The "rock-bottom" part................
read the book, BE HERE NOW by baba ramdas. go to the nearest children's
burn ward and bring gifts. focus on the needs of those less fortunate.
if you suspect that you have a chemical imbalance and or clinical
depression, see a psyche doc.
bro, i was a scum bag drug runner and addict. i was totally depressed,
homeless and physically fucked some years back. my life was empty
and i prayed for the end.
today i am a vibrant and happy father of four, a successful biz owner and
a faithful and loving husband. i still have short lived bouts of depression
and anxiety, but i am far from being suicidally depressed.
it took a lot of honest introspection and hard work, but it's paid off
in spades. if you want it and are willing to work through it, anything
is possible.