Have you ever felt like just giving up?

[blueta2]

When I think about you in particular, and other people who have been through alot of difficult circumstances...I feel stupid making threads like this. but as i stated, for some reason that alone doesnt change the way *I* feel

you're right about the journal entry though. i needed to put it down somewhere. it was clamored in my head for too long. that alone made me feel considerably better

Never feel stupid about your troubles or compare to others. Everyone has their own set of issues and the level of intensity it brings them.

My troubles are nothing compared to others as well. It's all relative.
It's GREAT that you can talk about it. You're already 90% ahead of most people who can't communicate their feelings.

 

[nefertiti]

yeah i know you're going through alot of shit too.
especially in your line of work, i dont know how you can see that everyday.

im sure your baby provides you inspiration though to get through the tough times.


its sad but i care more for helping others close to me than myself . thats how i was with my ex..and now i dont give a shit. its almost like i need to have a kid or some fucked up obligation/situation to wake up from this coma. i dont even feel like im alive anymore. just being

I have not read all the responses here...but YES I've been where you are...for different reasons, but I've been there. I bolded that part because I've learned that caring for others first is, in a way, another form of avoidance. I always found it inherently easier to look after the needs of others than it was to turn that focus inward.

I know what it's like to get stuck in some horrible cycle...to feel like you're drowning on the inside while everyone around you sees this happy person who has everything going for them (or so it seems to them). The lack of any real connection to anyone. Hell, I've been there three times now.

Blueta gave some awesome advice. Finding a way to get all these emotions out is extremely cathartic and theraputic, and I always found writing them down to not only help me get the thoughts out of my head, but sort them and understand them better, too. What I said a few weeks back about support groups can be found in writing, too. Getting things like this out of your head takes the power away from them.

Keep pushing through....find an outlet for these thoughts...and things WILL turn.

 

[silverstar1025]

You are not alone, CW. Hang in there!

 

[javaguru]

Pick3 has given up on trying to be str8........

 

[fistfullofsteel]

mets lost 2 in a row, it's your fault. just saying.

 

[EnderJE]

Time heals all wounds. Sure, it may seem like another line right now and that we're not helping by saying that we've all been there, but still.

 

[calveless wonder]

Time heals all wounds. Sure, it may seem like another line right now and that we're not helping by saying that we've all been there, but still.

I've always believed that...but now i'm not so sure.

I just feel like i'm taking steps backward in many ways and getting further away from my happiness and becoming diverted from my goals. i haven't been able to address the things in my life(functionally) that held me back and emotionally things have just gotten worse. I'm getting older and when i look at my friends lives and people around me and the expectations that others have of me, it only makes it worse. Before it was the opposite..I had the life they envied. i try to accept it as much as possible that it is not the case, but i dont know if ive completely let go

there have been times where i thought i was at peace with what happened, but my mindset has shifted so many times. Some days i'll feel guilty...some days i'll feel tons of pain, other days anger. Very rarely i'll feel like it had a true purpose and was intended to happen, but those days are not common enough.

what worries me is that this is a deep rooted problem with my beliefs and thought process. As far as how i viewed the situation, and my feelings toward the past. I felt at peace when i believed that this happened for a reason and that better things are ahead...but as more setbacks occur the further i look to the life i had and question whether i'll ever be able to get it back. This negative mindset has literally spiraled to every other aspect of my life where i'm literally paralyzed to step out of my comfort zone. Its crazy that i recognize this but as im typing this i feel like my mind has a strong grip on me and never wants that to pain to occur again, so instead it completely shuts down.

i might have to self ban myself from EF and shut off my satellite dish or something.take away all my procrastination/escape tools

 

[PICK3]

Pick3 has given up on trying to be str8........

cum on bro, this is a serious thread

 

[calveless wonder]

cum on bro, this is a serious thread

yep
the rule is, if you want to make an irrelevant comment on a serious thread...

it has to make people laugh with a good joke. not something crappy and predictable. but comedy has never been java's specialty

 

[nefertiti]

Time heals all wounds. Sure, it may seem like another line right now and that we're not helping by saying that we've all been there, but still.

While time does heal...I don't think it's a bad idea to be a little proactive about some of that healing. Rather than saying time heals all wounds I prefer to think simply that healing takes time.

Be patient with the process, but don't expect it to fix itself.