Mental health

[Assertive Guy]

To speed things up a bit I'll be quick and precise about this. I'm currently being treated for Scizophrenia with Clozaril 150mg a day and depression with 20mg Paroxetine. My problem is, that I've faked it all and everyone genuinely believes Im ill! Although to mention, my psychiatrist has wonderd how such low doses have been effective.

Why did I lie? Well simply because I've never come close to being able to keep up with the world around me, relationships, work, everything. So I needed a scapegoat for my problems. The problem now is the meds are slowing me down even more and making my inability to focus and low energy levels worse! They are making me forgetful, apathetic and very clumsty.

To combat this I've been taking 600mg+ of caffiene per day plus Ephedrine, and now I've moved onto modafinil in an attempt to sort myself out. BELIEVE ME, I have tried to sort these problems out all my life with expensice councelling and seeing top psychiatrists, excessive effort etc and not been sucessful. My Community Psychiatric Nurse has suggested I go and have my thyroid checked, but I know it will come out hypo because of the clozaril. Should I be honest with the psychiatrist? Whats he likely to do about it? Im shit scared!

 

[flowerz]

To speed things up a bit I'll be quick and precise about this. I'm currently being treated for Scizophrenia with Clozaril 150mg a day and depression with 20mg Paroxetine. My problem is, that I've faked it all and everyone genuinely believes Im ill! Although to mention, my psychiatrist has wonderd how such low doses have been effective.

Why did I lie? Well simply because I've never come close to being able to keep up with the world around me, relationships, work, everything. So I needed a scapegoat for my problems. The problem now is the meds are slowing me down even more and making my inability to focus and low energy levels worse! They are making me forgetful, apathetic and very clumsty.

To combat this I've been taking 600mg+ of caffiene per day plus Ephedrine, and now I've moved onto modafinil in an attempt to sort myself out. BELIEVE ME, I have tried to sort these problems out all my life with expensice councelling and seeing top psychiatrists, excessive effort etc and not been sucessful. My Community Psychiatric Nurse has suggested I go and have my thyroid checked, but I know it will come out hypo because of the clozaril. Should I be honest with the psychiatrist? Whats he likely to do about it? Im shit scared!

The irony in this post is quite amusing.

You ‘’fake being ill’’ yet you truly are and don’t even realize it.

 

[KIAN]

I'll give you the benefit of the doubt and say I believe that what you are saying now is the truth.

Medications are designed and prescribed to aid in the treatment of diagnosed conditions. If you have no medical conditions then the first thing you need to do is stop taking any and all medications. NOTE: As you have been taking these for, I assume, some time, there is likely a set procedure for discontinuing their use. Some medications can cause serious consequences if given up 'cold turkey' so you will have to consult a physician.

As to your psychiatrist, forget about what he might think of you. In all likelyhood he will want to treat you for the underlying causes which brought about this 'false' condition. And you do have something which definitely needs treating ... but I don't mean with drugs. You need to express your true feelings about how you feel about yourself and your place in the world.

Believe it or not, but it is not that difficult out here. You just have to set a path for yourself with a goal at the end. It doesn't have to be a spectacular goal. Start off small and do it for yourself. There are always going to be obstacles and sometimes you do fail but when you do achieve something, and you will, it is that much sweeter.

But first things first ... come clean and get off those drugs which are not meant for you and start living your life through the good and the bad times.

 

[USMC fighter]

If youre really faking it why take the meds?

 

[Joester]

"To speed things up a bit I'll be quick and precise about this. I'm currently being treated for Scizophrenia with Clozaril 150mg a day and depression with 20mg Paroxetine. My problem is, that I've faked it all and everyone genuinely believes Im ill!"

Anyone who would say they are ill and take those kinds of meds is definitely not well. You are kidding yourself.
You should begin by ending your voluntary aspect of this game and be truthful with your doc. After you begin to be straight about yourself, you may be surprised at what is found.
Hope I helped.

 

[Growth&Courage]

I think KIAN summed it up well.

So read that "Assertive" guy, so much for you assertiveness..