Have you ever seen the movie "Spun"? That was my life on Meth "crank" for seven years. That was now eight years ago and I finally have got back something that resembles what my life (and my body) used to be like.
As far as my mind goes, well that is yet to be determined. I will be going in for Neurol Site testing on April 1st to help understand why I have experienced extreme memory loss over the last year (like remembering my home address).
Being a chemical engineer, I was often recruited for producing the product. Something I am not proud of. But believe me, I was amazed at the idiotic decisions that were made to forego critical final rinse steps and/or substitute unfit chemicals in the process. The stuff I saw going out was not fit to go into someone's body.
For those of you that say you can do it and walk away from it. At one time I could too, then it became so available to me there was no looking back. Hopefully that never happens to you.
It is just not worth it, from somebody that is still paying for the mistakes I made.
Being a chemical engineer, I was often recruited for producing the product. Something I am not proud of. But believe me, I was amazed at the idiotic decisions that were made to forego critical final rinse steps and/or substitute unfit chemicals in the process. The stuff I saw going out was not fit to go into someone's body.
For those of you that say you can do it and walk away from it. At one time I could too, then it became so available to me there was no looking back. Hopefully that never happens to you.
It is just not worth it, from somebody that is still paying for the mistakes I made.
I agree about the fact that if it's easily accessible all of the time, and that you enjoy it, then it would be pure hell to NOT do it.
But, some of it is also related to what people enjoy doing with their lives. For instance, my friends go gambling a lot and it's available, but it's just not something that I like doing or spending my money on. Marijuana has been in my house before, and I occasionally like to do it, but a girl that lived with me for a month did it every night and I just didn't want anything to do with it. Same thing with cigarettes - once in a blue moon, but just not me. Alchohol, I admit, is a little bit more difficult for me to say no to. However, I just don't go out much and that solves that problem.
Mostly, it comes down to one's self. If you see yourself going down an alley that you know that you don't want to go down, just get out of it or find something else to do. It's really not as difficult as it sounds, it just sometimes seems that way. But, once you're in the alley, oh my god . . .