I have no reason to live....I am contemplating my departure...

[Nobledude]

Enough of this bullshit. WTF? Time for some tough love. You selfish mother fucker. You want to rob your daughter of having a father? You think your going to "punish" your fiance by taking your life? Bullshit! Quit talking stupid shit and go spend time with your daughter, be a father, be a fucking man for christs sake. Fuck your fiance, she's a big girl and has to make her own decisions. Move on, enjoy your daughter, enjoy life!

sorry bor....I cant control my emotions....as far as being a selfish mother fuker, I used to be one,,,,and now I pay dearly...

I may be now again if I think that leaving the planet Earth would stop the pain..

I wouldnt wish to my worst enemy the way I feel now...funny thing is, even though she cheated on me, I didnt curse or hit her out of frustration.

I was willing to make it work even though she says there is little chance...

 

[blueta2]

Enough of this bullshit. WTF? Time for some tough love. You selfish mother fucker. You want to rob your daughter of having a father? You think your going to "punish" your fiance by taking your life? Bullshit! Quit talking stupid shit and go spend time with your daughter, be a father, be a fucking man for christs sake. Fuck your fiance, she's a big girl and has to make her own decisions. Move on, enjoy your daughter, enjoy life!

wow, that's the most I've ever seen you say in one post.

Kudos.......

 

[all the whey]

Noble, I feel your pain. I've been in the same depth of despair.
Almost 8 yrs ago, I went through a terrible break up. My ex took our biz and I had no money, no job.
I started a new job 3 days after he moved out, then within days our 24 yr cat was dying. My whole world was crumbling.
The night before I was to start this new job (same job I have now), I called my sis because I was going to end my life. Here I was alone for the first time in my life and starting a new job the next day.
I barely ate or slept for the 3 months prior.

My sister came over and talked me out of it. I sat up all night and smoked about a pack of cigs, Got ready for my new job and looked into the mirror as I was getting ready for work and said "I'm going to make it".

And I did. Since this time, my other ex of 2 1/2 yrs cheated on me over and over. Found out some stuff about him that would make AAP look like a saint. And again I was back in the depth of despair. Again, I made it. That time I went to therapy also.

I'm actually going through a painful break up now.....and you know what, I'll make it again. Why cause NO ONE ON THIS EARTH is worth taking my life for.

I'm also suffering from Lupus and Lyme disease. I've been struggling very bad and have days where I want to end it, but I learned to value myself with therapy, books and wonderful friends and family.

Use your energy and value yourself. Fake it til you make it. It's not about you, it about that little girl. She needs you. My Mom and Dad suffered pretty bad in their lives, but I needed her and I would be LOST and no one with my Mom and Dad.

Take your pain and learn from it. Pain is really one of the best gifts we can receive.
It brings you to a good place.............stick around and you'll see

PM me if you need to talk.
I hope my story helps

MY BFF always knows just what to say!

See noble. We have all been through times like this.

I promise it will get better. And, I promise you will learn from this!~!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Smurfy]

sorry bor....I cant control my emotions....as far as being a selfish mother fuker, I used to be one,,,,and now I pay dearly...

I may be now again if I think that leaving the planet Earth would stop the pain..

I wouldnt wish to my worst enemy the way I feel now...funny thing is, even though she cheated on me, I didnt curse or hit her out of frustration.

I was willing to make it work even though she says there is little chance...

true but you absolultely control your actions. seek help now.

 

[bw1]

sorry bor....I cant control my emotions....as far as being a selfish mother fuker, I used to be one,,,,and now I pay dearly...

I may be now again if I think that leaving the planet Earth would stop the pain..

I wouldnt wish to my worst enemy the way I feel now...funny thing is, even though she cheated on me, I didnt curse or hit her out of frustration.

I was willing to make it work even though she says there is little chance...

Used to be? Your being one right now. "my emotions", "my pain" "make my pain go away" mememememememe. What about the pain your causing your daughter by acting like an ass? What about the pain you would cause to her and your family by taking your life? Stop it! Enough! Go take care of your daughter. Things will get better...when YOU make them better.

 

[Bikini Mod]

Used to be? Your being one right now. "my emotions", "my pain" "make my pain go away" mememememememe. What about the pain your causing your daughter by acting like an ass? What about the pain you would cause to her and your family by taking your life? Stop it! Enough! Go take care of your daughter. Things will get better...when YOU make them better.

I need to leave this thread alone because it infuriates me.

I wish you the best Nobledude. Pull your head THE FUCK out of your ass.

 

[blueta2]

sorry bor....I cant control my emotions....as far as being a selfish mother fuker, I used to be one,,,,and now I pay dearly...

I may be now again if I think that leaving the planet Earth would stop the pain..

I wouldnt wish to my worst enemy the way I feel now...funny thing is, even though she cheated on me, I didnt curse or hit her out of frustration.

I was willing to make it work even though she says there is little chance...

Killing yourself will stop the pain. Instant pain killer death is.
But, we are more than our egos babe, we are spirit and soul and life.
You can take this pain........Cry, scream, mourn as much as you need to. Seek therapy, talk aboug it to death and then one day you wake up and poof, you feel ok.

I read this book called The New Earth from Echkhart Tolle and this guy now is all over the oprah show and they even have live classes on the book.
Tolle was a alcoholic and was about to commit suicide one night. He was a mess, then he found his spiritual self and wrote this amazing book. This book is now my bible. I've read it twice.

The Secret is ok, but The New Earth changed my life for the better.
Maybe try to read this book and then decide, but read it first.
I'll ever buy it for you if you send me an address. I will send it from Amazon

 

[blueta2]

Used to be? Your being one right now. "my emotions", "my pain" "make my pain go away" mememememememe. What about the pain your causing your daughter by acting like an ass? What about the pain you would cause to her and your family by taking your life? Stop it! Enough! Go take care of your daughter. Things will get better...when YOU make them better.

I know you're trying to give tough love, but it doesn't work. Depression is a beast that has no reasoning.

Depression is very selfish.

 

[Nobledude]

Well, I wish that I can see the exit door out of my darkness....DO you guys think that I dont want to live anymore? Of course, I do...but I want to live a happy life!


Thus, I am using every mean to try to find the exit door....I saw a psychologist, I am gonna see a priest....I will see the movie THE SECRET..I may even take up Buleta's offer..


I also post in here to let out all my emotions....there are good peeps in here..

 

[Mavafanculo]

I may call that line...dont know how can they really help me though..

As far as calling EF Frank....would he hook me up with a platinum for life?


Or maybe a plat for death?

frank's a nice guy and all, but business is business. lets not get crazy