i hate crying

[stilleto]

yet, i seem to do it so easily.

not sobbing, overly emotional tears, but my eyes well up easily.

As i was leaving work today, i stopped to talk to the head of business development at my company. There's 3 head honchos besides the owner- my boss (who's head of marketing, sales, technical writing, tech support, and the call center), the CEO/VP, and the head of business development. She likes me and I enjoy the bit of work i do with her.

we chat for a bit about a project we're working on, and then she says, "hey, i want to talk to you about something tomorrow."
She's smiling.
"I can talk now," I say.
"No no. tomorrow we'll chat." she's smiling warmly. No indication that she's not happy with me, and I know she's not anyway. I say, "ok" and leave work. I get in my car and my eyes are welling up.

why? I don't know. I'm imagining her telling me that I'm going to be the boss of my own department. I'm imagining that i THINK she's going to make me a boss but when i get in tomorrow she's going to say she needs a report on export codes or some other boring crap. i'm imagining that she's going to say i'm doing a great job, but...
and then i'm imagining that she's going to tell me i'm amazing and they are giving me a huge raise and i'm still teary eyed in my car for no reason.
I have no idea what she wants to talk to me about, but whether it's good, bad, boring, mundane, or trivial, i'm teary at the thought.

i think i just want to do a good job and be noticed and now i'm nervous/excited that it will or won't happen.

i'm a retard.

 

[Bikini Mod]

I know EXACTLY what you are talking about.

I gave up *hating crying* when I was like 15 and just accepted that this is how I am.

 

[stilleto]

well, i was thinking about it all night, of course.
today I get in and ask her. She can't remember what it was.

I said, "did you want to make me manager of a new department?"

She laughed and said, no... she wanted to take me with her to go shopping for new carpet for our tradeshow booth.

great.

 

[Bikini Mod]

well, i was thinking about it all night, of course.
today I get in and ask her. She can't remember what it was.

I said, "did you want to make me manager of a new department?"

She laughed and said, no... she wanted to take me with her to go shopping for new carpet for our tradeshow booth.

great.

...classic

The story of my life!

 

[LadyRaptor]

GODS ROT! ME TOO! I found that since I got off the "shot"...that my hormones are more easily "tested" then when I was on the shot (birth-control). But at least I'm starting to get hornier...completely lost the libido.... but now, I get a little frustrated and the tears come a little too easily. I HATE IT!

 

[stilleto]

GODS ROT! ME TOO! I found that since I got off the "shot"...that my hormones are more easily "tested" then when I was on the shot (birth-control). But at least I'm starting to get hornier...completely lost the libido.... but now, I get a little frustrated and the tears come a little too easily. I HATE IT!

huh... i'm on the patch, could that be it?
i don't even cry because i'm sad- i'm rarely sad. Something will be touching and i get teary. i feel like my grandmother. lol

 

[Tatyana]

I quite like crying.

Especially when I cry cause I am moved by how awesome someone is.

I did that this morning when I was reading about this bodybuilder who lost a leg and still was competing.

There is a little trick I read in New Scientist or Scientific American.

It is a cognitive behaviour technique for people who have issues with things like blushing too much.

Obviously telling yourself to stop blushing or stop crying never works, you usually blush or cry more.

Tell yourself to do the opposite, OK BLUSH MORE NOW, or cry more now.

I have only tried this with being annoyed and angry, so instead of just fuming, I let myself get really angry and asked, what would you do if you could just be angry. So I kicked a garbage can

Then I laughed my ass off.

It has been shown to work, clinically, for the blushing thing. Makes sense it would work for anyother emotional response as well.

 

[stilleto]

I quite like crying.

Especially when I cry cause I am moved by how awesome someone is.

I did that this morning when I was reading about this bodybuilder who lost a leg and still was competing.

There is a little trick I read in New Scientist or Scientific American.

It is a cognitive behaviour technique for people who have issues with things like blushing too much.

Obviously telling yourself to stop blushing or stop crying never works, you usually blush or cry more.

Tell yourself to do the opposite, OK BLUSH MORE NOW, or cry more now.

I have only tried this with being annoyed and angry, so instead of just fuming, I let myself get really angry and asked, what would you do if you could just be angry. So I kicked a garbage can

Then I laughed my ass off.

It has been shown to work, clinically, for the blushing thing. Makes sense it would work for anyother emotional response as well.

so i should tell myself to cry?
lol
i could try that.

 

[Bikini Mod]

Hallmark stores and me = cryfest. I have always been this way. I am very slow to anger but moved to tears quite easily. It used to bother me when I was younger and now I feel it is a gift, makes me feel more human. Crying also help release tension...

 

[LadyRaptor]

so i should tell myself to cry?
lol
i could try that.

Tat...of course, it's relieving to cry with a good movie, or for happiness...but I'm talking about the bust my ass for 6 weeks, and gain a lb when I'm trying to loose "fucking hysterical tears of frustration"...which is a girl thing. Guys have a problem like that...they break shit.

Maybe instead of crying I should try breaking shit.

HEHEHE

 

[stilleto]

Hallmark stores and me = cryfest. I have always been this way. I am very slow to anger but moved to tears quite easily. It used to bother me when I was younger and now I feel it is a gift, makes me feel more human. Crying also help release tension...

i actually enjoy a good cry- it's usually when i'm feeling particularly stressed about something.
what I can't stand is crying when i'm nervous. then i just feel like a giant ... GIRL.

 

[Bikini Mod]

i actually enjoy a good cry- it's usually when i'm feeling particularly stressed about something.
what I can't stand is crying when i'm nervous. then i just feel like a giant ... GIRL.

Here's a newsflash Ms Stilleto:

YOU ARE A GIRL!

 

[Tatyana]

Tat...of course, it's relieving to cry with a good movie, or for happiness...but I'm talking about the bust my ass for 6 weeks, and gain a lb when I'm trying to loose "fucking hysterical tears of frustration"...which is a girl thing. Guys have a problem like that...they break shit.

Maybe instead of crying I should try breaking shit.

HEHEHE

My fav is taking stuff to the recycling bins and THROWING the bottles and jars in.

NOTHING like the sound of breaking glass for a stress relief

Better than smashing all the crockery at home

 

[vixensghost]

I think the last time I had a reeeeally good cry was when my dad died three years ago.The next was when my mom died.

I get weepy at the oddest turn in the road, but, a really good cry is not what I'm about. My mom use to say I have a heart of ice, really, she did. I think about that a lot, her words, and think she is right. I do not like to show ANYONE any weakness. Silly? YES!

Ok, after admitting the ice princess trait in myself, I should go have a good cry!

 

[dirty~d~]

Emotional sensitivity is sometimes a sign that your BC method is not right for your body. How long have you been on the patch? How long have you been noticing the 'easy tears'? I had a similar problem on Ortho-Tricyclen, but when I was switched to Yaz the problem went away.

 

[Smurfy]

i too hate crying and make every effort not to ever cry in front of anyone, not even my husband or my son. it's so uncomfortable for me. i am perplexed at how others are ok with crying in front of people when it is nearly impossible for me.
that said, i too find myself tearing up at the strangest things. when my son makes a good play in football or when a teacher says something nice about him at school, or when im watching extreme makeover home edition or even at weddings. i hold it back as much as i can though with the hope that no one will notice and i play it off if someone catches on. i just cant even admit to it lol

 

[avidinternet]

I really almost never cry...Not sure why.

I guess I don't get upset very much which is a good thing I suppose.

 

[RottenWillow]

I hate crying too, but only because I know it's my illness causing me to be uncharacteristically weepy.

I used to cry very, very infrequently. Not because I suppressed it, or thought it was a sign of weakness or anything like that, but I honestly wasnt moved to cry or even get a little teary. Now even the cheesiest melodrama on TV will make me teary.

 

[stilleto]

i too hate crying and make every effort not to ever cry in front of anyone, not even my husband or my son. it's so uncomfortable for me. i am perplexed at how others are ok with crying in front of people when it is nearly impossible for me.
that said, i too find myself tearing up at the strangest things. when my son makes a good play in football or when a teacher says something nice about him at school, or when im watching extreme makeover home edition or even at weddings. i hold it back as much as i can though with the hope that no one will notice and i play it off if someone catches on. i just cant even admit to it lol

omg, extreme makeover home edition... lol.. that's a killer.

were you raised more like a boy and told not to cry or show emotion?
i dropped my son off at his friends house the other day for a few days. he'd be gone for 3 days and when i picked him up again, it would be his 16th birthday.
he hugged me goodbye and said he loved me, i got in the truck, drove away, and cried the whole way home.

 

[Smurfy]

omg, extreme makeover home edition... lol.. that's a killer.

were you raised more like a boy and told not to cry or show emotion?
i dropped my son off at his friends house the other day for a few days. he'd be gone for 3 days and when i picked him up again, it would be his 16th birthday.
he hugged me goodbye and said he loved me, i got in the truck, drove away, and cried the whole way home.

not really. my dad is very emotional but i honestly never once saw my mom show any emotion. i probably jusy got her genes lol

 

[Bikini Mod]

I laugh and cry with equal ease... I am extremely passionate (not manic) which I suppose is part of my charm. Though admittedly, there are times when I wish I could hide my true emotions better. This is who I am so I have learned to accept it.

Some might feel that to show emotion is a weakness. I don't look at it like that at all. I feel it makes me feel human and alive.

My mother was VERY stoic and I did not like that at all. She was loving when I was little, I even remember her laughing ONCE....

I am 40 years old now and have grown to love me and what I dont and can change, I try to, the rest I've learned to accept.

It makes my husband VERY UNHAPPY to see me cry. I wish it wouldn't.

 

[myway]

My eyes fill with tears if I get angry or frustrated but I laugh easily, too. It never takes long for people to know how I feel about things. My poker face SUX, lol.

 

[velvett]

Movies often make me sob - like in the Transformers when Bumblebee lost his legs - I balled.

I do remember the last time I cried, wailing into a towel hope no one hears you kind of cry I think I'm good for the next 10-15 year after that one.

Interesting oddity - crying triggers a migraine for me.

 

[Bikini Mod]

I learned after my first was born that crying actually helped me to let go of a lot of frustration - something about endorphines being released or something.

My God did that baby cry A LOT! I remember so many hours of holding her head close on my shoulder so she wouldn't get hurt and just rocking her while she was screaming in my ear crying to God and anyone else that wasn't listening, "Please baby! Please stop crying!"

Sometimes she would stop and sometimes she wouldn't but I ALWAYS felt better after I was done crying... gave me renewed strength to deal with the baby.

 

[babygirl84]

I am not one to cry easily.

Like not at all. lol

I do admit it makes me really uncomfortable to cry, I usually hold back the few times the urge comes on strong.

But after I cry it feels really good. I have some kind of emotional block on it and I wish i didn't. I even feel sometimes like I need to but can't.

Anyone else like that?