Having to Live with Yourself.....

[H_T_]

GG needs a hug.

 

[Pamela]

a lot of you know i work with mentally ill people. i have a resource/support center i run. i had a staff member from one of the group homes introduce a new patient from their home, and when i look up, i see this kid that i used to bully from high school. bully is being used lightly. i pretty much abused this guy, took his lunches, embarrassed him at every turn, hit, trip, call names, etc. i remember challenging him to do 20 push ups at a party and he struggled the whole way and on his 20 rep, on the way up, i stepped on his back and spilled a beer on him.
so yeah, i was a bastard....and now seeing him made me feel like shit. knowing that he lost it and that i was part of it. you can say whatever you want, about how kids forget things, well, bullshit. if i can remember doing this stuff to him... kids that were bullied have memories of being bullied.
it was hard to approach him, i was fucking nervous. but he came into my office and introduced himself and then apologized for not doing it sooner. i told him that i knew who he was and that we went to HS together. he said he couldn't remember, then i started asking him about certain people and events and parties and stuff. he started to remember a lot of stuff. but then he looks at me and says: "I'm sorry i don't remember you HT." i felt like throwing up. still do. he tells me "I can't remember things because of (insert large #) ECT's." karma is a bitch.

You should feel like shit!

 

[HiDnGoD]

A lot of times the bullied become bulliers.
I was bullied a lot. Then I stopped & became a bully myself for a year. I rememebr every slight that was done to me with malice. & I hate every one of those peopel to this day, if I deign to dredge up an emotion about them. And I feel guilty for the people I did bully, even if it wasn't to the extent that HT did.
What made me be a victim remains a part of my personality & as an adult & father, I think it's good. But Lord, it was tough growing up. What I went through also formed who I have become.
I am more empathetic to the weak & downtrodden. Some people just ain't that strong, but they may change. And I have no patience for adults who bully, either overt, or with malicious humour. Youth may be excused a little for their stupidity, but adults shouldn't be.

 

[Smurfy]

a lot of you know i work with mentally ill people. i have a resource/support center i run. i had a staff member from one of the group homes introduce a new patient from their home, and when i look up, i see this kid that i used to bully from high school. bully is being used lightly. i pretty much abused this guy, took his lunches, embarrassed him at every turn, hit, trip, call names, etc. i remember challenging him to do 20 push ups at a party and he struggled the whole way and on his 20 rep, on the way up, i stepped on his back and spilled a beer on him.
so yeah, i was a bastard....and now seeing him made me feel like shit. knowing that he lost it and that i was part of it. you can say whatever you want, about how kids forget things, well, bullshit. if i can remember doing this stuff to him... kids that were bullied have memories of being bullied.
it was hard to approach him, i was fucking nervous. but he came into my office and introduced himself and then apologized for not doing it sooner. i told him that i knew who he was and that we went to HS together. he said he couldn't remember, then i started asking him about certain people and events and parties and stuff. he started to remember a lot of stuff. but then he looks at me and says: "I'm sorry i don't remember you HT." i felt like throwing up. still do. he tells me "I can't remember things because of (insert large #) ECT's." karma is a bitch.

that's a strange coincidence. so did you actually apologize to the guy?

 

[H_T_]

that's a strange coincidence. so did you actually apologize to the guy?

yes i did. but it was akward because he was completely fucked up. seemed like he was half aware. i guess, from what he was telling me, that after HS, he joined the Navy, where, he said, the dehumanizing continued. it was worse on board his ship. then came the break downs. all i know is that from the time i met him, 7th grade, through HS, that guy never got treated well. like fucking Carrie.....

 

[Smurfy]

yes i did. but it was akward because he was completely fucked up. seemed like he was half aware. i guess, from what he was telling me, that after HS, he joined the Navy, where, he said, the dehumanizing continued. it was worse on board his ship. then came the break downs. all i know is that from the time i met him, 7th grade, through HS, that guy never got treated well. like fucking Carrie.....

A guy i went to grade school with and who lived in my neighborhood used to take a lot of teasing. i dont know if he was ever physically bullied at that age but we all teased him incessantly. i moved in 7th grade and i found out years later that he ended up shooting himself in the head in high school.

 

[H_T_]

A guy i went to grade school with and who lived in my neighborhood used to take a lot of teasing. i dont know if he was ever physically bullied at that age but we all teased him incessantly. i moved in 7th grade and i found out years later that he ended up shooting himself in the head in high school.

yeah, we had a guy hang himself after taking too much teasing for too long. and, at the funeral, there were all these bitches crying. ones that were not the least bit friendly to him. one of the guys who fucked with him didn't show up at the funeral, but was outside the parlor, and was calling people fucking hypocrites as they left. i don't think that stuff happens anymore. now i think the kid just takes dad's gun collection to school one day...

 

[Spartacus]

Your problem is that you want me and I shot you down.... even as an alter.

So who is laughing now?

sorry bitch
I didn't return your PM
I can publish it

 

[Spartacus]

I'm in south central jersey myself.. How did you end up moving to Alabama? People die more frequently there? (Bad bad joke LOL).

I really would like to find a guy that fits that description who isn't a controlling asshole. There are some days when I honestly feel like giving up on a lot of things, but of course, because of my girls (I have four) giving up simply isn't an option.

Hope you have a safe trip, Sugarplumb.

Emilia

 

[H_T_]

I'm in south central jersey myself.. How did you end up moving to Alabama? People die more frequently there? (Bad bad joke LOL).

I really would like to find a guy that fits that description who isn't a controlling asshole. There are some days when I honestly feel like giving up on a lot of things, but of course, because of my girls (I have four) giving up simply isn't an option.

Hope you have a safe trip, Sugarplumb.

Emilia

she sounds spectacular. i could see lots of drama and face slapping, though. women won't square off with you, they'll just let it fly. wow(without warning)