Extreme Depression

[LiveFastDieHard]

Hey bros...im going thru an extreme depression right now and thoughts of suicide constantly goin thru my head...i was just wondering what any of u guys that have been thru this did to get over it?...Im a freshmen in college and in all honesty I HATE it here..ive met alot of people but i wouldnt consider anyone my "friend" because usually i cant stand hangin out with them...i have no problems w/girls as i was getting laid a lot..then some bitch gave me herpes...ive seriously been contemplating just buying a couple bags of heroin and shooting it all up at once...just so i can go to sleep and never wake up..

 

[jh1]

Hey bros...im going thru an extreme depression right now and thoughts of suicide constantly goin thru my head...i was just wondering what any of u guys that have been thru this did to get over it?...Im a freshmen in college and in all honesty I HATE it here..ive met alot of people but i wouldnt consider anyone my "friend" because usually i cant stand hangin out with them...i have no problems w/girls as i was getting laid a lot..then some bitch gave me herpes...ive seriously been contemplating just buying a couple bags of heroin and shooting it all up at once...just so i can go to sleep and never wake up..

Broham... if your feelings are coming from the fact that you got herpes... go to some support group...

Either way... think of those that love you and how it will affect them.

Everybody has lows, you'll pull through... talk to someone that cares and will listen...

 

[jerkbox]

find a therapist man......if you're gonna stay at school, they usually have free counselors you can talk to.

 

[alien amp pharm]

I've went thru some bad times and each time months from that point it always got better. Bad times and good times are part of life. Be strong enough to make it thru the bad ones.

 

[SteelChic]

Just try to keep your head up, things could be worse. Bad things happen to everybody, noone is immune. I do agree that you should go to a support group. Being around people with the same problems will not make you feel "alone", cause you are not.

and.. if you need anybody to talk to or just want to vent... you can send me a PM(Especially If it is hard for you to find someone to talk too)

 

[Kroliczek]

Hey bros...im going thru an extreme depression right now and thoughts of suicide constantly goin thru my head...i was just wondering what any of u guys that have been thru this did to get over it?...Im a freshmen in college and in all honesty I HATE it here..ive met alot of people but i wouldnt consider anyone my "friend" because usually i cant stand hangin out with them...i have no problems w/girls as i was getting laid a lot..then some bitch gave me herpes...ive seriously been contemplating just buying a couple bags of heroin and shooting it all up at once...just so i can go to sleep and never wake up..

That happened to me my first semester at university. You have to be comfortable with yourself...and it sounds to me like you are not. Just relax and do not do anything harsh. There is nothing that bad that would make you want to end your life.

Check your pm's.

 

[jh1]

That happened to me my first semester at university. You have to be comfortable with yourself...and it sounds to me like you are not. Just relax and do not do anything harsh. There is nothing that bad that would make you want to end your life.

Check your pm's.

Your avatar is NOT helping the situation.

 

[Kroliczek]

Your avatar is NOT helping the situation.

LMAO! Ok. I'll change it to something else.

 

[jh1]

LMAO! Ok. I'll change it to something else.

There we go!

Is that YOU?

Nice Nips....

(I hate big fat sacks, so those will suit me just fine)

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

Life is piss...I feel ya

 

[gab9681]

Yup, same old same old man. Freshman in college, meeting way too many new people, nailed some chick who gave you herpes......it happens all the time. You are stressing out because you are suddenly out on your own, you have schoolwork and classes to hit up, your usual circle of friends is no where to be found, and you nailed a skank. This is pretty common for a freshman in college. So don't feel like you are the only one. Just don't be a pussy and kill yourself. Be a man and find ways to deal with life's bullshit. We all have to. Find a counselor on campus. Call up an old high school bud and chat about the good old days. Find some good midget porn and work your boy over til he's raw. Everyone has their own ways of working through it. You will get over it, you will be fine and you will be a stronger person for it when the cloud passes over you. Just toughen up man and you'll be good to go.

 

[big_bad_buff]

change your life. go talk to a pastor at a calvery chapel church

Hey bros...im going thru an extreme depression right now and thoughts of suicide constantly goin thru my head...i was just wondering what any of u guys that have been thru this did to get over it?...Im a freshmen in college and in all honesty I HATE it here..ive met alot of people but i wouldnt consider anyone my "friend" because usually i cant stand hangin out with them...i have no problems w/girls as i was getting laid a lot..then some bitch gave me herpes...ive seriously been contemplating just buying a couple bags of heroin and shooting it all up at once...just so i can go to sleep and never wake up..

 

[curling]

Dude I have gone through three depressions and even had a gun in my mouth a couple but I never pulled the trigger. I guess the fear of never ending burning in Hell and not being able to die was scarier than life. But if you already slumped into a clinical depression you ain't going to snap out of it. It is horrible. Tell me about your day? Tell me about your mood during the day? Are you always sad and how do you sleep and eat?

 

[geminitwins]

someone once asked me what would happen if I committed suicide, and found that even after death my problem followed me? How then would I escape?

Isolation is suicide's greatest ally. Don't give in to it.

If you need to vent or "talk" to someone, PM me.

take care of you.

ps..you know what I do sometimes, even though I know its awful, I go and read through message boards of others who feel suicidal/depressed, and then I find I have reason to thank God for what I have.

 

[curling]

someone once asked me what would happen if I committed suicide, and found that even after death my problem followed me? How then would I escape?

Isolation is suicide's greatest ally. Don't give in to it.

If you need to vent or "talk" to someone, PM me.

take care of you.

ps..you know what I do sometimes, even though I know its awful, I go and read through message boards of others who feel suicidal/depressed, and then I find I have reason to thank God for what I have.

No doubt you can pm me too dude. You don't want to do it. Suicide is a long term solution for a short term problem.

 

[gab9681]

The problem with suicide is that it is a very selfish thing to do. Just think about how it will affect your family and friends. If you are living with a roomie at college, it will fuck him up for sure. I attempted suicide once. Everyone thinks about it, and maybe even some have loaded up the shotgun and rested a finger on the trigger. I have done this several times throughout my younger years. But only once did I actually go through with the plan. I wrote up my note, grabbed a utility knife, and put a nice deep 6 inch gash into my left wrist. I even angled it so it went more parallel to my wrist. I had read that this worked better and was harder for the ER guys to fix in time. I eventually passed out and woke up in the ER. My mother found me in my room with blood everywhere and called 911. I had to go through counseling and the whole deal. If fucked up my parents and friends pretty bad. About a year later, I went to a homecoming party at a friend's house. She was freshman in high school (I was a junior). She invited her "crush" to her party and "asked him out". He said she was a really nice gal, but he wasn't interested in her in that way. Well, she went into her bedroom crying. We later found out that she had been suffering from depression and lots of family problems that she had kept from us. About an hour later a bud and I decided to go check on her to make sure she was okay. We found her hanging from her ceiling fan. She was already dead. I had to pull her down from the ceiling. It was the most not-fucking-cool thing I have ever had to do. That shit still haunts me. More counseling for all of us with that one.

So what I am trying to say is that not only think about yourself. By doing this, you fuck up everyone's lives around you as well. PM me if you like. I'm always up for a good talk.

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

ya know, If I killed myself years ago like I wanted to, I wouldn't of missed a fucking thing
We're all very insignificant specs of matter on an even smaller time line...
Everybodies all about: "don't do it". Who cares? What, You're gonna miss some shitty new TVshow, or song that no one will remember in 2 weeks. 50 Years of working a shit job that'll barely feed your spoiled kids and fat, putrid wife.
Rotting away like 4 billion other bags of human shit in an endless sea of suburban housing.

 

[Subzeero]

I am going to be as straight forward as possible.

There are ups and downs in life. After a dark night there is always a morning, its a law of nature. Besides sometimes, the chemicals in your brain don't quite add up, so you just have to sit this one out dude.

After wasting most of my life, with gangs and bad friends, I made it to university at age 20. Its my very first term/semester. I have no freinds whatsoever in school. I know people from clubs but no friends. I also had to move out, for my piece of mind. Without even a bed or any cooking skills. Anyhoo, its been five months and i have learned a lot. A couple of good freinds will make life really easy on you. So invest in people who you allready know. Its a hard time. Fight it and live trough it big guy.


ps. Never ever do drugs, or God help you.
and whacking it off wouldn't hurt either. Getting a job, gym membership and sweating; all are good things in life.

 

[jerseyart]

Sorry to read about your troubles man.

The most important thing is to recognize that your feelings arent unique. Its part of living.

You need to get professional help pronto. There arethings happening with your mind, feelings, and even body chemistry that you arent even aware of which are effecting your perspective. Thats normal, but like anything else thats wrong with us, we need professional help to correct them.

Don't let it go man. You dont have to continue living like this, there are soultions. Once you do, you will regret having let the problem continue for so long unaided

Good luck man. Your in my prayers

 

[Lestat]

Its common to go through this shit man, and have these feelings. Especially in college. I have had them myself many times and you can see by this thread that other people have too.

Suicide is a long term solution to a short term problem, you are smarter then that.

 

[Tom Treutlein]

Ulcaster has very existentialism-esque beliefs.

Keep your head held high, man. What's done is done. Whatever happens, happens. I don't think suicide is selfish at all. I think, in fact, the people who say it's selfish are the selfish ones. People want you to stay around and be miserable because they don't want your death to hinder their lives. pfft. Fuck that. If you're that miserable, do it.

But you know what? Even if we are only "specs of matter on an even smaller timeline" or some shit. Even if we are insignificant. Even if it all means nothing. Don't do it. Why? Well, why not? Why go down like that? If death is nothingness (which is what I believe) and you're not even you. If there's nothing. Not just darkness and you can't see but you can think. I mean...empty. Not even empty. Just...not, if that makes sense. If that's what it is, why sell yourself short?

I'll take a life of misery, pain and experience if it's my only chance, over death. Why? I guess I enjoy my own suffering and triumph. I like rollercoasters, so why not this one?

 

[Sub-Zero]

No doubt you can pm me too dude. You don't want to do it. Suicide is a long term solution for a short term problem.

my lifes not nearly as bad but i played comp games from like age 10-13 which is the time most people made good friends, then i moved right before highschool so everyone hangs out with their middles chool ggroups and if thats not bad enuff im ugly and have a terrible personality so everyone hates me.
4 days in a row and i havnt left my room..

you can PM me or IM me at SublimeZM on aim if u wanna talk to me as well. goodluck man.

i also agree with the counseling suggestion

 

[rsnoble-im-back]

Ill trade you your herpes for my burn wounds. Sorry bro, these are definetely trying times for many of us. Im going thru the worst time of my life now and won't say I haven't thought about it. I think it's only natural. Kinda like wanting to kill someone you really hate. It's fun to think about but you really wouldn't do it. I won't lie-it's hard to be in a position to have to continually pull your head out of your ass to see the light of day and stay positive. Seriously if your getting really down on this id suggest help immediately because you could slip into serious dpression and actually do it. Most likely you only think you are seriously depressed. You really cross the line when you won't even do things like discuss it here on EF.

 

[Sub-Zero]

Ill trade you your herpes for my burn wounds. Sorry bro, these are definetely trying times for many of us. Im going thru the worst time of my life now and won't say I haven't thought about it. I think it's only natural. Kinda like wanting to kill someone you really hate. It's fun to think about but you really wouldn't do it. I won't lie-it's hard to be in a position to have to continually pull your head out of your ass to see the light of day and stay positive. Seriously if your getting really down on this id suggest help immediately because you could slip into serious dpression and actually do it. Most likely you only think you are seriously depressed. You really cross the line when you won't even do things like discuss it here on EF.

burn wounds?

 

[*MissFit*]

HMM trust me life can be alot worse.. but if your really feeling sucicidal.. you should go talk to a doctor.. or conseilor.. bring things back inot perspective

 

[theoak01]

hey bro,ya havent posted back,hope things are cool

anyway the only advice I have is keep busy,avoid drugs and alcohol and it will pass,Ive been going through some shit lately thats fucking me up hardcore and it seems like a new problem adds on atleast once a week, and the booze/drugs Ive been hiding in has been bringing those thoughts on,but I cut that shit out and Im sure Ill ride through this down with the help of good friends.

if it gets to much goto a doc also,and get meds,they can help

 

[Tom Treutlein]

You know, I don't see why people say drugs are so bad. I mean, in extreme doses, anything is bad. Alcohol is horrible for you. It's a fucking poison, basically. Weed, though? DXM? I haven't seen anything bad happen from prolonged usage of either. Nothing besides some slight, temporary short-term memory loss from weed smoked chronically.

I don't think it's the drugs, per-say, but rather the enviroment in which they're done. If you do a light DXM trip or smoke a bit of grass with a bunch of close friends who will help cheer you up, I don't see anything bad coming from that.

And don't give me this shit about drugs doing so many bad things to you, because a lot of it is fucking government propaganda. Look at these god damn TV commercials for anti-drug support and shit. Anyone in America who has seen the black boy hurt his little brother because he didn't want to go to his party because he was high and acting like an asshole will know. People are assholes to begin with! The drugs won't always make them that way!

RAWR!

For happy kittens

 

[theoak01]

for some people drugs make things alot worse,Im one of them,thats why I say avoid them and keep a clear head so you make logical decisions not drug induced ones

 

[rsnoble-im-back]

burn wounds?[/QUOTE

I figured for sure everone on here heard by now. Long story short I got blown up in a lacquer thinner explosion in June and received 80% burns. Fortunetely face only got 1st degree and it healed and im just as ugly as ever. My hands are at about 15% useage and my right arm is fucked and headed for a 3rd surgery soon.

 

[Sub-Zero]

burn wounds?[/QUOTE

I figured for sure everone on here heard by now. Long story short I got blown up in a lacquer thinner explosion in June and received 80% burns. Fortunetely face only got 1st degree and it healed and im just as ugly as ever. My hands are at about 15% useage and my right arm is fucked and headed for a 3rd surgery soon.

oh damn man.

im really sorry to heara bout that, goodluck

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

Ulcaster has very existentialism-esque beliefs.

Your location is Long Island, NY .

 

[curling]

burn wounds?[/QUOTE

I figured for sure everone on here heard by now. Long story short I got blown up in a lacquer thinner explosion in June and received 80% burns. Fortunetely face only got 1st degree and it healed and im just as ugly as ever. My hands are at about 15% useage and my right arm is fucked and headed for a 3rd surgery soon.

That sucks dude. How did the explosion happen?

 

[Tom Treutlein]

Your location is Long Island, NY .

Uhhh...and?

 

[GoldenDelicious]

hiya im a pharmacist and i deal with depressed people all the time. i call them "my family" and because of that, sometimes i call them "me"

anyway in all seriousness, just go to a doctor and chat to him. you probably wont feel like it, theres NO way youll be in the mood to, but you have to get the ball rolling, and a doctor is the best place to get that happening. pick up the phone, make an appointment, and go. depression is an illness, and can be treated like one. there are drugs you can use (even though i KNOW you LOVE the sound of that) and other non drug measures. at the end of the day, youre nothing out of the ordinary. lots and lots of people ahve been where you are, and most of them came out of it thinking "hm, i shouldnt have felt so bad back then".

anyway, before i type half a novel, just pick up the phone, make an appointment. thats it.

good luck

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

Uhhh...and?

exactly...