How do i recover......................

[Lenas25]

No, not from a cycle....... I lost a first cousin 2 weeks ago in a car accident. She was a Major in Criminology, worked in a bank and managed her fathers restaurant. Most of all she was like my sister and my best friend. Even though i live in the states NYC and she lived in Germany, Hamburg. We saw each other every few months.

She was only 22........and got killed by some asshole who was driving in the wrong direction on the autobahn.......instant death for both. I just came back from her burial in Europe. I am devastated.

I lost 15 pounds (like i need that as im skinny enough), started smoking again (i quit 6 months ago) and drinking like there is no tomorrow. I know that by making myself miserable im not helping nobody. I cant return her if i wanted to, but miss her very dearly.

I have some good GT EQ, and some Duratest that i wanted to do for summer but cant muster up or go to gym. I need to recover from the loss and find some motivation but its hard. There is no hour gone by that i dont think about her.

I know this post isnt where it should be...but i have to vent out someplace as i've got nobody to talk to. So i hope none of you bros lose the one you love, and appreciate friends and family. You never know when they will be gone......................................











R.I.P Jasmine............

 

[BIGJAKE]

my prayers our with you bro sorry to hear that.

 

[sweed]

Take one day at a time bro. Slowly get back into things. I am sorry to hear about your loss.

 

[Mr. Black]

A cycle might not be the greatest idea right now. Fluctuating hormones will just end up making you feel worse. Also I highly doubt your current frame of mind will allow you to have the necessary focus and deligence to make the most out of it. My advice would be to talk to a counsellor of some sort and try to sort out your emotions. Good luck. I am sorry for your loss.

 

[RADAR]

My Condolences my friend.

 

[jeb0177]

Sorry to hear that bro, get your anger out on the gym and by eating bro, don't drink that is not going to help you at all brother, I feel you.

 

[frotobaggins]

Sorry to hear this bro. Dont start a cycle untill you are back in the same state of mind you where in prior to her death. As someone stated above, your hormones will fluctuate quite a bit and that is not good for someone in your condition. Stop drinking and smoking and try to pull yourself together.

 

[david_diesel]

My condolences...hang in there bro

 

[wootoom]

sorry to hear that bro. just went through that bullshit.

 

[Lenas25]

Thanx a lot bro's, im trying to get back on track but even in my wildest dreams i wouldnt imagine that loss like this would hurt me this bad.

Like i said, i hope this doesnt happen to nobody here as i dont even know how do deal with it.

Thanx for kind words brothers.