Great post
My original unerlying reason I thought was to feel better about myself and see how far I could go and just be my best. But the real reason was very different. It was because I felt very ugly about myself and my self esteem was extremly low, probably because of my relationship. She made me feel shitty sometimes and it wasn't about my looks. We didn't get along at times and I felt I wasn't good enough for her. But now being the best I can be is what it is all about and getting layed.
My original unerlying reason I thought was to feel better about myself and see how far I could go and just be my best. But the real reason was very different. It was because I felt very ugly about myself and my self esteem was extremly low, probably because of my relationship. She made me feel shitty sometimes and it wasn't about my looks. We didn't get along at times and I felt I wasn't good enough for her. But now being the best I can be is what it is all about and getting layed.