Noone will ever understand the depths of me-- I feel so alone.

[ZKaudio]

i think you may have a mild manic depressive disorder coupled with bipolar disorder.

 

[OMEGA]

Yes, my dear. Know thyself. I could live a million years and still probably never fully understand myself.

time not important TRYING is......

 

[OMEGA]

" First off. I always love reading Omega's post. Thank You."

!

Thankyou

 

[Raina]

I don't think most people have any idea what's really going on with me most of the time. So some extent I'm fairly private...mostly because I don't like people fretting about me or giving me unsolicited lectures. A lot of people close to me think I make rash and sudden decisions in my life because I'll make dramatic changes that I've been pondering for long periods of time but don't share.

 

[Bikini Mod]

Good thread!

I can feel you Biteme, but as the others said... It is a good thing. I have finally figured "me" out, then I moved to accepting me... which I FINALLY DO. "Me" is pretty damned groovy. I won't even say "in spite" of my imperfections because as I age I am beginning to realize that it is these imperfections that separate me from everyone else; good, bad or other - it is all me.

I think the thing that makes us feel alone isn't that nobody understands us, however, that we are afraid to expose our TRUE SELVES.

I know this is how I feel. I have been hurt and abandoned by many of those who, at one time SAID they loved me or were my friends. The good news is I know for a FACT now who truly loves me and it ain't the ones who say it.

Love is not a word.

IT IS ACTIONS.

I think the trick is to learn to trust again. I don't know if I will ever be able to do this myself.

 

[Bikini Mod]

I don't think most people have any idea what's really going on with me most of the time. So some extent I'm fairly private...mostly because I don't like people fretting about me or giving me unsolicited lectures. A lot of people close to me think I make rash and sudden decisions in my life because I'll make dramatic changes that I've been pondering for long periods of time but don't share.

You have described me to a "T"!

I sooooooooo feel you darlin'.

 

[Raina]

Sometimes I get bummed out and feel lonely and then realize that I tend to put myself in that situation because I don't want to open up to others. And how are my loved ones supposed to know I need their support when I'm keeping to myself? I suppose it's just hard to really open up and trust people when it comes to very personal choices/dilemas. I've been burned many times in the past and choose to protect myself by isolating myself.

 

[stuffperson]

biteme

I just sent you a PM that was at least the length of the Magna Carta, but your PM's are full.

 

[OMEGA]

The understanding of one self is not an end all and be all in ones existance it should be a mere referance point relative to the rest of creation.......

the point of life is to perpetuate it, not hoard it....................

 

[egotistical_player]

Love is for poets, in the wastelands you are truly alone, the deathly touch of cold runs through your veins as you see the ones you shared an understanding with
kindle flames anew and burn out like a little child stepping on ants.