the bigger I get the smaller I feel...

[n1tro]

I swear to god while I am running a cycle and I start to grow the bigger I get the smaller I feel everytime. Today is day 13 of my prop/Npp 150mg each ed as well as 50mg of dbol a day. Its friday night and all I could do is go to the gym, no desire to go out and party at all. I usually go out at least once a weekend but I just dont want to put any additional stress on my body right now.

 

[landser]

Bro...I was thinking the other day, in fact, last night I tossed and turned thinking what the fuck, I feel so small...but, when I think back to last year, I have 15lbs more lean body mass, and about 5% less bodyfat, but i feel smaller than i did then. It is a never ending cycle of emmotional pain and frustration. I see dudes who are smaller than me and think they are bigger. It is muscle dysmorphia, and I fucking hate it. But...its how the freakz are born.

 

[smaller]

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It's a good read

 

[gimp]

same here....i actually would say that it is the leaner i get the smaller i feel. eventhough i've packed on lots of lean mass, i've also leaned out and i feel scrawny at 6 foot 1 220lbs. and about 12% BF

 

[Mythicalbeing]

Yeah it's an undying vicious circle...the quest for size is never ending.

 

[Patrick Steele]

Not me. I am not that big, but I am ripped and people always assume I look bigger than I am. I am under 200 lbs and look bigger than most 250 lbs bloated guys . Bodybuilding is all about illusion. I do not believe in bulking either. what is the point. I like being in shape year round for the beach.

 

[alltraps]

i just passed 260 and feel smaller then i was at 220 WTF. everyone keeps telling me i look like a monster, but i feel so small and narrow

 

[raydogg]

You guys must be depressed or something............the mind is a powerful thing.........whether it is a good thing or a bad thing!

 

[Patrick Steele]

Yeah, people who are obsessed about their weight is not fun. It can lead to depression and roid abuse. It has heppened to a few people I know. The best bodyweight for a bodybuilder IMO is between 190 to 205 cut. At that weight, you can look both big and healthy. I know people who only weight 175 and they still look incredible.

 

[gimp]

i agree it's not about how big you are it's how you look, however, for me I want both cuts and size