sin = Self Inflicted Nonsense. it is actually a 16th century term in archery it means "missing the mark"
i have made lots of progress with my "humanity" over the last 20 yrs. if i posted what i did and who i was 20 yrs ago, no one on ef would believe it. shit sometimes i can't believe it!
i have a terrible time with intimacy. true and consistent intimacy seems just out of reach for me. i get glimmers of hope now and again but it is fleeting. so my answer is this: i would like to be more trusting and vulnerable.