This shit is so crazy... its like 99% guarenteed that whatever I write pretty much everyone will tell me DON'T SEND IT... you guys, my friends here, anyone....
but why is the urge to contact her so strong?
I've been sick this week with a cold and my sleep and shit has been all fucked up.. I was trying to take a nap and for like 2 hours straight I was thinking about her, missing her, all that shit.. so I got up and wrote that letter and believe me I was seconds away from sending it.. luckiy I had a female friend online and I told her about it and she was like "what? Don't send it, you sound pathetic!"
This is such complete BULLSHIT.
I've got a chick coming over tonight, she's BRINGING me dinner, bringing dessert for myself, my roommates and my friends... we're gonna watch Surivivor and The Apprentice... this chick loves sex, wants to try out all kinds of sex toys and shit with me... shes no bimbo, she went to the same school I went to as an undergrad (top 50 school, top 10 public school)... on paper it would be a dream come true right?
But I can't fucking get into it... I'm basically ready to call it off completely.. I've told her that I still think about my ex.. I told her that I can't help but compare things still.. she knows about the recent breakup.. yet she still wants to continue to get to know me in hopes that we grow even closer.
My point is, I can get fucking chicks, I was at lunch today and nearly asked a chick for her number, just because I can.... but the thing is, I'm hung up on this other girl... how the hell does this happen?