Citruscide said:
Interesting story Bikini... interesting indeed. So, you had a 12 year Shindig with a guy you ended up divorcing (all his fault) and have two beautiful kids out of it. Now, you've meet a guy and are happy... your kids want you to marry him and you reinforce that their daddy is a good person... goti, i think I understand the quick and the clear of your life.
Wow... you are a Saint!!! From your story, you've never done the wrong thing, I'm impressed!
Hey, I agree... I've been in bad situations before, and hit the road when things went sour... got out of dodge and only looked back to make sure I was going to opposite direction. So you're preaching to the choir.
Hey... the whole sexually active thing was a dig on your womanhood, nothing personal... I mean, I had a 99% chance of being right, so I ran with it.
However, there is more to being a bitch than making your way around the block... it goes with how you treat men in general... in relationships and in life...
when I was screwed over, it happened in a flash, no time to prepare or plan or Leave before it got to bad... I did the best I could...
You might make a better man than a woman... but still, I think you have those tendencies...
C
Do you read ANYTHING I write, or just INVENT what you want?
I like you, but frankly you are starting to get on my one last nerve.
I assume 100% RESPONSIBILITY for MY ROLE in the demise of my marriage - ALWAYS HAVE.... ALWAYS WILL. I have stated and RE-STATED this AD NAUSEUM.
I have FOUR CHILDREN - NOT TWO.
I have state and RE-STATED AD NAUSEUM that if my ex was ALL BAD I would NEVER had stayed married that long and certainly never would have had THAT MANY CHILDREN - ALL but that last was conceived with the use of fertility drugs so NONE were "accidental" (not that that would make any child less preciosu).
And where do you get the notion that by you "taking a shot" at my being a slut you would have a 99% chance of being right?
That statement alone leads me to believe that you KNOW NOTHING about the adult world.
Been in a bad situation and hit the road when things went sour? ARE YOU HIGH?!
I read a bit about what happened between you and your ex and you know what? SHE DID YOU A FAVOUR by acting like a total headcase BEFORE you married her and not after. Do I feel badly for you getting your heart broken? OF COURSE I DO. I think that deep down you are a good guy who is just venting because you feel like because you are so great how could ANY FEMALE do that to you, let alone a female that you were about to commit your life to.
GUESS WHAT? THAT HAPPENS TO EVERYBODY - EVEN TO US WOMEN.
I have been MAJORLY DICKED AROUND by a man that is held in high esteem by A LOT OF PEOPLE who THINK they know him... just as I THOUGHT I LOVED HIM. Truth is, I was in love with a man that I WANTED HIM and THAT HE PORTRAYED HIMSELF TO BE. I didn't fucking listen when he WARNED ME, "I just am a man and no more, maybe less."
In the end HE APOLOGIZED FOR BEING A MAJOR FUCKING LOSER AND FOR SERIOUSLY DICKING ME AND MY KIDS AROUND. HE KNEW HE WAS DOING IT THE WHOLE TIME, KNEW WHAT IT FELT LIKE BECAUSE IT WAS DONE TO HIM.... BUT HE DID IT ANYWAY!
WHY?!?!?!?!
BECAUSE I ALLOWED IT! THAT'S WHY!
Are you beginnning to see the theme of:
PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY HERE?!
Why do you find it so fucking hard to believe that there is GOOD and BAD in us ALL?... men, women and everything in between?
IT AIN'T A GENDER PROBLEM MY BROTHA.....
IT IS AN INDIVIDUAL PROBLEM.
Sadly, until you "get this" you will NEVER EVER meet a female that will treat you the way that you deserve to be treated. And if you do meet her, you will undoubtedly PISS IT ALL AWAY.
I had a mental lapse recently and got very depressed about NONSENSE... you have NO CLUE what my real life is like because I stopped posting up shit a long time ago. If you like, email me and I will share. We can compare notes and unless you are dying of a dreaded disease (which I hope to all that is good in the universe YOU ARE NOT) you will see that your life ain't all that tragic. Anyways - mine ain't all that bad either - I have my health (sort of) and my girls are amazingly happy and healthy. I have family and a handful of friends that love and support me. THEY DO NOT FEED MY NEGATIVITY - BUT DO THEIR DAMNEDEST TO TRY AND HELP ME SEE THAT NEGATIVITY NEVER GETS ANY BODY ANYWHERE!
Anways... do you know what my guy told me after I didn't snap out of my funk for a few days? He said, "I love you very much. But I can not love you IF YOU WILL NOT ALLOW ME TOO."
THAT, MY FRIEND, WOKE MY ASS THE FUCK UP.
Think about C - All I want for you is what I want for myself and everyone else that I have never even met.
TO BE HAPPY.