I thought you wanted closure? Like real closure, not the "it's not you it's me" speech everyone gives. It ain't you or me it's both of us. Mel ain't on a pedestal, I know her flaws but our flaws were compatible. It was my fault for expecting you to be like her. It isn't about bad or good, it's about compatible. I told you that I would retreat when we got in a fight and you want to resolve it immediately. Mel and I never fought, she just knew what to say to diffuse a fight.
You have a value and be yourself. I'm just as angry with myself for being complicit in the fraud.