I will not sleep tonight.

[Bikini Mod]

is that you in your avi BM?? if so i'm willing to offer you a sega genisis along with mortal kombat 3 AND nba jam tournament addition to money shot on you. or atleast pull your hair

awww and i dedicate my 1000th post to you to sway your answer

thanks I think. Great offer *cough* but I hope you arent too disappointed that I will have to pass. LOL

Not bad for a tired old hag whose "beauty is waning", eh? No makeup or posing/liting - just me and my crappy-assed cam.

 

[Frisky]

Not really... what it really is all about is the fear of the unknown. When engaging in these sorts of relationships at least "you know" what to expect. Stepping out of that into something new is scary.

I am STILL (on a very base level) waiting for my man to *snap* change into EVERY OTHER ASSHOLE MAN that I had chosen for myself. He laughs when I say that. "Darling, how could I EVER be anything but loving to you?"

I am so fortunate that he chose me and that I LET HIM pursue me.

but the thing of it is BM, YOU have ALREADY gone thru this bullshit... You see the signs and are waiting and ready for them. Not everyone had endured your pain and is waiting for someone to snap. YOU personally learned from the mistakes and the things you endured. Now you are a stronger person.

 

[blueta2]

but the thing of it is BM, YOU have ALREADY gone thru this bullshit... You see the signs and are waiting and ready for them. Not everyone had endured your pain and is waiting for someone to snap. YOU personally learned from the mistakes and the things you endured. Now you are a stronger person.

Frisk, you just made KEY point. She learned from her mistakes. Not everyone does and will keep repeating them over and over. That's when it's time to get some help to work on who you are so you can identify the ppl you attract.

 

[Bikini Mod]

but the thing of it is BM, YOU have ALREADY gone thru this bullshit... You see the signs and are waiting and ready for them. Not everyone had endured your pain and is waiting for someone to snap. YOU personally learned from the mistakes and the things you endured. Now you are a stronger person.

True, true... but it was a lifelong pattern that would have stopped a long time ago had I gotten help earlier. I had to lose EVERYTHING before I realized - "What the fuck is wrong with me? I am a good person, dont hurt anyone maliciously yet I get my whole life taken from me... why?" Had to face some pretty tough stuff.

We all make our own decisions in our own good time I suppose.

 

[Frisky]

Frisk, you just made KEY point. She learned from her mistakes. Not everyone does and will keep repeating them over and over. That's when it's time to get some help to work on who you are so you can identify the ppl you attract.

I've bent over backwards to help many of people, family, friends... none to ever appreciate it either. I am now learning from that, took time and tears and lots of emotion to realize that some people don't appreciate a kind heart.

 

[Cutiebaby]

But wait, what happened now?

I am so lost, this could be a soap opera gone bad?

 

[blueta2]

I've bent over backwards to help many of people, family, friends... none to ever appreciate it either. I am now learning from that, took time and tears and lots of emotion to realize that some people don't appreciate a kind heart.

Sad but true, many do not appreciate kindness. People who do not appreciate kindness are mostly just lost in their "lives" their "hurts" etc....Most ppl don't wake up or go to bed with thoughts on how to hurt ppl. Most ppl just function on "survival" mode and in turn hurt others unbeknownst to them.
Best bet, we need to surround ourselvs with positive souls

I appreciate your kind heart

 

[digimon7068]

potentially crazy woman in my house. I tried to take her home but she refused saying it was too late. I'm taking her home first thing in the morning, but I'm not gonna close my eyes around her after what I saw.

WTF did she do, bro, eat a kitten or something?

 

[Frisky]

Sad but true, many do not appreciate kindness. People who do not appreciate kindness are mostly just lost in their "lives" their "hurts" etc....Most ppl don't wake up or go to bed with thoughts on how to hurt ppl. Most ppl just function on "survival" mode and in turn hurt others unbeknownst to them.
Best bet, we need to surround ourselvs with positive souls

I appreciate your kind heart

My heart will ALWAYS be kind and giving, i've been stabbed times over by those that I love the most. But still I will always be there for them. Call me a sucker... I know it. Family/blood and what I wouldn't do for them.

 

[blueta2]

My heart will ALWAYS be kind and giving, i've been stabbed times over by those that I love the most. But still I will always be there for them. Call me a sucker... I know it. Family/blood and what I wouldn't do for them.

Not a sucker...Being stabbed by those we love/loved teaches us emotional strength. This is the kind of strength you cannot get from a book or a therapist. Learning from pain is the truest way to gain strength.
Life lessons are hard and good hearted ppl get hurt the most