do I look like that?or not!

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Ok let me try my best to explain myself..When I look in a mirror of a well lighted room and flex or even not flexing,I am not to happy with my built.But !! If I pose in a mirror in a dim lighted room or better yet under a light and looking at my reflection in a window that the room on the other side of the window is dark,I see cuts and veins and rips galour,some times in the right lighting I look the same way in digital photos(thats some times)..Now when i get back from gym I ask my friend look do you see my abs and he says not really just a little,then when he sees me posing in the corridor window on my office where again the other side of window is very dimly lite he says holy shit! look at the rips.almost two different people..Now I am kinda pale!

thanks for reading and for any advise