Having to Live with Yourself.....

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LOL at bikinimom now

she woulda thrown a champange flute by now....

 

[Bikini Mod]

this could make for some good chat. so tell me, you never felt the urge to prey upon someone? well, i'm sorry, but i did. and have. in the animal kingdom, they have rogue animals, like wolves and hyenas and the like, that go around and murder the old and weak and sick. it's a neccessity. people die so others can live. and that's what i chose. to survive. i actually think that i can smell out certain people like that. ones that are close. not everyone can live. and i found that out at a young age. and fuck all if i wasn't going down tooth, fang and claw.....

Yea... you are REAL sorry for your past.

You are a hypocrite.

FUCK YOU.

I can HONESTLY SAY that I have never ever EVER felt that urge. NEVER have I hurt anyone.

I choose to smile and give others hope that NOT EVERYONE is on this planet to fuck you.

Call me weak.

Call me crazy.

Call me dumb.

It is all good you pathetic mother fucker because MY CONSCIENSE IS CLEAR and I need forgiveness from NO ONE.

FUCK YOU and your FAKE ASSED "SORRY" story.

 

[Bikini Mod]

LOL at bikinimom now

Your problem is that you want me and I shot you down.... even as an alter.

So who is laughing now?

 

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Yea... you are REAL sorry for your past.

You are a hypocrite.

FUCK YOU.

I can HONESTLY SAY that I have never ever EVER felt that urge. NEVER have I hurt anyone.

I choose to smile and give others hope that NOT EVERYONE is on this planet to fuck you.

Call me weak.

Call me crazy.

Call me dumb.

It is all good you pathetic mother fucker because MY CONSCIENSE IS CLEAR and I need forgiveness from NO ONE.

FUCK YOU and your FAKE ASSED "SORRY" story.

we're all hypocrites, Darlin'. we all suffer under others standards. i don't wanna call you names, i was just hoping to make you understand. not everything is what it seems.

 

[Bikini Mod]

we're all hypocrites, Darlin'. we all suffer under others standards. i don't wanna call you names, i was just hoping to make you understand. not everything is what it seems.

No baby, that is YOUR version of reality.

I am no hypocrite.

You cant make me understand fuckall because you are a fake. You ask our sympathy for what you did to this kid years ago when you continue your mean-spiritedness today?

I hope that someday someone takes from you a fraction what was taken from my children and then tell me how sorry you are for having been a total ASSHOLE.

Till then, you will get ZERO sympathy from me.

You mocked a mother who has had her children taken from her when she never EVER hurt you or anyone you knew. She shared with her children's father when even the law recognized he was an asshole. But she yielded because of a life of abuse. She didn't realize that she was fucking her children for doing "the right thing" by sharing them with their father.

Forgive me if I could give a shit about YOUR consciense.

You are an asshole pure and simple.

 

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No baby, that is YOUR version of reality.

I am no hypocrite.

You cant make me understand fuckall because you are a fake. You ask our sympathy for what you did to this kid years ago when you continue your mean-spiritedness today?

I hope that someday someone takes from you a fraction what was taken from my children and then tell me how sorry you are for having been a total ASSHOLE.

Till then, you will get ZERO sympathy from me.

You mocked a mother who has had her children taken from her when she never EVER hurt you or anyone you knew. She shared with her children's father when even the law recognized he was an asshole. But she yielded because of a life of abuse. She didn't realize that she was fucking her children for doing "the right thing" by sharing them with their father.

Forgive me if I could give a shit about YOUR consciense.

You are an asshole pure and simple.

loss is a relative concept. we've all lost something dear. you choose to make it worse by diverting your energy towards some "asshole" on a chat board. i'm not that bad. you'd like me if you met me.

 

[Bikini Mod]

loss is a relative concept. we've all lost something dear. you choose to make it worse by diverting your energy towards some "asshole" on a chat board. i'm not that bad. you'd like me if you met me.

"loss" is relative? FUCK YOU.

Baby there is no energy diverted. I am only here because I am bored.

And no, I could never find someone like you "likeable". People like YOU make my stomach turn.

You have no consciense. You have no morals or scruples. Every now and then you might find a "twinge" of guilt, but it doesnt last very long as you use it to stroke your fucking ego.

Sorry, but you will have to go somewhere else to quell that need as I aint buying. I will let the rest of the board who have not exposed their soft underbelies to you stroke it as they have not yet given you the opportunity to show them what you are truly made of.

I have been often chastised for exposing my greatest human weaknesses to all. It has been said to me, "Dont cry to us when the sharks eat you live for exposing your weaknesses."

I said it then as I will say it now, "If only ONE PERSON is helped by hearing my story and they feel they are not alone then it will have been worth it to me as I will have helped them.... I can take the wrath of the masses as I am strong to help those that are weak."

Can you say the same?

You dont fool me.

It is all a show so you can have your incredible ego stroked.


Whatever.....

I am not your judge.

I am NO ONE... just an old tired poledancing whore who was not a good enough mother to maintain custody of her children.

fuck you. I have no pity or compassion for you as you only present this story to ease your pathetic guilty consciense.

I have news for you: YOU SHOULD FEEL TREMENDOUS GUILT AND SHAME.

 

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"loss" is relative? FUCK YOU.

Baby there is no energy diverted. I am only here because I am bored.

And no, I could never find someone like you "likeable". People like YOU make my stomach turn.

You have no consciense. You have no morals or scruples. Every now and then you might find a "twinge" of guilt, but it doesnt last very long as you use it to stroke your fucking ego.

Sorry, but you will have to go somewhere else to quell that need as I aint buying. I will let the rest of the board who have not exposed their soft underbelies to you stroke it as they have not yet given you the opportunity to show them what you are truly made of.

I have been often chastised for exposing my greatest human weaknesses to all. It has been said to me, "Dont cry to us when the sharks eat you live for exposing your weaknesses."

I said it then as I will say it now, "If only ONE PERSON is helped by hearing my story and they feel they are not alone then it will have been worth it to me as I will have helped them.... I can take the wrath of the masses as I am strong to help those that are weak."

Can you say the same?

You dont fool me.

It is all a show so you can have your incredible ego stroked.


Whatever.....

I am not your judge.

I am NO ONE... just an old tired poledancing whore who was not a good enough mother to maintain custody of her children.

fuck you. I have no pity or compassion for you as you only present this story to ease your pathetic guilty consciense.

I have news for you: YOU SHOULD FEEL TREMENDOUS GUILT AND SHAME.

do not fear. i do. but, i can either wallow in it, or, do something about it. but i can see where you would be angry over this, as what you stated above is actually happening for me when i post my life's errors. men are much more influential than women. i truly wish your guilt would fade. you deserve better. everyone does.

 

[Gymgurl]

"I Was Wrong"

Oh, when I was young
I was so full of fear
I hid behind anger, held back the tears
It was me against the world
I was sure that I'd win
But the world fought back, punished me for my sins
I felt so alone
So insecure
I blamed you instead, made sure I was heard
And they tried to warn me
Of my evil ways
But I wouldn't hear what they had to say
I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
I realize now that I was wrong

And I think about my loves
Well, I've had a few
Well, I'm sorry that I hurt them
Did I hurt you too?
I took what I wanted
Put my heart on the shelf
But how can you love me when you don't love yourself?
It was me against the world
I was sure that I'd win
The world fought back, punished me for my sins
And they tried to warn me
Of my evil ways
But I couldn't hear what they had to say

I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
I realize now that I was wrong
I was wrong, yeah
I was wrong

I grew up fast
And I grew up hard
Something was wrong from the very start
I was fighting everybody
I was fighting everything
But the only one that I hurt was me
I got society's blood running down my face
Somebody help me get outta this place
How could someone's bad luck last so long?
Until I realized that I was wrong

I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
I realize now that I was wrong
I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
The only moment that I was me
I was wrong

 

[Gymgurl]

At last we meet again, dear God
Hear the angels sing
The funerals are nicer when we know you're there
When the angels sing
Sometimes
I try so hard
To understand
The things you do
I like to question you
When it all comes down
Hear the angels sing
Stand up strong
Feel the pain
When the angels sing
Love
And death
Don't mean a thing
Till the angels sing

The prisoners pray when they're on to death row
When the angels sing
The junky
Cries for love but it's all run out
When the angels sing
The sins
Of the world
And it's cold on the streets
And you're all alone
And the tears
They start to fall
When it all comes down
Hear the angels sing

Stand up strong
Feel the pain
When the angels sing
Love
And death
Don't mean a thing
Till the angels sing
Little
By little
Day by day
I watch the children play
Cause life
And death
Don't mean a thing
Till the angels sing

When the angel of death comes to looking for me
Hear the angels sing
I hope I was everything I was supposed to be
When the angels sing
There's gotta be a heaven
Cause I've already done
My time in hell
And a little
Baby's born when it all comes down
Hear the angels sing

Stand up strong
Feel the pain
When the angels sing
Love
And death
Don't mean a thing
Till the angels sing
Little
By little
Day by day
I watch the children play
Cause life
And death
Don't mean a thing
Till the angels sing