whatevs. im fine now with myself. i spent 18 months combined in the hospital and recovering. i got fat. 35%bf almost 230 lbs. i couldnt move for about 12 months of it, so i did nothin but eat and then when i realized i was fat learn how to lose it all when i could move again. its not security. its not giving a fuck cuz i dont know any of you. and probably never will