I dont know what do....i still love her in a way but i dont feel like i could ever go back....i have started a new chapter in my life...it feels like a trap...im happy right now but i love my kids more than anything in the world and would love to see them everyday and have my family back together again..its the most difficult thing i have and ever will have to deal with in my life..i still have feelings but i feel the damage has been done...i went through hell for 6 months of my life was on anti-depressants to pretty much stay alive...i know i should do whats right for me but its so difficult....i dont think she can change and it would take so long to build that trust back again....i put a ring on her finger for a reason because i loved her and i always will but i feel the damage is too much too handle...please no fucking stupid posts in this thread...i could never handle getting hurt or going through this process again either.