some Gurus who actually used unorthodox methods to break the Self's need for constant security and pleasure. Some were frauds though, or intermediate/impure powered, LIke Adi Da.

Why do U thing I have such an affinity for U? Syncretic/Sagacious/Pragmatic
Female... Duh.... J/K

Okay, I've been shopping with my mom all day, and so my mind wandered what I'm going to like read, and yes I must start meditating again. I was on for 2 years, took this year off, and gotta go back.
But lemme hit U with My plan of attack book wise.

First I'm gonna find something about Janic Yoga & Vajrayana or Esoteric Buddhism, Probably have to order somethg that Roger Walsh, or Feurstein has written. Then I wanna know more bout Hermetic Magic.
So yeah I will pester U with questions I come across on that.

Finally, since all I'm doing is working out, reading, and traveling... going to New York to see my brother, then Puerto Vallarte with GF, then moving on Feb 20 to Columbia Missouri. So until like late Feb, I have time to reorder my head and heart, as well as train.

I will pester U alot, especially with questions on hermeticism.
Finally I wanna give U another /Vedic/Jyotisa pattern. I mean thats where Pythagoras was infulenced by this, IMO.
Anyway, having a tranquil one so far, in Vegas...LOL
Take Care MM.
Have a vodka tonic for me.
I"m a pretty prosaic drinker. LOL

LOL, yeah I know what U mean bout heady... I may come off across as heady, but like Ken Wilber types, who are more scientist than sage, hit me with wonder in the head, but do nothing bout the heart. Like Adi Da's latest book 2 is not Peace was critically acclaimed by Harvard and the UN president, however and it was a blend of common sense and his own genius and spiritual genius, however, U could feel while reading it, it was more head and little heart.

I think Im going back to the basics on 3 things, something that would renew my relationship with Advaita Vedanta, I mean its the same overall message as Kaballah, however I might go with something Hermetic as well. So basically i have limited it to 2 topics Advaita/Vajrayana esoteric Buddhism and something Hermetic, NeoPlatonic, Nondual...

Blend of Eastern and Western. 2 topics and no more.Sometime MM, I spread myself way thin, ironically fragmented attention style trying to learn bout awareness, focus and moving past self contraction of the ego.

I have until February before I move back to University of Missouri for a a tiny/grunt/part in a Social Psych Research study on the Dissolution of Private self and Online Culture. I'm hoping I can impress them enough to give me a bigger part so my name can be on the published project.

Did U read my thread on the Vasopresin Gene and Cheating Dudes, U know it was a set up right, while I believe in causality as being primary force in physical world, conditional reality, it does not operate between different 'levels' 'frequencies', and cannot account for answers to multiple orders of experience.

I spent all yesterday in parents new residence in Lake Las Vegas, 20 minutes from well 'Desire embodied, or Disney world on Meth and Tren. Its actually pretty serene, and tranquil, too bad parents won't let me stay until Feb 20 when project begins. I'm gonna miss the Kato Kaelin, guest house lifestyle I've had with Uncle and Parents in 2008.


Finally, after I do my little inquiry into Vajrayana Esoteric/Advaita and Western NeoPlatonic/Hermetic Magic, I'm thinking if I have time before the 2/20/09 to read some bout Aleister Crowley. Alan Watts said everyone should read his autobiography. So yeah so it looks like its gonna be esoteric East/West/Crowley reading.

And of course since I love to pester U with questions U will be hearing from me as usual. Thanx MM.

Yeah, here is what I'm thining, im going back to the clasics, but wanna learn more bout Varayanl esoteric buddhism, hermeicwdom snd hermieic pracitices. I'lll let ya know.

Maybe Skull and Bones Training? I bet Alex Jones will come out with a theory of that or something like that based on him dodging it.
I have no clue how Skull and Bones, Illuminati, Bilderberg group compete for power, but I had a friend who would go Conspiracy Theory on me and always talk about that.

Have you tried other means of raising funds? I know most businesses (and people) look down upon paganism but it might not hurt to maybe have a fund raiser by soliciting businesses (or other people). I've done fund raising for non-profits (mostly pet rescue orgs) and they generate their funds through their adoption fees. With some other organizations a yearly raffle does the trick. I've done raffles that easily generate $1000-$5000 dollars over a one week period, it all depends on what you raffle and how many tickets you can sell. They key is to network with like minded people and devise a plan that can work.

I agree with U completely. Though I think in general for 'standardized peeps' women expand inwardlyand change, where as men don't and stagnate. Change of topic here, women are more conducive to inward growth, men are not. Look how shallow we are, like I thought I had some depth, but lately its hit me just how dependent on the senses, well putting it in a good way, 'shallow' or evolutionary dependent... I hate evolutionary psychology, even though it is a partial truth.

I think though some peeps are more hermaphroditic individually than others. I think culture conditions the roles pretty heavily, and while the 'real' person has both. The real person is covered pretty heavily by the outward sheaths and thickening of the outward sheaths. So, that said, I think conditioned wise we get pretty entrenced in our roles. I know U have been taught of this axiom, however ,this truth was established in a different 'time' when things interact in a certain field, field being the space/time/knowledge or logos in operation, they all share that kind of 'knowledge' imperative running through that time period.

We all have something in common right now, we are interconnected through the same time period. So my point is, in this logos, its more clear cut whether U are female or male.... I mean we identify with our social positions more than ever. Plus, due to the logos in operation, the 'real' self is so obfuscated that we are cut off from it. Most of us, there are more awakenings now, however are fast asleep in the illusion of conditonal reality. I'm asleep. I got glimpes but have went back to sleep. My point is the hermaphrodictic self, is fast asleep and unawakened.

Yeah I see U are answering it... I have more results to post up, fascinating study.
Women will list intelligence and ambition as their prime imperatives. However in the moment, its physical attractiveness and charm. They will like agree, then 6 weeks later go back to listing intelligence and ambition. Men, well always the shallow, looks. In the moment of truth... Looks. It sucks being a dude sometimes. Women, seriously more evolved IMO.

See that's the thing... like Aurobindo wrote so much bout the intermediate zone, some positves... more clairvoyance, more spiritual allowing, more in touch with the allowing of space, and the creativity of time... some negatives... again not many reach this level, however, we have more 'intermediates' in Kali Yuga... I"m not sure. Negatives were increased sense of ego, increased sensuality... that may not be 'natural'. What do I mean by 'natural' balanced shiva shakti type intercourse based on love. The forces, that operate on this level are far, far from pure. Now, I'm not saying that the medium soul we identify in the present is run totally by these forces... however they influence them a great deal. Discernment is the axiom of spiritual activity. Hell even Christianity comments on this regularly. U do have more 'real' knowledge as Capacity not Content than I do. I sense that, and pointing it out is only out of respect. Lets say I in the present made it to that level, I sure as hell would only regress. As the Christian Saying goes... If U do not bring forth within outward, it will destroy. This is what happens to peeps who do not to a certain degree make it out of the intermediary zone. The challenges on every level are patterned the same, but the content is much different. The capacity, or pattern will always be sacrifice, transcending the prison of the self and realizing all is self or Brahmin. I'm very much locked away in the self. Also I wanna another shot at your pattern configuration, I have Anajali's notes now, intutive capacity is not any different, but yeah, u will re-cognize some tendencies as well as your own possibilities. It will pale in comparison to what the Elders have to offer. However, it ain't bad.

Evolution MM is not linear. Just because a part of evolves doesn't necesarily mean a part is not set back. Any kind of strength is gonna be accompanied with its complementary.
Again U know more bout this than I. Redundant saying this to U, as U embody it more than I do, however balance is the ultimate axiom. Not less, or more though as we tend to think of things, I'm not sure how to translate this principle. However yeah, I do agree, but am unsure that advances on one level to a certain stage are not met with unique challenges that if not overcome, will amalgamate the soul into something else.

Meh. . .we're taught to love our mom's. . .sue us

I know, I know...
Its a fine line to walk...
We both resonate a similar pattern... U have a similar spiritual DNA, but You are more of a leader, humanitarian, and empowered type than me.
Someday U will resonate the Wiccan hierarchy higher than U are now.
How can this not be obvious?
My pattern is more philosopher, teacher, mixed with aspirations to elevate to a balanced hermetic messenger.
Smoking cessation 2 weeks, I"m proud of myself...Yeah big time why I love the green, big time.
MuscleMom, never pussyfoots... LOL

Thing is U have skillz in the latter. I need to do the latter as well. My trash bin could be emptied as well, More amalgamated/ or re-cycled into brilliance would be my wish.
Axioms of process, though, which means patience and sacrifice... above and below sacrifice is the foundation. I'm learning to balance a way of losing the self-orientation, and need for 'self improvement' but not in a way that risks laziness or craziness... But it needs much, much more dedication. Not easy during Kali Yuga, ya know? It just isn't.
Thank you my Antedeluvian SoothSayer. -We AnteDeluvian Types are in the know- Well U are more than I am.
Atleast we walk the fine line of Bowl Games and Barbecues with a Pscyhopompic Style. This balance is one of the reasons I revere U much.

U and I in the non traditional 'niche'
Hey, I'm celebrating this T Day with my Hindu Peeps...
Have a wonderful day of Tranquility and Abundance.
Lata Sagacious One.

LOL on the K message.
Yeah, the extra melanin in coherence with the tude... keeps me young.
Look wise I've heard the MuscleMom from 3 peeps, anyway remark about her beauty.
So yeah easy on the eyes, and penetrating discernment is a nice combo.
So I hear... LOL

i have another question... however this is a big one. I'm not ready to ask it yet.
It's in reference to psychopomps and flat out not doing Your duty, or neglecting your orders.
Yeah... I know. I'm not ready for this one though. Later. I know, I know.

U know I have nothing but the most sincere respect and luv for Ya.
I mean U embody everything I'm all about.
I gotta head to another lecture then I'll read your pm.
I have been posting in class, well cause I can,
cant' with this next lecture.
Lata MM.

That my friend is the awesomest thing I have heard about me in a long, long time.
I luv ya.

MM can you debate at 930 central time tonight?

If I could have any job in the psychic/subtle/causal realms/planes/levels than yeah PsychoPomp is what I would apply for. lol

“I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger as reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I can not transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls.”
Anais Nin

hey baby girl, was up?