well i can only speak for myself and i have to say "bad upbringing". i was born and raised on a mayonaise farm in south alabama and i saw my brother get run over with a backhoe when i was 6. i've been kinda soured ever since. my mother and her numerous "freinds" would throw shoes at me and call me terrible names. jumping jack flash is like my theme song. the intrapsychic horror never subsides....i am only attracted to sadistic bisexual women with impulse control disorders and all my freinds, and i use this phrase loosley, are self destructive telemarketers. these are the only people i attract. this is my sorry lot in life. i HAVE to prove myself. i have no other choice.