suicide

[markshark]

...has anyone ever felt honestly like they wanted to? im not saying i ever would, but sometimes i feel helpless and so unhappy that nothing will help me, including drugs, and sometimes i get thoughts. this isnt a thread to whine and say "woe is me look at the little pussy who cant handle life". as a matter of fact, ive done very well for myself making it living on my own, being successful, etc. Sometimes,though, I feel that maybe soon I'll get to the point where something may happen...not saying it will..but sometimes I feel more and more pushed into a corner everyday and that Im in so deep with being unhappy that if I use this as a way out it would be finished. I think about those around me who might be hurt which makes it difficult to imagine me going through with, but I just wonder if anyone here has ever felt as I do. Please, if you have negative comments and jabs you may want to take at me please save it because it will not have an effect on me. Im asking those with thoughtful, honest answers. Thank you.

 

[jballz]

Everyone hits a rough spot in life Mark but, taking your life isnt the answer( not saying you would). Suicide is the easy way out of lifes problems and as you know by your own success the easy way is not the right way, and as you mentioned the lives of others would be destroyed. Keep your head up buddy and things will turn around.

 

[footdoc]

All these thoughts are warning signs of depression and hopelessness. I would search for a good Psychiatrist and get on a really good anti-depressant. Many people have felt as you have and it is nothing to be embarrassed about. It is something for you to pay attention to and get the proper help. PM me if you need anything

 

[InGreatShape]

Good thing you shared it with us. You must act now before it's too late. Visit a Psychiatrist.

 

[Roxy722]

Feeling that way is more common then some think so I agree with the above posters in talking about anti-depressants. Remember to be patient as it can take some time to allow the meds to work properly and find the right med for you. You might also consider some type of talk therapy....cognitive therapy is a great one to help in changing your thought patterns and how you may view the world. Stay strong and don't give up on yourself.

 

[cw801]

I would definitely go see someone......although, I think everyone I know has maybe had a fleeting thought of it at one time or another. The problem lies in how often you think those things, and what is the underlying cause.....at least if you go see a professional, you can see if it's something chemically/emotionally wrong that can be fixed, etc. I have had a number of friends take their own lives, and it's absolutely devestating to their families and their loved ones........for that reason alone, you should seek some help.

 

[gorillahung]

I got to the point of putting a loaded revolver in my mouth and cocking the hammer. Then I started thinking about my mom, dad, sister, and nephew. I was miserable physically and mentally. I think the physical part brought on a lot of the mental part. It turned out that I had sleep apnea. It's amazing just how bad things can get with that disorder.

If anyone is thinking about suicide, I say to think of your family and friends first. Then go to a psychiatrist AND see a primary doctor. I'm so glad my primary doctor ordered that sleep test. Antidepressants may help but by my experience you must work a lot to find the right drug. For me, paxil seems to help. Suicidal thoughts are a serious medical condition and the rates of people who do kill themselves seem pretty high. I think our society needs to watch their family and friends more. That girl who comitted suicide over the high school bullies could have been stopped if someone was paying enough attention.

 

[RangerJ]

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem!!!! Think hard about this.

 

[Underwraps]

Please read the threads on antidepressants and sleep issues. Unless it's really really dark and urgent, try practical changes in your lifestyle like prayer to YOUR higher power, make sure you're getting enough Vitamin D/sun, make sure any sleep issues are taken care of before going straight to antidepressents. Look at your diet lifestyle like too, like a YOYO coffee diet. I'm just coming out of a bad cycle of all these issues and was heading towards asking my counselor about antidepressents, but I feel much better now. I'm cleaning my health issues plate up so I can REALLY see what is psycholocally going on with me (such as relationship issues) and physically before going on antis.

On the emotional side of how it FEELS. Yes, I have felt that dark though I too would never actually do "it". It has only happened once in my life in college where even though I was surrounded by friends and a roommate, I felt like I was in a cold dark hole and completely disconnected from people and emotionally so destitute that I was surprised by how dark a person COULD feel. I examined my emotions from the outside looking in and watching how I also came out of it. It was in the dead of winter and looking back, it was connected to lifestyle, lack of Vitamin D and not communicating openly with my friends and patching emotional issues. So, YES, I know how that darkness feels. Don't listen to it. I think I'll start a new thread in the MUSIC forum on what music you listen to when you are feeling dark like that.

I'm a big OLD time U2 fan and BAD always helped me. YouTube - U2 Bad (Wide Awake in America version) live in 1985 I dedicate this hearing to you, if you take a peak.

 

[trex74]

...has anyone ever felt honestly like they wanted to? im not saying i ever would, but sometimes i feel helpless and so unhappy that nothing will help me, including drugs, and sometimes i get thoughts. this isnt a thread to whine and say "woe is me look at the little pussy who cant handle life". as a matter of fact, ive done very well for myself making it living on my own, being successful, etc. Sometimes,though, I feel that maybe soon I'll get to the point where something may happen...not saying it will..but sometimes I feel more and more pushed into a corner everyday and that Im in so deep with being unhappy that if I use this as a way out it would be finished. I think about those around me who might be hurt which makes it difficult to imagine me going through with, but I just wonder if anyone here has ever felt as I do. Please, if you have negative comments and jabs you may want to take at me please save it because it will not have an effect on me. Im asking those with thoughtful, honest answers. Thank you.

I have an interesting perspective on this- my mother has threated to commit suicide for most of my life, and has tried a couple of times, once before I was born, and once the night before I graduated from university.
While you may think it'll help your own situation, it will unleash a large shitstorm on other people. So if you can't live for yourself, you can maybe try living for your loved ones until you get back on your feet.
Also, a friend of mine's mom killed herself a couple years ago, and it left him absolutely devastated.
You may think that there is no hope, but i can guarantee you this, that there is a light at the end of the tunnel-you just cannot see it yet.
Tell someone you trust. Tell a counselor. Tell your doctor. It's not your fault you feel this way, and there is a way out if you only open your mouth and talk about it to a real person in your community.
Please, please, get help. Once you are gone, that's it, and there's no going back.

 

[ALIN]

...has anyone ever felt honestly like they wanted to? im not saying i ever would, but sometimes i feel helpless and so unhappy that nothing will help me, including drugs, and sometimes i get thoughts. this isnt a thread to whine and say "woe is me look at the little pussy who cant handle life". as a matter of fact, ive done very well for myself making it living on my own, being successful, etc. Sometimes,though, I feel that maybe soon I'll get to the point where something may happen...not saying it will..but sometimes I feel more and more pushed into a corner everyday and that Im in so deep with being unhappy that if I use this as a way out it would be finished. I think about those around me who might be hurt which makes it difficult to imagine me going through with, but I just wonder if anyone here has ever felt as I do. Please, if you have negative comments and jabs you may want to take at me please save it because it will not have an effect on me. Im asking those with thoughtful, honest answers. Thank you.

Im sure at one point or another we have all been thru some tough times
that didnt seem like we could pull through it. You should really talk
tp some friends,,family or a pastor,,perhap s even some counseling. See
a doctor too,,,depression is an illness.

 

[IrightI]

...has anyone ever felt honestly like they wanted to? im not saying i ever would, but sometimes i feel helpless and so unhappy that nothing will help me, including drugs, and sometimes i get thoughts. this isnt a thread to whine and say "woe is me look at the little pussy who cant handle life". as a matter of fact, ive done very well for myself making it living on my own, being successful, etc. Sometimes,though, I feel that maybe soon I'll get to the point where something may happen...not saying it will..but sometimes I feel more and more pushed into a corner everyday and that Im in so deep with being unhappy that if I use this as a way out it would be finished. I think about those around me who might be hurt which makes it difficult to imagine me going through with, but I just wonder if anyone here has ever felt as I do. Please, if you have negative comments and jabs you may want to take at me please save it because it will not have an effect on me. Im asking those with thoughtful, honest answers. Thank you.

Hi Mark. I thoink we've met before. I was using a different name. If you will, come over to the New Beginnings group, we talk alot about these things. Somebody there will want to talk more atlength. That's what we're for, just talking about problems and possible solutions. Just click your profile, look on the left for groups, then find New Beginnings. If you have already visited us there, please come again. We want to help.

TxB