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I need some help in the worst way. I did my last cycle (test 400 & Deca) from January 15th for 9 weeks. I used HCG during last 4 weeks of cycle and for 4 weeks after. Also I used Nolvadex throughout and clomid after cycle. Previous to that I did 2 cycles in 2002 and 2 cycles in 2003 similar to the last cycle. I never had any problem recovering sexually after my cycles until this last one. I last had sexthe first week in August then everything died. I haven't had so much as a piss hard on since then. I ma 44 years old.
In July of 2004 I was struck with severe headaches and pain in my back. Like a fool I didn't go to the doctor for about a month and I continued to work out even though I was in exscruciating pain. Anyway, I was diagnosed with viral menningitis and doctors said I could have died because my blood sodium went so low. I was hospitalized for three days.
After my release I was on pain medication (hydrocodone) for 6 weeks and I also developed severe insomnia. I took trazodone for this for about 2 months and then weaned myself off of them. All these drugs messed my head up and messed my workouts up. I did take 3 weeks off from lifting after being hospitalized because I was just too sick.
I still have insomnia although not as bad. A good nights sleep is 5 or 6 hours. I have managed to gain back about 80 % of my strength from where I was at during my last cycle. That is the puzzling thing. I feel strong and I can regain muscle but I can't even think of sex. I could have the best looking woman in the world walk by me and I don't even care about looking at her. I haven't been this way since before puberty. I have always had a very strong sex drive.
I also want to mention that during my last cycle I had such a strong sex drive that it was barely controllable. I think I did like 2ML Test 400 and 1 ML deca 300 together every 3 days. Maybe this was too much.
I was married in 2003 to the greatest woman and this problem is starting to affect our marriage. We want to have kids and I am afraid I will never be able to do it. At this point I wish I had never even thought about doing a cycle of anything. I feel like I have ruined my life.
Any help from anyone would greatly be appreciated.
In July of 2004 I was struck with severe headaches and pain in my back. Like a fool I didn't go to the doctor for about a month and I continued to work out even though I was in exscruciating pain. Anyway, I was diagnosed with viral menningitis and doctors said I could have died because my blood sodium went so low. I was hospitalized for three days.
After my release I was on pain medication (hydrocodone) for 6 weeks and I also developed severe insomnia. I took trazodone for this for about 2 months and then weaned myself off of them. All these drugs messed my head up and messed my workouts up. I did take 3 weeks off from lifting after being hospitalized because I was just too sick.
I still have insomnia although not as bad. A good nights sleep is 5 or 6 hours. I have managed to gain back about 80 % of my strength from where I was at during my last cycle. That is the puzzling thing. I feel strong and I can regain muscle but I can't even think of sex. I could have the best looking woman in the world walk by me and I don't even care about looking at her. I haven't been this way since before puberty. I have always had a very strong sex drive.
I also want to mention that during my last cycle I had such a strong sex drive that it was barely controllable. I think I did like 2ML Test 400 and 1 ML deca 300 together every 3 days. Maybe this was too much.
I was married in 2003 to the greatest woman and this problem is starting to affect our marriage. We want to have kids and I am afraid I will never be able to do it. At this point I wish I had never even thought about doing a cycle of anything. I feel like I have ruined my life.
Any help from anyone would greatly be appreciated.
