this is not a pitty post.....I just need to release...dont you fucking dare feel sorry for me......
I must have been a child molestor in my previous life. I had a fing wonderful childhood....two great parents.....money......friends.....looks.....athletic ablity. and I wouldnt just say that if i wasnt told it a hundred times. Boy, you coulda been a model...or man, you could go D.1.......I then had a great college life....chicks, booze.....strength.....
but something happened. i dont know what, but not a day goes by where i am not in pain. where i am not obsessing about when to train, what to eat, when to eat....the gi of this ....the carb content complex/simple......why wont you eat fruit or whole wheat pasta jeff? ummm....you guys would NOT understand.....now i got the pinched nerve...thank god it's not my cuff or shoulder.....i cant do any chest movement or movement on my back....i can dead, front squat, preacher curl, bench dip, triangle tri press, almost barbell row. but anything overmy head, forget it...not even the bar. so am i screwed? I can still beat this thing doing those movements right? fuck eating......can I still grow on those movements?