I was actually gonna start my own thread on this, because there are some issues that I need to address in my life at the moment, and I learned everything I know here on this board in the last 7 or 8 years. Actually I registered back in 98, but changed usernames years later. I guess I will give you some insight on what I've learned through experience. I started using when i was 22 which is not bad considering the age at which some of these kids in High School are starting. My first cycle, I didn't know shit....literally. I took a bottle of T-50 for six weeks, gained almost 20 pounds. You can probably guess what I would do over about that first cycle. Over the next few years my obsession with my body got worse and worse. I was actually terrified, and still am, about being skinny. Once people know you as the "Big Guy" you almost have a duty to keep that up, sort of like it's your identity. Nobody in college knows me any other way except for being big. So it's a huge mental thing with me. If my pants fit loose or a shirt fits loose, I freak, and immediately want to eat, work out, and of course get on the juice. Over the last 2 years it has been VERY difficult to get off. I have come off a month or two at a time, and even less in the past year. Completely out of hand. Steroids to me are the most mentally addicting substance that I have ever got my hands on. I can quit everything else, but this stuff is beyond my control. Now don't get me wrong, this is not gonna happen with everyone. Not even close. I have an extremely small frame, and If I didn't work out, I would dissolve into complete nothingness. I can't let that happen. As far as it's affects on the brain. I had a small bit of depression when i was 18, before I started any juice, so I know it didn't cause the depression I live with today. It did however make it worse as far as I'm concerned, and anxiety has always been an issue. You absolutely can't get too caught up in the stuff, or you will wake up one day and realize that almost a decade has gone by and you have gotten nothing accomplished, besides the fact that you weigh 70 lbs. more. Mix that with the fact that it will disapear in a flash if you don't keep up the calories, and the workouts. Those two things are a very good combination to cause some sort of depression. I take lexipro now for the depression, and It has saved my life....literally. Keep in mind that I never blamed the steroids for any of it, seeing that I did have in the family. It's just hard to say what effects they had on me. The stress of always looking your best is what gets to you. I'm a perfectionist, and I have the absolutely hardest body to keep weight on. So it has been a struggle. Working out is my aphrodesiac, and without it I don't think I could or would want to wake up every day. Now I'm worried about things such as blood pressure, and prostate problems. Just remember to do your research. That can't be said enough. Know your family history, and know what drugs you should stay away from. Don't figure this out ten years down the line, when you can take the time and make the right desicions now. So basically just like every drug, I would say take steroids in moderation, and get your blood work done. Remember to pay close attention to any changes in mood and feelings. Don't get too caught up in the way you look, because steroids are a fix for that, and that's where the mental addiction will come in, and it WILL come in if you let it. I worry now about my health, and of course when I was young I didn't think twice about it. "I'm only gonna do one cycle" How many damn people have I heard say that? More than I can count. Just be careful guys, and don't overlook anything. Do your research, and think LONG TERM. Life is short. I was gonna make a thread about some of AG guys research products, as far as GH, but I don't want to make a source post. If anyone has any experience with these, or anything that can help me get off this stuff, I would greatly appreciate the help. I will try Omega's product too, once it comes in stock...sounds like good stuff.